At 11 p.m., Clara woke up feeling the cold hit her body. She turned her head to the side, looking at Nathan who was sleeping so soundly, embracing his chest. The woman led her position to face her husband and then touched his jaw.
'You are so gentle, patient and so sweet ... I can't understand How you will deal with grief when this body dies,' she thought sadly.
Feeling someone touch his face, Nathan woke up and looked at Clara who was so close to his face.
"Hi," he said with a smile.
"Hmm ... Go to sleep, it's still night," said Clara with a fake smile.
"Then why are you awake? There's no way I could sleep well If you're still awake like this..."
"It's OK, babe..I'll sleep again after going to the bathroom," Clara said, then pulled Nathan to lean on her arm. She hugged her husband and stroked his hair gently. "Now go to sleep...."
"You love me, right?" asked Nathan.
"Of course. I love you more whatever you don't need to worry ... Until the end of my life, I will always be yours and love you," replied Clara, imagining that the real Clara had loved Nathan until her last breath.
Nathan frowned, looking up at Clara. "Why do you always talk about the end of life? Are you going to leave me?"
"No, I will not leave you but we as human are destined to leave this world," Clara said, then hugged Nathan again. "I don't know which of us the God will call first..but when I go first then I won't be able to see you hurt and sad for losing me..."
"And when you die, I will die too," Nathan said casually.
"Hey, don't say that," Clara shouted.
"Then what should I say? If indeed you die before me, then I will feel like I'm dead in my life. Maybe I can survive but on that day I was like dying because there is nothing more meaningful than you," Nathan said blankly. "I wish I never had a moment like that because just looking at you now makes me feel so scared and devastated."
"Then forget that fear... We'll enjoy the time we have together and ....happy," Clara said, kissing Nathan's forehead gently. "Now go to sleep ... I will always hug you."
"But you said you were going to the bathroom," Nathan said, looking up again.
"I canceled the plan to the bathroom," said Clara with a smile.
"Is it because of me?"
"Yeah ... Because I don't want to leave my sweet husband for a second ... Never," Clara said confidently, then kissed Nathan's lips with her eyes closed.
Nathan also returned the kiss gently, then leaned his face on Clara's chest while hugging her. The man closed his eyes again, then slowly fell asleep because of the feeling of comfort and happiness.
Clara breathed a sigh of relief after calming Nathan down and went back to sleep. She let go of her hug very slowly, then got out of bed and covered her husband with a thick white blanket. The woman grabbed her naked body, then saw her clothes and her husband's clothes lying on the floor.
Because it was cold and lazy to choose clothes in the closet, Clara took Nathan's shirt and put it on without wearing a bra or underwear. Hmm, that makes her cute.
Clara turned to take the diary that she kept in the bag that was on the table near the bed and carried it to the couch. She sat there and started to read the diary on the part of the page she opened at random.
__sweet moment
Hi... Oh my God!!! .I'm finally back in San Francisco and able to write here. Just so you know, I just went to Venice Italy with Nathan for a working visit. There I did not expect that something so interesting and even romantic would happen...
There, I got a surprise that was so sweet, luxurious, and what made me so happy was that for the first time in my life, I committed so deeply to a man that is him..!
We made love there... She treated me like a queen ....he made me surrender myself completely without hesitation or regret. He was the first for me, now I'm not a virgin anymore... But... It's Okay because I gave my honor to him... He is the right man and I will love him forever.
Yes...I don't think I have a reason to stop loving him... He's too sweet to be left behind, forgotten, hurt... I'm sure he's my destiny... I can't do without him, nor can I see him with someone else. To me he is mine, he is my love, and….and he is only mine!
I love you Nathan, my handsome and very gentle boyfriend ___
Clara was astonished when she had read the contents of that part of the diary. Her heart ached as she remembered that she had made love with Nathan so crazy, then now she knew that the real Clara would never let Nathan be with anyone else.
'I'm sorry, Clara… I didn't mean to hurt you, didn't mean to take Nathan away from you….I just... I just did what I had to do like you because I didn't want to disappoint him,' she thought very sadly.
"But you did it with a passion that came out of you, not just to make Nathan happy. You like his gentleness, don't you?" someone suddenly said from behind Clara.
Clara was surprised and immediately closed the diary. She looked back while standing, seeing Arion who came up to her very casually.
"You're here? you better not come here now or Nathan will be very angry and will be in trouble!" Clara said annoyed. "Why did you come when he was here? Do you want to see him angry and then I can't concentrate on completing my mission?"
"Then do you think you can concentrate after making love?" asked Arion. "And you shouldn't have panicked because you knew he wouldn't be able to see me."
"I think so," Clara replied then turned her head away and sat back down. ."If I don't make him happy while I'm in Clara's body, then he will be sad then he will make my strange behavior a problem... Of course, it makes it difficult for me to complete my mission."
Arion walked until he arrived in front of Clara. he crossed his arms, looking at her casually, but that gaze seemed to be probing him.
"You're not helping me at all... I'm having a hard time finding out what happened to me and Clara," Clara said curtly.
"Actually you saw one thing that wasn't good for you before you made love to Nathan," said Arion.
Clara was silent always remembering what happened before she was with Nathan. "You mean... Mia?" She asked remembering Mia who was now approaching Michael.
Arion nodded. "Yeah..."
Clara became uneasy, a feeling that became very worried considering Michael was now with Mia.
"Do you think Mia will make Michael out of me?" She asked.
"I don't know," said Arion with a shrug.
Clara sighed, looking at Arion in frustration. ."Oh... Come on. You said I've found something bad then why are you now saying you don't know? You don't make me dizzier! I don't even know where to start all this..."
"You can find a lot of things about Nathan and Clara's unsolved problems from that book," said Arion, glancing at the diary lying on the couch beside Clara.
"I was reading it and trying to find out what happened, but you surprised me and I'm sure after this you will suddenly disappear without giving me any help," said Clara curtly.
"Well..." Arion sighed. ."I came here because I wanted to lead you to a matter that you should know..."
"Hmm... What are you going to do?" asked Clara.
"Tomorrow, go to Casey's office... Uh, I mean go to your office because you are Casey."
For a moment Clara looked at Arion in surprise. "You know I'm Clara now, and I have no reason to go there!"
"But you have to go there," said Arion firmly.
"But what will happen there?" asked Clara in frustration.
"There is no ... .but you will know something that will harm you when you have the intention to go there," answered Arion casually.
Clara, who was confused, looked down languidly holding her head which was suddenly dizzy because this mission seemed very difficult for her to complete alone. .even Arion only gave a small hint, then just walked away. hmm... Actually, what will happen tomorrow?.