Chapter 1: Chapter 1

why do i live?i don't know;but i also don't care.At the end of the day, the game was rigged from the start.

 I woke up a few minutes ago and went to the window to see how the day was going.humans,Orcs,elfs,dwarfs,earth fledlings,families,friends,lovers,workers were all up and about living their lives. Life must be good if you got the goods.

It’s strange that in a few minutes all of this will be gone.What happens next?i don’t know,but i stopped caring a long time ago.Whatever happens can’t be worse then this.

The rope has already been tied and already has the correct knots,so i don’t have to worry about the rope failing on me.The stool has already been put into place and as soon as i kick it,it should be a merry way to whatever happens next.

You probably don’t get it but,i just can’t take it anymore. In this part of town, if you haven’t got the genetics or the credits, then only misery beckons at you. When you are 5 feet and penniless, even a decent face won’t save you. I have tried who knows how many times to get out of this rut.gym, reading, learning skills, trying to meet people, trying to meet the girl of my life,working extra jobs.But it’s was all in vain. Even writing this sentence causes me great pain.

In the Southside part of elfheimn outside of the inner city, you are shit out of luck if you wish for any type of advancement in life. Here the only ways of making money are joining the military or becoming a criminal. I got banned from the military after i tried my first pot jugging, and they don’t like junkies around, so i got kicked out quick. And becoming a criminal?A thief? Yeah,this isn’t a fantasy novel. I would probably get shot or stabbed or tortured in half a second. Plus,no clue how to even become one.

And getting a girl? That’s an even worser joke. My competition here are 6’4-7’5 guys from a million races who all have way way more money then you will earn in your entire life at any giving moment. Just get one with a good personality? Yeah, once you realize that 99.99% of people only care about gossip and who has what, that illusion of the mythical personality lover fades out quick.

No chance to get anywhere in life? No chance to have someone who loves you? who cares and hugs you? No chance of having kids? No chance for anything good happening? A life of wageslaving and jack shit else? Yeah, i didn’t sign up for that.

Eitherway, i would probably have gotten fucked over like dad was. I saw my pops get fucked in less then a second when my whore of a mother decided it was a good decision to fuck the neighbour and the neighbours son 20 minutes after father left for work. Good thing he forgot the keys.

So i see no way out. Pops would have been sad,but maybe we will meet in this heaven of his,if it exists that is. I am sure he would understand. No way he would want his son to be out here suffering 24/7,and finding no joy in anything.

I live with my auntie and work at her inn. I pretty much get zero money from it, as the scumbags around here suddenly starting asking for protection money a few weeks ago, and we know how the mafia works, so we weren’t willing to take chances. Not that i got much money before they appeared. Just enough to buy books and one or two other things.

I am sure auntie will be sad,but if i die,she will be able to rent out my room and it will be one less mouth to feed,so maybe she will in fact find herself glad after the grieving period.she will finally be able to live without having to worry about money and without wondering if she will need to starve herself out today. Fuck, not even in that regard i was a success. Even those i love,i fail at helping.

Anyway,enough rambling.I got up and went up the stool, and put the noose around my neck. I looked outside the window for a last time. I saw this cute young couple giggling at each other and holding hands.she had that cute next door girl with fringe hair and a pretty flowery long dress.the shmuck was some random normie looking fag. About 6’2 and blonde if i had to guess. Probably got blue eyes too.

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I kicked the stool and the rope forced around my neck. It hurt like hell, and in an involuntary reaction i held on to the rope, seeing if i could just make the pain just a bit less; it didn’t work. My legs were dangling,and my mind was growing numb and dim. I felt my mind being drained of all if it’s energy and light, and slowly turning into nothing. I unconsciously looked outside,maybe wishing that it wouldn’t have had to end this way.

I saw a man with light armour and face scarf.he was heading right to aunties inn.He was screaming bad business even in this corner of the city. He was probably going to ask for protection money.

Fuck!
I thought they would only come in 2 or 3 weeks,and by then this room should have already have been out for rent and my auntie would have had enough money to pay them. But now? she can barely feeds us both.

Fuck! I kicked off the stool, so getting out would be a bitch.I was already fading out, so i didn’t have much time.With the sliver of strength i had left and swang to the left and grabbed the curtain handrail. Then i pressed my feet on the window and pulled myself a bit,enough to make the rope not press down on me anymore. I grabbed the rope with one hand and pulled it off my neck and my arms immediately gave out and i fell.

Thud!

Crack!

My back shattered in pain,and my whole head seemed about like it was going to explode, but i had no time.We lived right upstairs the inn, so i didn’t have much to walk. I staggered to the door and opened it. I was walking down the stairs, when i started to hear some loud voices and some shouting. I knew something was going to happen. I mustered whatever strength i had left and sprinted to the door.

Auntie: We don’t have your money, yet.Give us at least two more days.We will have enough then.

Scum: Sorry, missus ,but business is business. Nothing personal capiche?

he moved his hand to somewhere at his waist. I knew what he was going to do. I dashed to in front of auntie. I felt a dark cold opening in my flesh.red flashed.the pain shot up and my mind froze up.

Blackout.

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