They have all been hurt, they are all hurting and that's what makes this so difficult. There is nobody at fault, nobody they can blame for all the suffering they are enduring. San's pain, Toh's and hers- there is no one they can blame for it. Quite some time ago she blamed Lucifer for everything, and while he may have triggered the chain of pain. He didn't start everything.
Besides, recently she has been thinking there is more to Lucifer than what she has seen. His little stunt the other day where he invited Hirji over, what was he trying to do there? Toh said that Lucifer did that to cause her to have a mental break down, but she feels there is a different reason.
Lucifer supposedly started D entertainment with artists who hated her, to break her down emotionally. But, every single time there is an incident with his artists. He punishes them for hurting her. What exactly does that man want from her?
Toh's gaze darkened and her sweat fell. "But, uh, you're right. You were hurt more." Sumire said nervously.
His arms tightened around her. "I can't lose you again, Sumire."
Since she woke up, Toh has been using her name a lot.
"I know, I'm really sorry for worrying you Toh. But, I'm feeling much better now. Soon, I'll be back to normal."
It was half a lie. In that moment when her fan stabbed her, it triggered something. Something that had been concealed at the back of her mind. Memories of a different life, memories of someone who looked like her and the hand she was holding. The thread of fate she was attached to was someone different. The thread is a different colour from Yuhi-san's. But, each time she focused on the memory, everything would turn blurry again.
'In another life, was I in love with someone different?'
It's possible, and yet she has always felt that she was destined to be with Yuhi. How each first meeting, felt like fate to her. Something, there is something she is missing. Now that she has glimpsed into this different life. She is determined to find answers, even if her gaze fell on Toh. Even if it hurts those who are precious to her now.
"What are you thinking beautiful?" Toh said, snapping her out of her daze.
"How, I think I might want more of your blood."
It was a lie, she didn't need any more blood. Certainly not after what happened just now. She ought to be putting more space between them. But Toh is clever, it won't be long before he realizes something is wrong and pries those answers from her.
Sumire takes a deep breath before she rolls on top of him. "Will you, give me some more?"
Toh looked at her with suspicion but when she pressed her lips to this throat. She felt his arms on her back, tugging her closer. "It is like you said beautiful, you will be my destruction. But, a welcoming chaos."
Sumire stopped herself from crying when she heard those words. He really is a fool. He still remembers that warning she gave him, the day they broke up. But, here he is, accepting that chaos back into his life when he could have permanently walked away from it all, from her.
During the time Sumire was in University, Hino made sure to keep himself occupied. He had more than enough work to catch up on. Ever since Sumire was hospitalized, he seldom left her side. Even when he knew Yuhi was there. It just didn't feel right for him not to be there with her.
"You seem distracted." Sumire pointed out.
The two of them had been walking in silence ever since her classes were over. His thoughts were occupied by Cassie's unexpected visit at his apartment earlier. He was tired and didn't bother seeing Cas to the door when he slumped on the sofa. Just as he closed his eyes, he heard her footsteps return from the hallway and felt warmth on his lips.
He was too stunned and kept his eyes shut until he was sure she was gone. She kissed him, Cas actually kissed him. It's true they spoke about things and he isn't a stranger to her feelings anymore. But, it still surprised him.
'I spent so many years convinced that Cas was in love with Yuhi, and now-now everything has changed and I don't know what to do. I did consider calling Yuhi but, the two of them need their space from each other.'
They have had several fights in the course of their friendship, but none on such a large scale as the one in the hospital. They need time to think. The next time they see each other, they can talk then.
"So do you." Hino trailed off. "How did things go with Sano?"
At those words her cheeks coloured and he blinked. It's not like her to get embarrassed over anything Sano does. Then again, things have changed between them. Is Sano actually making a proper move that doesn't involve in him being a jerk? Does Yuhi have to worry?
ραndαsΝοvεl ƈοm Sumire slapped her cheeks. "It's not what you're thinking Hino. I don't feel any differently towards San."
"Are you sure about that? Your cheeks tell another story."
Sumire nervously plays with the ends of her hair and coughed. "Toh was there too, and they-both of them came to some crazy agreement."
Hino raised his eyebrow. "A crazy agreement?"
"T-they-while San fed from me, I also fed from Toh and they put me between them and like- it was weird." Sumire rambled nervously.
All Hino could focus on was her lovely red stained cheeks. The colour red really does suit her. She is normally so brave, bold and confident so it's rare to see her like this. The only one who has ever managed to get her like this is Yuhi.
"H-Hino, are you even listening to me?" Sumire said nervously, catching his gaze. She must have understood since she looked away and laughed. "Your self-control is really breaking, should I be worried?"
Hino averted his gaze. "I think you should be more worried about Mashima and Sano teaming up again, and coming up with another crazy idea."
Rather, it would be bad if those two teamed up regarding Sumire. She can barely handle them individually, if they team up and make a move on her together. She won't last. Hino exhaled deeply. 'I need to hold onto the hope that Sano is too selfish to entertain any strange ideas, but he already agreed to this joined feeding situation.'
Mashima Toh, he really isn't a simple guy. How did he persuade that stubborn Sano of all people? Sano who has made it clear that he wants Sumire to himself.