Is this okay? This thought has been coiled up in Satoru's mind for a long time, even though he had once made up his mind to do so.
The rape that forcibly took her virginity had the excuse that it was an emergency evacuation measure to save Liz, whose life was in danger, so there was some relief in Satoru's heart, though only a little.
The girl who looked so much like his sister Alice, whom he had repeatedly reminded himself of, was not Alice at all, but a different girl. However, even in a world with a different worldview, she is still only 14 years old, and he wonders if he can or should embrace a girl 10 years older than him.
Liz began to wriggle in his arms, perhaps impatient that Satoru, who was still holding on to his conflicted feelings, did not do anything after he hugged her. Liz, who was wearing only a one-piece smock, slipped out of it and took off her underpants at once. She was completely naked without a stitch of clothing on, and this time she tried to pull off Satoru's shirt. While Satoru was puzzled, she began to kiss Satoru's exposed chest.
「Nnhh.....nnuhh, chuu, nnhh」
For a 14-year-old who will grow up, the bulge is pressed so that it is clearly recognizable for the blood of elves, who are often slender in general. She is not much different in size from Leia. Unlike Leia, who is not expected to grow, Liz has a lustrous body that is expected to become even more feminine in the future.
Since Liz's body is not much different from Leia's, there is no inconvenience in embracing her. The girl's faltering efforts to serve him make his cock harden inside his pants. Liz looked up at Satoru, who was still very confused, with a resentful look on her face.
「Onii-san, you're such mean」
「Mean?」
「Yes. The girl asked him to embrace her, and then he didn't touch her. Isn't that mean?」
Ugh, Satoru choked. It is a fact that he is conflicted, but what he is letting Liz do is truly the work of a devil. It is a shameful thing for a girl to make her do something she has never done before. He had thought that she might not be very chaste, but that's not the same thing, and more than anything, Liz's face is bright red from embarrassment.
「I may be just a child to Onii-san, but...」
Liz protests, puffing out her cheeks in a small, sulky manner.
「I'm a girl, too, you know. I may look like Alice, but I am a different girl. It's not good to embarrass a girl.」
「Yeah」
He was truly lost for words. He has always been impressed by Liz's intelligence, but he doesn't think he can win this one. Satoru, gutted, grabbed Liz's wrist and pulled her up, then gently placed his lips on hers.
「Mmmm...」
At first, Liz rolled her eyes, but soon closed them and accepted the feel of Satoru's lips on hers. Not long after the bird kiss, a tongue entered her mouth, albeit hesitantly, and again she was surprised, but she was relieved to feel a large hand caressing her head and silently surrendered herself to Satoru. Tongues and tongues intertwine, and the chuckling sound of their saliva mixing in Liz's mouth echoes through the air.
「Mmhh....fuhh, mmhh」
Satoru pairs up with the naked girl, switching positions with his lips on the girl who seems to have forgotten how to breathe. He parted his lips and forcefully removed his shirt, which was half off, and looked down at Liz, who was shrugging a little.
She is still inexperienced, close in stature to Leia, but more immature than Leia. The frightened kitten-like stare makes Satoru's heartache as if he has been pricked with a needle of guilt for the umpteenth time. It's not just that she looks like his sister. She is, after all, 14 years old. She may be one step below the age of adulthood in this world, but in his former world she was in the eighth grade, and from the perspective of Satoru, who is in his mid-twenties, she is still just a child.
I must not ― Satoru is about to give in to a cry from deep inside. His body is responding, but he realizes that his mind is about to break. A sense of immorality, almost like soiling a blank sheet.
Perhaps sensing Satoru's confusion, Liz untied her hands, which were covering her chest, and extended them to Satoru. The strong determination in her attitude of accepting the situation made Satoru's heart rebuke his weakening. He could not continue to humiliate a girl who had made such a resolution.
In response to Liz's request, Satoru once again lays his own lips on Liz's lips. With her left hand on Satoru's neck and her right hand on his back, Satoru stroked the head of the girl who was trying her best to accept Satoru with her whole body and kissed her lips with his tongue.
「Mmhh, nnhuuhh」
Liz extends her own tongue and twirls it with Satoru's in bewilderment. Her breathing becomes raspy, and it is clear that she is aroused. Her face is also completely flushed.
Suddenly he wondered how much knowledge about sex Liz has. In modern Japan, people are inundated with so much information that it is easy to get information on such things with just a little awareness, but that is not the case in this world. The fact that the blood of the deflowering of her hymen spilled out when he tried to revive Liz's body, it is certain that she had no experience, but there is a definite difference in her upbringing from Leia and Rico, who were older than her. The chastity of the elves is also a mystery. The fact that she herself asked to be embraced properly again, it's not as if she knows nothing about it, but he's somewhat hesitant to ask.
「U-uh, ...... what should I call you?」
Satoru thinks for a moment as he looks up at the question with moist eyes, her face flushed with excitement and taking short, shallow breaths.
「It's either Onii-san or Satoru. Please spare me with Onii-chan.」
「I got, it ......」
Satoru's nerves are not thick enough to have sex with a girl who looks like his sister and calls him Onii-chan just like his sister.
After a little hesitation, Liz took Satoru's right hand, which was still folded around herself, and guided it to her own breast, which was still not fully developed. She clearly forced a smile and turned to Satoru, whose confusion deepened.
「I, too, am your slave. Therefore, I belong to Onii-san. Please don't hesitate.」
After being caught momentarily off guard, Satoru calmly guessed Liz's thoughts, realized her true intentions, and mocked himself.
Liz is aware that she is very young compared to Satoru. She also knows that she resembles his sister, so she knows that he is too reserved to touch her. He could imagine that Liz's face was bright red and she was trembling a little, which must have been incredibly embarrassing.
Even so, she is trying to push away her embarrassment and tell Satoru not to hold back. Satoru was honestly touched by Liz's attitude. After biting his lower lip to warn himself, Satoru very lightly poked Liz's forehead.
「Don't push yourself too hard.」
「But ......Ah!」
When he squeezed her breasts, which were still a little firm, she let out an involuntary gasp. The blush on Liz's cheeks deepened at the sound of her own embarrassment.
He doesn't know how much she knows, but she is aware that she is doing something embarrassing.
「I'm not going to mistreat you just because you're a magical slave. You talked to Leia and Rico, didn't you? Did those guys say I was mistreating them?」
If she had said Satoru mistreat them, it would have been a big shock for Satoru, but fortunately, Liz shook her head. Satoru breathed a small sigh of relief without being noticed. While patting Liz's head, Satoru speaks with sincerity.
「Sure, I like sex, and I'm a pervert. I can't deny that at all. But you see? For me, sex is more than just body to body, skin to skin contact. ...... how to say it. I believe that sex is also between heart and heart. I want it to be so, and I have been doing it, and I want it to be so in the future. I don't know how they perceive it, but I don't think it's that far off.」
The reason he cannot say this is because, in a corner of his mind, Satoru feels a sense of guilt that he is inevitably self-centered in the act of being physical with others. The question of whether the other slaves are only accepting him because he is asking for it has been nagging at Satoru's mind for some time. Leia, Rico, Minerva, and Solor have never once refused to have sexual intercourse with Satoru, but it seems that the wounds in his heart that he suffered when he was in the original world will not heal easily.
Satoru himself is aware that his thoughts are inexperience(?). But that does not mean that he will be able to abandon the idea. He thinks that if he does, it will be the end of him as a man.
「So, well............, I don't want to do something you don't want to do. I guess I'm afraid of hurting you more than I have to. ......」
「Ah ......」
Liz understood. She understood. That this man saw her rape-like intercourse to save her own life as a deeper wound than she had thought possible.
She felts frustrated and ashamed of her own shallowness in asking a man who deeply regretted what he had done to her to embrace her properly again.
「I, umm ...... I don't mind that one bit. I'm not lying」
When she woke up, she was aware of a dull ache in her lower abdomen. When Leia explained to her that she had had intercourse with Satoru, who possessed a soul from another dimension, the only means of restoring her life force in order to save her own life, Liz was relieved to know the reason for the pain.
She was relieved. She was relieved to know that she had not been overrun by those men who had lurked in the house and killed her mother. She was also relieved to know that Satoru, of all people, had embraced her.
Liz didn't know much about knowledge about sex. She had her first menstruation shortly before her father's death, and her mother had told her about pregnancy, but that was about it. Elves do not have a strong sex drive, and it is forbidden for the entire race to touch the subject of sex, so she never had much of a chance to touch it. When she was kicked out of the village, she learned from Reine that the human race is sexually voracious, and she was told not to carelessly touch human men, so in that sense, she has grown up in a box―But it's not that she wasn't interested.
Meeting Satoru and conversing with him, much less sharing a bed with him, was really the exception. The fact that he resembled her late father in the atmosphere probably made her less cautious, and she was probably unconsciously seeking her lost paternity. It was also because he sensed this that he allowed her to do the unthinkable: to share a bed with him.
But Satoru is not her father. They have a similar atmosphere, but they are definitely not the same. Liz was aware of this. He was just like her father in a gentle way, but she had only guided him along the way for a short time, and she was clearly attracted to the manly way he had accomplished the difficult task of defeating the demon race that had tormented the village for many years, without regard for the risks involved.
「I see. I guess that helped a little.」
「I'm rather glad, or rather relieved, that Onii-san took my first time.」
Satoru was relieved at the same time as he was blown away by Liz's attitude, as she slurred and excused herself. It was a heartfelt relief to know that she did not dislike him and that she did not hate him. If this girl, who resembled his sister, disliked him, Satoru would indeed be depressed.
On the other hand, he also realized that Liz apparently likes him, although he didn't think it was possible, and a new sense of confusion came over Satoru's mind.
「Um, you see. I did it before I was even aware of it, and it was, how shall I say, frustrating or regrettable. ......Awawa,w-what am I saying」
Liz, who had been flustered, blushed, and flustered as she danced around in a strange dance, suddenly closed her eyes, laid her own hand on Satoru's hand, which was still on her chest, and repeated a deep breath. Satoru's hand also felt a mysterious sensation as it swelled and then deflated with each repeated breath.
Liz's heartbeat in the palm of his hand was ringing like an early bell. After taking several deep breaths to calm her thoughts, Liz's eyes opened again and she looked up at Satoru straight ahead.
「I know the order is messed up, but ―I like you Satoru-oniisan. You may think, What is a girl like me saying to a man of your stature, but will you listen to me?」
Satoru just nodded silently, unable to respond. Liz coughed cutely three times and put a little pressure on her still-layered hands.
「I-I'm a girl too, so at first, I had a dream that I wanted to have sex with someone I really liked. So, I think it's ...... you know, a natural thing to want to have sex with someone you like, even though it's a little bit crude.」
Satoru was about to say that the starting point of the feeling of liking is misplaced in the first place, and then he weighed himself. Now is the time to listen to what Liz has to say.
「My first time was when I was unconscious and trying to save a life. I'm not angry about that, and I don't hold a grudge. Please believe me on this, okay?...... But, Onii-san, you said it earlier. Not only body to body, skin to skin, but also heart to heart, uhh ...... Sekusu(sex)? I think?」
With a thud, the intangible spear, the first of many, pierced deep into Satoru's heart. This girl does not regret that her first time was taken away from her. She just wants to start over.
「That's why I want to have a proper heart-to-heart relationship with Onii-san. I want to be embraced by the man I love, and I want our hearts to be together.」
Without making a sound, Satoru sighed heavily. He closed his eyes for a moment to check the beating of Liz's heart in the palm of his hand. It was beating a steady rhythm, a little too fast and strong.
Satoru felt his coiled heart lighten a little as he received forgiveness for what he had done.
However, he has never felt himself worthy of being loved by the girl who is naked and trembling a little in front of him. The fact that he feels as guilty as if he were messing with his own sister is an added factor, but this is the reason why he finds it so hard to accept Liz.
People feel something special when they are saved.
Because of the age difference, he thinks that there must be someone more suitable for her, not himself. It's a common adolescent quandary. He thinks she is mistakenly thinking that she is in love with him.
―No, that's just an excuse.
Satoru mocked himself. She's going to notice it. There is nothing to it.
He is afraid.
He is afraid of being accepted by her as much as or more than she hates him.
Because of him, this half-elf girl's life has been ruined. The only thing he can do is to admit his guilt, face her feelings, and accept them.
Determined, Satoru opened his mouth slowly, choosing his words carefully and hesitantly.
「I told you, didn't I? I said I'd keep my promise. When you asked me to embrace you, I said, "All right", right?」
「.........」
Liz bites her lower lip. Her eyes are a little moist. She could feel that he was trying to accept her head-on, and she couldn't help but tear up.
「Unless Liz says she's not going to do it anymore, I'm going to do it until the end.」
When Satoru assured her, Liz's laughed and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.
「......I would never say that.」
Satoru kissed the area around Liz's hairline. When Alice was 3 or 4 years old, he had kissed her forehead and cheeks like this, but it has been a long time since then.
「I kind of expected it, but ...... you're so stubborn.」
「If I didn't, I'd have made the decision to go back to the village.」
「Well, that's true」
Satoru easily agreed with Liz's self-analysis, which she muttered to herself in self-mockery. If it was just a matter of living, it would be easier to return to the village. In the society of elves, where mutual support is the basic principle, and moreover, since Helmera, the daughter of Bauers the Elder, had apparently said that she would take her in, Liz would be guaranteed a certain status. The elders of the village have forbidden any overt discrimination against half-elves, so on the surface, there is no reason for Liz to leave the village.
However, Liz did not choose to remain in the village. She chose to stay with Satoru, who was more dangerous. To be with him, she eliminated the option of returning to the World Tree Village and approached Satoru.