Su Nan didn't know why, but would have such a big reaction to a back figure.
But she has a gut feeling that if she doesn't stop, she'll regret it.
The car braked sharply.
She pushed the door and got out of the car, and looked back at the opposite reaction. At this time, the people there didn't know where they were going!
That limping back actually left so fast!
Inexplicably felt a heavy loss in my heart.
She seems to have been taken out of something important.
But she didn't understand at all.
"Miss, what's wrong?"
Chang Li got out of the car and looked around vigilantly, thinking that something had happened!
Su Nan looked at the empty street, her eyes flickered slightly, and she shook her head:
"nothing."
Her tone was low, with a strong sense of loneliness.
Is it her delusion?
For a moment, I felt that the limping back looked like Shang Qian?
But Shang Qian, who pays the most attention to neat appearance, has never been embarrassed.
She got back to the car and watched with her mobile phone, the message she sent was like sinking into the sea.
Never got any response again.
"I miss you so much, why haven't you come back?"
"Talk about hitting someone at school, I think you have to come back and criticize her!"
"I saw a person very similar to you today and thought it was you who came back!"
...
night.
Everyone is asleep.
Su Nan returned to the room with a glass of milk.
She looked at the medicine in front of her and her eyes narrowed slightly.
He took out the phone and called the psychiatrist.
The doctor is very responsible, even if he calls late at night, he has no temper:
"Miss Su, can't you fall asleep?"
Su Nan paused, "Yeah."
"You told me a few days ago that you can fall asleep normally, why can't you fall asleep again today?
Is it because of some external stimulus? Did anything happen to you today? "
Su Nan listened to the doctor's gentle voice and blinked.
She suddenly wanted to talk to someone.
And a moral psychiatrist is obviously a good object to talk to.
"I met someone who looked a lot like him, but couldn't possibly be him, and I thought he might be looking at me somewhere."
The psychiatrist was silent for a while, and his voice became a little dignified.
"How long has this situation lasted?"
"It started when I came to country f."
The psychiatrist exhaled slowly:
"It may be that changes in the environment have caused your psychological differences and feelings of exclusion, so you will have a sense of dependence from the heart, which is not a bad thing.
Miss Su, you should try to integrate into the lively environment and reduce the chances of getting along alone, which will prevent you from thinking wildly. "
Su Nan responded. Her active chatting with the doctor made the doctor feel good.
At least she herself has the will to escape from the inextricable pain.
She pursed her lips, "Are you saying this is my hallucination? If only I could be sure, what if he really appeared?"
The psychiatrist was silent for a moment before speaking in a gentle voice:
"Miss Su, this kind of psychology may be hypothetical, this person may not exist at all, but you have poured your thoughts on Mr. Shang into an irrelevant passerby, giving you a strong sense of expectation.
Then create an illusion for yourself, making you think that he may be paying attention to you. In fact, this is only caused by your psychological reasons. Is this person different from ordinary people? "
Su Nan frowned slightly, his blood coagulating slightly.
"Um."
"His performance is different from ordinary, and his appearance should be different, right?"
The psychiatrist accurately stated the person she saw today.
She complied, and the expectations that had risen in her heart gradually came to nothing.
The more accurate he said, the more false the explanation.
Is it really someone who imagined it?
Is it really her own fault?
She was utterly disappointed.
Why not him?
As long as he can come back and become what he is, she can accept it!
The psychiatrist slowly explained to her the changes in her mental state.
Su Nan couldn't listen anymore.
She put down the phone and let him speak to the air himself, then she went to the bookcase next to her and took a bottle of red wine that had been hidden for a long time.
Then, the milk in the milk cup was poured down the window, and the red wine was poured again, and it was drained.
A series of actions are completed.
She felt stiff all over, and slowly relaxed.
It seemed that even the air around him became light.
In the middle of the night, the moon and stars are sparse.
She looked out the window, stunned, tears fell without warning.
"Miss Su, don't take that medicine again. Since it has been discontinued, don't make yourself dependent on the medicine, drink some milk and try to put yourself to sleep."
"Miss Su, are you still listening?"
"Miss Su?"
...
Su Nan took a deep breath.
She wiped away her tears, picked up the phone from the side, and responded with a gentle and obedient voice, giving the appearance of being very obedient:
"I see, I won't take medicine, I just drank milk, and I'm going to sleep now..."
The psychiatrist breathed a sigh of relief:
"Okay, then I won't bother, just hang up."
"it is good."
After Su Nan finished speaking, he hung up the phone directly.
She raised her head, looked out the window, and hugged herself.
At that moment, it was extremely fragile.
It seemed that any force could break her gently.
But she didn't dare to be vulnerable in front of anyone.
She has seen Su Yifeng staying up for days and nights because of her, and she has also seen that Su Jin can let go of Wen Xiang, and the company's Su house runs from both ends...
How could she use her own life to torment the lives of others?
She found the WeChat page and opened Shang Qian's dialog box.
as always.
There is no response.
She typed slowly, her tears blurred:
"How could you leave me after I fell in love with you?"
How could he, such a gentle and modest person, such a meticulous and romantic person, do such cruel things?
It was he who made her full of expectations and hopes for life. She fantasized about how they would grow old together, but she couldn't wait for this day?
The kind of pain that came from the heart, densely spread all over the body.
It was clearly agreed that they would be together forever, and it was obvious that they had no obstacles.
Why is it still at this point?
"If I knew it would be like this, I shouldn't have been with you in the first place."
After she finished typing this line, she immediately deleted it.
Tears fell uncontrollably.
Under the influence of alcohol, her pain was doubled.
For a while, she cried so hard that she couldn't breathe, but she didn't make a sound.
She swallowed the pain alone.
If Shang Qian really saw it, how sad it would be!
A long night in a foreign country.
Because of the intuitive impact that the man in the suit brought her, the deadly loneliness and afterimages.
The emotions that had been suppressed by her couldn't help but explode.