I'm trying to take the initiative to do something, but I don't know what to do.
Recently, I've come to think that doing something for someone else may be an altruistic act, even if it's of your own volition.
Maybe that's why.
I'm jealous and envious of Jiro-san.
I don't think I should really feel that way.
But through this case, I clearly understand these two feelings in my heart.
You can't do everything, but you are willing to try everything.
And a firm sense of self.
An attitude that makes you want to follow them, even when it is dangerous.
None of that is mine.
And so it is with this one.
Why is that so easy to admit.
I quit the person.
I lived and was a person as a matter of course, and then I wasn't. And yet, you don't seem to care about that.
I think he's trying not to worry about us.
But on the other hand, I wonder if we are so unreliable.
.........
While I was thinking about this, I felt a pain in my fingertips.
I'm thinking, "I did it. ......... I don't know where the plaster is.
If you look at your thumb, you'll see a red line.
I thought it was the last time I cut my hand with a knife, but it was not a serious wound, so I didn't rush to find the first aid kit.
I took out a bandage from the first aid kit I found and applied it.
If only magic could work, I wouldn't have to do this.
I gently hold my hand over my plastered thumb, but of course no magic will be activated.
This is a house in Japan where there is no magic.
The father rarely comes home for work and the mother is used to spending time in a big house, though I don't know where she is.
I was just cooking something to send to the south.
Although I started cooking in junior high school, it seems that I had an aptitude for this kind of cooking, but I have no trouble with it.
If you don't make this kind of food, South will starve to death.
......... South, huh?
She is starting to get cleaned up recently.
Her usual behavior was so unmotivated that it seemed to be a joke, but since she started working for the company, she seems to be changing little by little.
There is a trigger for a woman to change.
Even I understand that.
I wonder if I have found someone I like.
Does it mean that a woman is trying to be beautiful or is she in love?
I must admit, when I saw Minami dressed up for dance practice, I was in love with her.
I didn't know she was this beautiful, and I wondered if she was someone else.
But afterwards, I realized that this beautiful woman was Minami.
No, no, what were you thinking?
I shake my head in a panic thinking about why she would be so beautiful.
South is south.
She's a childhood friend, she's always been a gloomy soul, she's always read books, and she's always asked me for help when I was in trouble, so...
What's your excuse?
You feel foolish for denying your feelings to anyone, and you return to cooking.
This time you finish the preparation without cutting your fingers and proceed with the cooking, all you have to do is to simmer it over low heat.
When this is done, all you have to do is put the food in a box and go south to your house.
What's wrong with me lately.
I think I'm doing what I've always done, but I'm not confident in what I'm doing.
Especially since meeting Midori again.
"Ah, Masaru. Long time no see, how are you?
It's been three or four years since we were in middle school.
When I saw her again, she was still very mature, but she became more mature and beautiful.
I was happy to think that I had been able to have a relationship with such a person, even if only for a short time, and I missed her.
The smile she showed me when we met again was so beautiful, and I was shocked to see her.
Even though I was rejected so easily, I should have dismissed it as inevitable, but the fact that she remembers me and is single swept my thoughts around.
But I don't know why.
I was nostalgic and honestly embarrassed, but I didn't hold it any longer.
That beautiful smile, a smile that is somehow different from the old one, seems to be appealing to my mind in some way.
I don't know what it is.
Oh God, what is this feeling?
I don't know how to let out these misty emotions, not that I'm irritated, but I don't know what to do with them, and combined with Jiro-san, my emotions are still muddled.
I'm trying to be normal as usual, but my emotions are scattered all over the place.
The same goes for Jiro, who doesn't rely on me easily even though it's important.
The same is true of Minami, who doesn't understand why she's becoming beautiful even though she's been relying on you all along.
The same is true of Midori who appears out of nowhere and tries to treat you as she did in the past.
And most importantly .
I don't know what to do, what to do.
No matter what you do, it doesn't work.
And yet the environment around you keeps changing.
You are left behind, and the people around you are getting farther and farther away.
You want to scream it out loud, but you can't do that, and you have to stop yourself.
When you ask why, you can't find the reason as clearly as a baby's waste.
Really, what can I do?
I don't know what I can do.
I know how to talk to you, but I "don't know" who to talk to about these feelings.
Tokorozawa Masaru side End
Shiretoko South side
Well, I never thought the day would come when I would invite my girlfriends to my room, that I did. Come on, let's go up. It is a small room, that it is, but the room is clean, that it is. Because Katsura cleaned up the mess yesterday, that he did.
Hahaha, is that a good idea? Minami-chan
"Don't worry about it, that I don't mind - I always do, that I do.
When I opened the front door in my roomy loungewear, there was Amie dressed up a bit.
Since it was the beginning of spring, she was dressed in brighter colors such as white and pink.
Since Amie is often athletic, I thought that she wears comfortable clothes that are easy to move around in, but she also has such girlish clothes.
The fact that she is wearing make-up makes her look even more feminine.
In a sense, I've left half of the women behind, washed my face and fixed my gaze, but I'm still naked, and although I'm comfortable, I'm still gray and dull, which is a far cry from the way I look.
I don't care, I don't care about it, and if I do, I'll lose," she says, waving her hand in the air, inviting her in and leading her to her room.
I opened the door and sat Amy on the cushion I had prepared in advance and I sat on the cushion that I usually use to ruin a certain person.
I bought it with my salary after joining this company, and it was so good that I love it.
You have to be able to get your hands on the right one. I heard in an email that you wanted to talk to me about some business and some other stuff. Which one to start with? I don't care which way you go.
And that's why I invited her to my room, of all places.
I thought she would be the answer to my problems.
The job, of course, is a dungeon tester.
Or, more specifically, status.
More to the point, it's about how to catch up with that extraordinarily strong boss.
That one is about my love life.
The leader of the group, Jiro, has also consulted with me about that matter, but Amie is better suited to the task because she is closer to Katsu's age.
It's a good idea to start with a simple business consultation, that it is.
A chocolate candy that I had prepared beside the table.
A certain bamboo shoots and a box of mushroom-shaped sweets are lined up, and the conversation starts with a recommendation.
I reach for the bamboo shoots, thinking that Amie is a mushroom person, that she is not.
I reach for the bamboo shoots. Yes, yes! Nanny?
While enjoying the crispy texture, you pose for Amie, who is trying her best to be cute, and start talking with her.
I want to rely on your wise knowledge, that I do. It is a good idea to have the knowledge of a wise man who has something to do with that outsider in order to catch up with that outsider boss, that is a standard practice.
"Ahahaha ......... Only Nan-chan would say that Mike's knowledge is the same as yours. Are you going to use great magic?
And if you tell her why you need it, she'll half-smile and agree, and ask you what knowledge you need.
It's one thing to broaden the range of attack methods, but...
No, I'm talking about the knowledge of attacking methods, or more precisely, the knowledge of a wise man on how to increase our abilities efficiently, that I'm talking about.
What I seek is a so-called growth-type cheat.
A wise man of another world.
And the knowledge of someone powerful enough to seal the demon king.
That's right, a treasure and, to me, a lump of a cheat.
It was, in my mind, a way to close the distance between me and the leader.
And as Amy hears my words, a cold sweat breaks out on her face and she turns her head to the side, I'm afraid I didn't make it.
Yes, and I would like to help you ........., but we have a little problem.
However, it's not that she can't do it, but that she doesn't want to help for a reason.
Amy is poking her index finger at each other, and is not sure how to explain it.
Problem? It is also a seal, that it is?
No, there's not even a seal, okay?
This seems to have gotten me to consult with Amy, but to solve the problem.
Let's go patiently.
? I'll help you if it's something I can solve, that I can do?
"Well, you know, it would be, ummmm. Wouldn't it be easier for you to see it?
"Would it be faster to have it looked at? What does that mean, that?
Well, can you hold my hand?
"Like this?
Then, determined, Amy reaches out her left hand.
I shake her hand like I'm shaking her hand.
"Yes, then I'm ready.
And as she closes her eyes, I close mine, and I feel a tugging sensation of something pulling at me.
And then the next thing I feel is a floating sensation.
"Yeah! Decita! I was worried because I only knew what it felt like to have Mike do it for me, but it was fine!
I thought I just heard some very disturbing words, that I didn't, but I'll pretend I didn't hear them, that I didn't. Where am I, that I didn't? Magic can't be used outside, that it can't.
This is my mind, the world of the legacy that Mike left me in it. It's a little special kind of magic called mental magic, and this is how the world is constructed, and it's left as information. Just passing it on.
"It's a very simple thing to say, that it is. How are you doing with your magic, that you are?
"What can I say about magic? It's like you have to store the magic in your body to prevent it from leaking out, and then melt it down a little bit when you use it.
Well, there's a trick for that, that I'm sure.
Yes, Mike made it for me when he was inside.
"You're an original technology, that you'll get a patent for it if you report it to the company, that you do.
"Hahaha, I don't think I'm good at teaching, and when I taught Evia how to do it, she said she didn't know.
Oof, I didn't think you were a good teacher. Or maybe it's the same as the one I just looked away from.
"Yes, that was part of it, but it was also for this reason.
And when I opened my eyes as Amie said it was ready, I saw that I had been moved from my cramped room to a vast place.
If you ask where I am, the answer is a part of Amie's mind, and if you ask her what she did with her magic, as expected of a wise man, she does not disappoint you.
A certain cat-shaped robot is convenient.
Well, from what I've heard, it sounds like she needed it to maintain her existence.
And why did she call you here?
"It's a beautiful library, that it is. You can't see the ceiling, that it is.
Yeah, Mike left it all for me.
In Amie's mind, the library existed.
A tower-shaped bookcase spreading out all over its contents.
There are more books than ten thousand or even a hundred thousand.
And I had a bad feeling inside.
"......... Amy.
"What? Minami-chan
"My prediction, that
"Yes.
Can you see where the book is, that you can find it?
I have no idea where anything is either! Mike told me part of it, but I don't know the rest!
"Spirited denial, that I have received! I have a bad feeling about this, but I have to ask, that I have a bad feeling about the search function.
That would be handy!
"That means
Yes, the knowledge you need can probably be found somewhere in this library! But we have to look for it steadily!
"I'm here for you, that I'm not!
As if to confirm my bad feeling, I asked Amy with a smile, but she also smiled and opened up with a cheerful answer.
And I correct my earlier words.
The wise man is no more opportunistic than a certain cat-like robot.
Once I escaped from the vast library, I contacted Kitamiya and swore to myself that I would set out on a journey to find the cheat, including Katsu, who would come later.
Shiretoko South side End
Word of the Day
Follow your own path and record your own progress.