It could motivate you to build your empire or burn it into ashes in one night. It could convince you to open up to somebody new or burn every bridge you had to stay away from someone. It makes Xia Sha believe that Guan Xian will never leave her like the other does the other day and make her anxious about the same problem today.
Xia Sha had always known that Guan Xian would either be her greatest love or biggest heartbreak.
The past heartbreak was hellish, but it's pale in comparison to the crazy thought she had in her mind right now. Xia Sha felt a big hand is squeezing out her heart as she watches Guan Xian breathe evenly.
From the first time they met, Guan Xian has always been the first to initiate the first move. He treated her like a queen, although Xia Sha herself realized how fucked up she is. She is the one who takes three step backs after moving one step forward, and Guan Xian is always the one who gives her courage to keep moving.
He never gives up on her. Not even a second Guan Xian ever doubts her. But tonight, Xia Sha could see the deep disappointment in Guan Xian's eyes. And although he is smiling, he didn't kiss her good night. Although he is lying beside her, she could felt the distance.
"Wouldn't it be easier if you fall in love with somebody else? Somebody that's less complicated to me, somebody that could give you a world without a second of hesitation?" Xia Sha mumbles in a very soft voice, almost as if she is whispering to herself.
Xia Sha turned to the nightstand on her side, reaching for her phone and slides it open, when she felt a warm hand wrapped around her waist. Instant butterflies fly over her stomach as her heart pounding fast. She felt chills on every nerve on her body as she heard a whisper behind her, "It would be easier, but I wouldn't be in love."
"You haven't sleep?" Xia Sha said in a surprised tone as she turned to him.
"I almost fall asleep when I remember I haven't kissed you good night," Guan Xian mumbles as he snuggles between Xia Sha's shoulder.
Has he ever mention that Xia Sha had successfully made him addicted to her smell? or the sound of her breathing? Or just anything about her?
As he looked into Xia Sha's eyes, he suddenly felt like a douchebag to deliberately leave her felt guilty. He got upset, but he shouldn't treat Xia Sha like that.
Now, as he spotted a trace of sadness on her gaze, Guan Xian felt his heart broke a little. He hasn't realized that Xia Sha has been silent for a while with a weird expression.
When Guan Xian realized something is not right, he raised his eyebrow at Xia Sha. Xia Sha shows a wary smile before she pointed at her phone in her right hand. On the lit-up display, Guan Xian could read the name 'Father."
"What the heck?!" Guan Xian mouthed at Xia Sha.
Xia Sha's lips twitched as she hesitantly said to her phone, "Hello, Dad?"
"Xia Sha, why did you call? and did I heard Guan Xian's voice there?!" Xia Qi Feng's baritone voice rang from the phone.
Guan Xian smacked his forehead with his hand. When Xia Sha prepared to answer, he took over the phone and decided to greet Xia Sha's father, "Uncle, I am here with Xia Sha."
Xia Qi Feng was silent for a long time. He's upset from his low tone when he clear his throat.
"So, why do you call?" Xia Qi Feng asked Xia Sha as if he never heard Guan Xian's greeting before.
Guan Xian: "..."
It's okay Guan Xian could understand. He would not be as cool as Xia Qi Feng if he heard a man's voice beside his daughter this late!
"Err, dad, Do you have time this Sunday?" Xia Sha decided to brush off her urge to laugh at Guan Xian's dumbfounded face.
"I have all the time in the world for you. What do you need?"
"Well, Guan Xian's parents invite us to lunch on Sunday. There are a few things we need to discuss. I'll also invite mom," Xia Sha said as she took a glance at Guan Xian.
"Oh, that sounds serious. Should I wear formal?" Xia Qi Feng random mumbles crack a smile on Xia Sha's face, replacing the nervous expression she had before.
Guan Xian shook his head and mouthed, "Casual will do."
"Casual will do. I'll text you the place and time tomorrow," Xia Sha said to Xia Qi Feng in a cherry tone.
"Okay, but what is this discussion about? You know I don't like surprise," Xia Qi Feng replied in his monotonous tone.
Xia Qi Feng's direct question makes Xia Sha hold her breath and stammer nervously.
"Well, dad, Guan Xian had proposed to me a few months ago, but only recently I- I agree to marry him. Hence, the wedding, therefore the discussion needs to happen this Sunday."
Xia Sha could hear a sharp intake of breath as Xia Qi Feng went silent for a long time.
"Dad?" Xia Sha tried to use a soft tone as she called Xia Qi Feng again.
Finally, after three seconds, Xia Qi Feng sounds to be calmer as he sighed, "Xia Sha, can you please don't look down on matter like this? I am happy for you, but how can you forget to say things as important as this to me? Did your mom know?"
Xia Qi Feng must've learned that scolding Xia Sha with loud voices isn't sufficient, so he began to use guilt traps like Guan Xian?!
"Well, mom-" Xia Sha hanged her sentence and somehow turned to Guan Xian. Guan Xian pressed his lips tight, he did not dare to look at Xia Sha, but his action has shown enough hint.
"Well, mom knows," Xia Sha said between her clenched teeth.
"Hmm," Xia Qi Feng grumped.
"Only about the proposal, she did not know about the lunch. I tell you about it first," Xia Sha quickly added before Xia Qi Feng goes thermonuclear on her.
"It's not a big deal," Xia Qi Feng murmured, but there is a slight difference in his tone as he quickly added, "Okay, I got it."
"Alright, dad, I'll-"
"Wait, give the phone to Guan Xian," Xia Qi Feng suddenly said, making Xia Sha statued on her position. If Guan Xian didn't ears drove their conversation, he will never know Xia Qi Feng wanted to talk to him. Well, good for him. He didn't want to be seen as an impolite son-in-law.
Guan Xian half forcefully took the phone from Xia Sha's hand as he gives out his best voice to greet Xia Qi Feng.
"Uncle, this is me," he tried to sound calm, although his heart is pounding faster than a racing car.
"Hm, can you go to my office tomorrow morning? Or after work, whenever you are free. I have something to say to you," Xia Qi Feng sounds colder than his usual tone.
Once again, Guan Xian didn't mind Xia Qi Feng's treatment. He will act worse if he is standing in Xia Qi Feng's shoes right now. He could imagine Xia Qi Feng prepared a boxing ring in his office tomorrow and beat the shit out of him.
"I'll go to Xia Corporation in the morning. Do I have to prepare something, uncle?" Guan Xian asked, still trying to remain composed.
"???... No?" Xia Qi Feng was hesitant with his answer because he doesn't understand Guan Xian's weird questions.
"Ah, okay," Guan Xian mumbles in slight disappointment.
He honestly hopes Xia Qi Feng would do something for him because he could do something worse in the future when he faces the same situations. And if Xia Qi Feng does, Guan Xian would have a reason to do so, and Xia Sha could not scold him.
Okay, fine, he thinks too far. But don't blame him. The future looks so exciting for him right now as Xia Sha's curious gaze intensely looks at him.
"What do you think my father wanted to say?" Xia Sha wonders after Xia Qi Feng hung up the call.
Guan Xian leaps half of his naked body across Xia Sha to put her phone back on the nightstand. A mischievous grin appears on his face as he steals a quick peck from Xia Sha.
"I don't know, but I hope he beat me to death."
"Are you out of your mind?" Xia Sha's corner of lips twitched as she watched Guan Xian find a comfortable position to sleep while facing her.
Guan Xian shook his head earnestly and ruffled Xia Sha's hair, "Nope, I'm more than sane tonight. But you better pray for me tomorrow. Let's sleep for now, shall we? Or do you haven't satisfied and deem for a second round?"
Xia Sha flushed the moment Guan Xian mention the innocent activities they just did. She did not answer Guan Xian but pulled the blanket high and tight enough to protect her from Guan Xian's dangerous sight.
Guan Xian chuckles upon watching her cute action. It always amused him how Xia Sha could be a literal psychopath at work and adorable as a doll in private. He had a beautiful dream that night as he watched Xia Sha's beautiful face to sleep.
He didn't know the little trouble that waited for him the next morning~