During my middle school years, I thought that this is truly the spring of my life.
I, Yoshikawa, Yoshikawa Daikichi, have a girlfriend who was one of the cutest girls on campus.
Akari Beniya, my childhood friend.
In our middle school days, Akari and I were very much in love.
We were lovey-dovey at school, and even after school.
We flirted on our days off and of course chose the same high school.
However, after entering high school, things started to look suspicious.
Towards the end of the first semester we saw each other a lot less.
I'm in the Go-Home club, but she's in a band. There was no way around it.
"Sorry, I have band practice today."
More often than not, when I ask her out, she turns me down like this.
By the second semester onward, our conversations at school had diminished.
Around that time, Akari dyed her hair color from black to red.
I told her I preferred black, and she replied that I rather have it red.
I remember how awkward it became. Is this what they call a rut?
A Relationship Rut can be physical or emotional, but it basically means that you're feeling disconnectec from your partner in some way.
It's not surprising, since we've been dating each other since the first year of middle school.
I have to do something about this.
One day when I was thinking about that, I found out...
Akari had left the band a while ago.
But she refused the invitation, saying she was busy with her band activity.
I wondered if she had moved on to another club.
When I asked her about it, she said, "Of course, it's the Wind Instrument Club."
At this point, I thought, "Oh, this is probably what it is."
And so it was the Golden Week of my second year.
I was spending time by myself as a matter of course, when I decided to go out into the city.
Then, I witnessed it.
Akari was having an affair.
The other party was an upperclassman from the same high school.
He's a handsome guy who's famous for being a slut.
A few days later - today, in other words - I called Akari out.
The place was a park close to our house.
It was nighttime, so there was no one else here.
I showed her the photos of the affair and asked her to explain what was going on.
To which she replied in a matter-of-fact manner.
"Oh, you noticed. Well, as you can see..."
"Are you cheating on me?"
"Yes, I am."
She admitted it easily.
"I had no choice--"
She said.
"--It's your fault for not being masculine enough, Daikichi."
"What?"
"And the name "Daikichi" is lame as well. It's a O-mikuji."
After that, she went on and on about how I was a bad person.
I'm not manly enough, I'm not aggressive enough, I'm plain-looking, I'm lame, and so on.
Especially the word "unmanly" came up frequently.
"If you don't want to be cheated on, you should become a real man and not a fool."
The old Akari would never have said such a thing.
She's probably quoting a pick-up line from a slutty guy.
Basically, you tempt them by telling them not to worry about it because it's the guy's fault for being cheated on.
"I didn't want Daikichi to get hurt, so I was waiting for things to disappear naturally, but now that you've found out, I'll just say it normally. I'm breaking up with you. So, goodbye."
Akari left with no sign of remorse.
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I have no regrets about Akari.
But I was deeply hurt by her words.
--You're not masculine enough.
--If you don't want to be cheated on, be a real man and not a fool.
She has a point, I thought.
If things continue as they are, I might make the same mistake.
If I get a new girlfriend, it would suck if she cheated on me for the same reason.