Chapter 1: Introduction

Hello everyone my name is Riri-sensei. ^_^ Thank you so much for purchasing Ashiqui volume 1. This book is the first installment in a series of roughly 20 – 30 novels. Stay tune for more books! Now onto the lore.

 

“Ashiqui”, (or aashiqui) is a word from the Hindi, Urdu, Arabic, and Persian languages that means “to fall in love”, “the feeling of being in love” or “to experience love”. I chose this word as the title of my novel series because all my stories feature people who are in love, falling in love, crushing on others, or trying to figure out what love is. My story is not necessarily sexual but rather it’s about understanding what love is from various perspectives.

 

This novel series is inspired by my own life stories and the stories of people I’ve met in life and people I love. This series is meant to loosely reflect a culmination of life experiences that I have had and share stories I’ve heard from others. I am doing this in order to express how even dark circumstances can turn into brighter futures.

 

Originally, I was raised in a very abusive home with an impoverished upbringing. Due to this situation, I went through many life changing experiences that were painful and harsh. One of the most painful things in my life was losing my mom due to poverty, abuse, and illnesses. She died in 2017 in a tragic way. After experiencing her death, I was left with a painful void in my heart.

 

Losing my mom made me realize how powerless and weak I was and how immature and naïve I was at the time. I felt like I could have saved her if I were stronger. I regretted being unable to save her because she was too sick and I was too powerless. Despite this, I learned how to go on with my life and continue to learn from my past mistakes.

 

My mama was my light and my angel who tried her best to protect me despite being disabled, blind, terminally ill and wheel chair bound. I cannot express how much I love my mama and how much I wish she was still here with me. I know she is no longer here in the physical sense but I trust that her spirit is always watching over me. Therefore, I always want to live by the words she taught me.

 

On a personal subject, I have experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, psychological abuse at the hands of evil abusive men. This suffering caused me to have many mental health and physical health issues. Often, I was silenced with threats of violence and it took a toll on my well-being. Almost daily, I was put in my life-or-death situations that led to the deterioration of my physical and mental health from a young age. As a result, I suffer from PTSD, depression, anxiety, anorexia, and OCD. For years due to abusive people who tried to cage be and torment me, I had to work on healing from these scars in order to improve my mental health.

 

It took me many years and a lot of time and efforts to get out of my situation in order to recover to a certain degree. Even so, to this day, I still suffer from mental health issues. In addition, I have over 30 medical conditions that destroyed 90% of my body including my bones, muscles, and internal organs. In spite of these hardships, I try my best to survive and overcome life’s obstacles because despite the hardships I want to live.

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My situation was very grim but I made an effort to do everything I could to live a better happier life. Fortunately, I was able to do so once I got out of my abusive situation in the summer of 2020 and moved towards a safer environment with more stable loving people. As a result of these turbulent life experiences, I started writing to overcome struggles and improve my mental health.  Initially, I started writing novels to encourage myself to live and strive for greatness. I chose to write because I didn’t want to live and die in misery while holding on to my past traumas. Ultimately, I wanted better for myself and I knew I deserved the best that life could offer so I wrote to let my suffering out. It was my biggest outlet to retain my sanity.

 

For years, I watched many people I loved die and leave me because I was too weak and helpless to save them. Although it wasn’t my role to save anyone, losing the ones I love and being a victim to abuse made me feel the weight of the world rested on my shoulders and it was a truly pressuring, crushing reality. These circumstances taught me a lot about how fragile and precious life is. In the same way, I realized that you really can’t save everyone because people need to save themselves and it’s not my job to fix everyone else’s problems while neglecting my own. All my life I lived in survival mode, then suddenly, I was given a chance to live like a normal human being.

As a result, I wanted to write a series of books expressing what it felt like to be bound to a fate that felt nearly impossible to escape. I want people to see my struggles and pain and watch as I take control of my life again. This series isn’t just meant to entertain people but to also give my heart peace and comfort after dealing with many horrific events in life. For too long, I have witnessed acts of violence, abuse and cruelty and I was powerless to stop it. In the past, I was just a child. I was disabled, often bed ridden and sickly since birth.  Realistically, I knew I was already doing my best but that just wasn’t good enough to accomplish the goals I wanted to achieve. Even now, I remember how many times I was told by doctors that I was dying and I was a lost cause. Being scorned for living was a painful life. No one except my mom and sister helped me while I was growing up and I felt weak and victimized for many years of my life.

 

The only silverling to this endless cycle of pain was writing my stories. Since I was nine, I loved to write stories and poetry because I could change the outcome of my life with my tales. My writing was the best way to reclaim my inner strength and give me the will to live on. I realize my art and my words may be unique and strange but even if no one reads these books I’m just happy to have written them and express my pain freely.

 

More than anything, I want to allow myself to heal. By writing these books, I hope this story inspires others to find the courage to heal and seek help too. Even if the only help you have now is yourself or the simple joys of life, having a reason to go on in a dark world is very important. Thank you for reading this passage, I hope you enjoy my story.

 

Warning: This book containers many trigger warnings related to abuse, violence, sexual abuse, drug use, alcohol use, crimes, and other topics not suitable for minors.

Disclaimer: This is a fictional novel that includes adult, sci-fi, fantasy, drama, comedy, action, slice of life and romantic themes. The entire world in this series is a fictional alternate reality loosely based on the real world. Several changes have been made to historical facts, cultures, religions, languages, countries, climates, technology, and ethnicities/races. This book is purely fictional and not meant to accurately represent reality in any way, shape, or form. This is a fictional book inspired by my life but nonetheless it is purely 100% fictional and created with my own imagination and artistic point of views.

 

~Riri-sensei  

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