After watching Haruyuki-kun walk out of the shop, I looked down at the black underwear I held in my hand.
The tag on the bra read size D.
I usually wear about three sizes larger, so it is indeed pushing too far to wear it.
Naturally, I knew that it was the wrong size when I picked it up, but I still chose it for him because I wanted to understand his preferences.
“Dear customer, can I help you?”
A shop assistant noticed that I was staring at the black underwear and approached me and asked.
She came to help, so I asked her,
“Um, do you have anything similar to this underwear in a larger size?”
“Ahー… We only have products up to size E in that category. I am sorry.”
“Oh, I see… Then can I take a picture of it? At the very least, I’d like to find something similar.”
“If that’s all you wish to do, it’s okay.”
“Thank you.”
With her permission, I used my phone to take a photo of the underwear and sent the picture I took to a subordinate.
|| “Please ask this underwear manufacturer to make one in my size with the same pattern. Any price is acceptable.”
|| “I understand. I will contact you at the beginning of next week.”
|| “Please do. Thank you very much.”
Now we’re good to go.
It’s a pity I can’t show myself wearing this to Haruyuki-kun soon, but it wasn’t an option.
Let’s wait and hope I get it as soon as possible.
And to be honest, I have always felt complex about my body.
Ever since I got into junior high school, I could hardly grow any taller, but my b*****s and buttocks got bigger instead. Men pervertedly looked at me, and women looked jealously.
On top of it, I had to deal with things at home, so I learned how to deal with the trouble. But that didn’t make the feelings disappear.
Furthermore, problems increased, and I think during that time, I closed my mind from others and became a robot who only did what it was told.
It was Haruyuki-kun who pulled my soul back and made me human again.
I don’t think he is aware of it himself, though.
It’s all thanks to him that I’m now a respectable person who loves myself.
(… I should probably get going.)
I looked down once more at the underwear in my hand.
I even got permission to take a photo of it, but I feel like it wouldn’t be a good idea to just leave without buying anything.
I know that I can’t wear it, but Haruyuki-kun must be thinking that I’m going to buy this underwear to show him. Should I buy it so that he won’t get suspicious?
After paying the bill, I left the shop.
Looking around, I was able to spot Haruyuki-kun a short distance away.
His expression, different from his normal appearance, was crushed by anxiety.
Haruyuki’s parents died in an accident only a couple of years ago.
He had to go through such an experience when he was still mentally immature, so naturally, the effects must have left a strong impact on him.
(Please stop… Haruyuki-kun.)
My heart jumps with a thump.
Aah, aah. Please really stop, Haruyuki-kun.
Please don’t make such a face in front of me.
Making a face that makes me want to protect you is――
“Fuu… Fuu…”
I slowed my steps a little and caught my breath.
As expected, I endlessly love Haruyuki-kun.
I want to protect him. I don’t want him to suffer again. I don’t want him to be in pain. I want him to escape from unpleasant things, and I want him to live his life surrounded by only happy things.
And if possible, I want him to crave me.
I want to spoil him until he becomes mellow and can’t live without me.
I want the food that makes up Haruyuki-kun’s body to be made by me as much as possible.
I want to be in as many of Haruyuki-kun’s happy memories as possible.
I want to celebrate Haruyuki-kun’s birthday every year and for him to say ‘Happy Birthday’ on mine.
I want to say ‘I love you’ and be told ‘I love you’ back every day.
I want to fill Haruyuki-kun’s heart with everything.
In order to fulfil these hopes, I have to face up to my past failures.
The gaze that Haruyuki-kun said he felt—if my hunch is correct— is a result of my failure.
I must do something about it before he suffers any unwanted damage.
(For now, I must act normal.)
If I let my guard down, my face would surely turn into an expression of ecstasy.
It might even scare Haruyuki-kun away, and I would be sad if that happened.
Finally, with my breath and expression both in order, I walk down to Haruyuki-kun.
He, too, noticed my presence and looked up at me.
Then he finds me and makes a look of heartfelt relief.
His expression was so cute that I―
(Ah ~~~~ Mou! I really, really, really love him!!)
I was unable to endure it and couldn’t help but rush.