"What's wrong with KFC? It's delicious," Xiao Ni mumbles while taking one out from the bucket. Despite her beautiful image, she nonchalantly eats it with a bare hand.
"..."
Fu Qun takes his role as Xia Sha's P.assistant and whispered something to Xiao Ni. Xiao Ni chews while listening, but then she choked on her chicken and look at her brother with an amused face.
"We can send a KFC food truck?" she suddenly gets excited.
"..." what's wrong with these two brother and sister?
Anyway, that is all about Kentucky Fried Chicken. Xia Sha smells it too much in one day that she got nausea when they eat the fried chicken in the living room. She decided to get fresh air on the balcony.
"Penny of your thought?"
Xia Sha is not surprised upon hearing Guan Xian's voice from behind. She hears the door sliding not long after she stands there. She felt his gaze fall on her back and his presence approaching her.
It's snowing mildly. The night is as cold as how winter night should be. Yet they both enjoying the cold breeze without extra clothes to warm their body.
"The KFC traumatized me," she honestly answers without looking at him. Guan Xian smiles become stiff as he stands next to her in the trail.
"I just found KFC is memorable. It's part of our interesting meeting," he chuckled and play with the snow in the air.
He seems to be enjoying watching the snow melted on his warm, big palm. Xia Sha subconsciously followed his gesture and played with the snow.
"It is sweet and memorable if you did not include it in every little thing," Xia Sha mumbles as she watches the snow melting on her little palm. Maybe because she is colder, she finds out that the snow melts longer on her palm.
"Sorry. I only like to recall every moment we have, especially our early meeting. It occasionally runs on my mind. It's amusing," Guan Xian said with unusual calmness.
Two weeks as official Guan Xian's girlfriend, Xia Sha found many things behind Guan Xian's -sometimes- chaotic behavior. Take an example this right moment. He could be as silly as sending KFC food truck to her office. Or as composed and calm as he spills a bit of his sweet thought.
Rather than finding their memory is amusing, Xia Sha finds him more intriguing.
"I don't know how something so sweet could turn into something so twisted. You are one weird guy," Xia Sha shook her head, but her gaze got softer as she pours the melted snow on her hand into his palm.
"And you are one mystifying lady to keep up with this weird guy."
He poured the water and clasped their finger together. Xia Sha is slightly surprised by his sudden move, but she did not push him away.
"NO! XIAO NI DOESN'T SHARE FOOD!" They heard Xiao Ni bickering with Xiao Zhan, who tried to steal her KFC bucket. Childish.
"And a bunch of Mafia inside," Xia Sha chuckles while glancing inside the living room. Guan Xian smiles and enjoys a period of silence between them.
Both have the same thought and waiting for the other side to bring it up first. Xia Sha waited, but her curiosity got the best out of her. Gazing away to the beautiful metropolitan Capital City buried in snow, she leaned in toward him and probed subtly.
"Are you angry?"
It is a weird question to ask, especially when Guan Xian acted cheerfully and all smile.
But her question is not baseless. She does felt guilty, and it makes her nervous now when Guan Xian stared at her with an unfazed smile.
"Should I be angry?" he asked back.
"Don't you felt betrayed?"
"Because you call Xiao Zhan when you feel sad?" He shook his head and surprisingly look wise and mature.
"You call him because you felt comfortable sharing your misery with him. Why should I get angry because of that? It's not like you are cheating. He is there for you as a friend, not a pursuer."
Xia Sha looks at him with slight confusion.
"I would be angry if you do that to me," she confessed honestly.
The thought of him partying with his friend has freaked her out. How can she acted calm and composed like Guan Xian if she were standing in his shoes right now?
"I knew. You almost burn me to death with your cold voice before. Sound like you are having a lot of fun there. Partying with your mafia friends?" He imitated Xia Sha's voice and tone when he called her in the restaurant.
"Shut up," she snarls.
Xia Sha, who just teased were embarrassed. She wanted to retrieve her hand but was unable to move it. Guan Xian chuckles as he pulls her closer to his side.
"Have I told you how much I enjoy making you angry?"
"..." So straightforward.
"You did not tell me, but your action speaks loud enough."
Wrapped her shoulder around his arm, he stops playing around and get serious. Xia Sha watched his adam's apple wobble up and down before his deep voice rang through the night.
"I might felt sadden, a little. But I understand why you call Xiao Zhan instead of me. It only saddened me that I can't be there for you when it happens in the past,"
There is a trace of helplessness in his voice, but he sounds sincere. It softens Xia Sha's heart and mind.
Guan Xian understands that what she needed the most at that time is comfort. And if that comfort did not come from him as her boyfriend. But from Xiao Zhan, a friend who happens to know every detail of what happens to Xia Sha when her parent's divorce, that is okay.
"Sometimes it's irking when people show their concern. It doesn't necessarily mean the attention they give is a bad thing. No. But when something bad happens to you, you need a space to think and be alone."
"Hm. I remember the gaze when my parents divorced stated to blew up. They rushed to asked my condition to show that they care. But I was irritated to answer." Xia Sha subconsciously reveals her little secret that she kept inside. Guan Xian smiles and agreeing with her statement, he added.
"I hate answering people's question the most when I have a problem I can't solve."
"Yeah."
"Yeah."
There is a long silence between them, but Xia Sha did not felt awkward at all. Instead, she felt calm under his embrace, and subconsciously rested her head on his chest.
She did not realize how Guan Xian's heartbeat increased significantly, and his body turns stiff. She is his shoulder tall. He only needs to lower his head to smell fragrant that he believes comes from Xia Sha's hair.
He only people who get addicted to smells of gasoline or marker sometimes. But he never knew people could get addicted to hair!
He is trying to smell her hair again, but she has turned away to look at him intently. He loses the fragrant but gained a breathtaking view of her beautiful eyes instead. He smiles, waiting for her nervous words.
"I- I'm sorry. I don't think I can't play it fair with you. You trust me enough to let me confide with a man who has a feeling for me. Meanwhile, I can't even trust you..."
Some words are needed to be said before it suffocated you. It's the same value as if you don't get it off your chest, You will never be able to breathe.
Xia Sha felt she need to tell Guan Xian the truth about her. She did not want to hide her wounds and keep them to herself. She tried to hide it from Ling Guang. Appearing like a Wonderwoman with no weakness.
It did not work out.
And she needly wanted this relationship to work out with Guan Xian. She doesn't want to lose him. For the second time, she felt that frustrating feeling rushing back.
The feeling she tried with all her might to avoid.
Fear of losing him.
"I understand, it's alright. We will work on it slowly,"
Endless warmness and patience are coming from his solemn face. Xia Sha is stunned, especially when those dark brown eyes are staring at her so dearly.
She wanted to deny this, but she can't.
She felt loved by him.
It felt so addicting, and she wanted him to fill the same. She also wanted him to felt the same. She wanted him to felt how she loves him. And for that, she needs to trust him.
"It's going to be tiring for you," she suddenly said when his face is three centimeters away from her. He blinked and rolled his tongue out to moisten his dried lips.
Xia Sha watched and suddenly felt her cheek burning hot. There is something sensual about his gesture. She is suddenly aware of how close they stand to each other.
She tried to take a step back, but once again, Guan Xian did not let her do as she wanted. His strong arm circled her waist as he whispered to her ears.
"It's going to be tiring, but relationship it's all about hard work, isn't it?" He smiles enchanted Xia Sha one more time. She holds her breath because she agreed with him.
Another point is that she needs to hold her breath because he has put his lips against her and slowly sucking all her stock of oxygent.
Under the moonlight, they kissed.
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BTS
The mafia in the living room POV
Zheng Shuang: [whispering to Kai Xin] Damn these two single dog abuser! Look at the balcony!