She's scared of facing him. She's embarrassed because of the ugly feelings that she had when she saw him watching that girl with a ghost of a smile. She's sure that he knows. How will she face him again? Isn't it better to jump to her death?
[No!!! You can't kill yourself. You have to think of me. You die, I die and Fu Sheng also dies. I hate this the most.]
She also hates it. Why did she feel jealous? Why did she hide when he looked in her direction? Why did she peek on them in the first place? She wants to disappear. This is worse than dying.
On the verge of tears, she reaches the end of wherever she's been going. She's lost again. She looks back when she hears the sound of someone approaching. She can tell who it is. She has to hide. She can't face him in this state. She will come out after he forgets about it. Where should she hide? She looks around and finds a large trunk. She gets inside it.
[You are embarrassing! He's a vampire. He can smell you out.]
[Xiao Chun Dan, do something. I don't want to be found.]
[There's nothing that I can do. You should have learned a few spells for situations like this.]
Fu Sheng stares at the trunk. He can her mumblings. Who is she talking to? There's no one else here other than him and her. Xian Chun Dan?
Why is she hiding from him now? What did he do this time? Her strong anxiety is affecting him. He wonders if he should open the trunk or not. He's curious. Was she really jealous earlier?
What's the point if she was? It's not like she will ever admit it. He turns away from the trunk. Why did he run after her? Didn't he say that he would never ever touch her if she pushed him away? Coming after her is going back on his word. The vampire king never goes back on his word. He won't give in to his feelings again.
"I am scared. I don't want him to know, Xiao Chun Dan."
He glances at the trunk again. He lowers his presence to nothing. He can't read this woman's mind. Her emotions are always awkward. She doesn't trust her feelings either. What should he do?
"I know... I don't know..."
Does she hear voices by any chance? His eyes turn red. He tries to sense another presence. If no one else is there, then the only possibility is her head. He has been suspicious since he entered her mind when she was sinking into the darkness yesterday. He has felt the traces of a foreign presence.
[You care about him, don't you?] Xiao Chun Dan asks her with a worried tone. [Elder Sister, have you started to love him too?]
"I don't know, Xiao Chun Dan." Huang Qiuyan yells in frustration, "I don't know if I love him or not. Don't ask me such questions. Does it matter if I care about him? He doesn't need me caring about him for sure. He already has someone else. You know what? I don't want to stay in this world anymore. I don't want him. He was forced to complete the bond with me. From the beginning, it was always strange things forcing us to be together. I am too weak compared to him. I didn't even want to be a vampire. I don't like drinking blood. I want to be human again. I want you out of my head."
Xiao Chun Dan doesn't push her anymore. His host is crying.
Fu Sheng doesn't leave. As a king, he must hear her woes. He isn't here because he cares about her as a mate. Whatever they had, it ended the moment she rejected him. Most im
"You should have let me die, Xiao Chun Dan."
[Dear Host, I am sorry that I saved your life. Because of me, you are living like a vampire.] Xiao Chun Dan tells her with a dejected voice, [You are stuck with a bond that you do not want and a man who doesn't want you anymore.]
Xiao Chun Dan may have spoken those words with a different meaning, but Huang Qiuyan's brain deciphers a completely different meaning. Fu Sheng doesn't want her. She didn't even know that she was rejecting him. That man won't even bother to clear things with her. Ever since she turned into a vampire, nothing is in her control. She didn't know that she was bonding with him. She didn't know that she was rejecting him. Nobody told her until it was already done.
She exhales. Tears roll down on her cheek. The bond may or may not control her physical feelings. But, why is Fu Sheng occupying her head? Her chest is hurting and she is feeling like she wants to cry. She's empty and she wants to see him smile again. Even if she asks herself a thousand times why she wants to see the amusement in his eyes again when he takes a glance at her, she can't answer herself.
She understands now. It doesn't take forever to want someone. Sometimes, an embrace is enough.
Fu Sheng opens the trunk when she becomes quiet. She is crying with her head hanging low. She doesn't look up at him. She covers her face. She doesn't want this immortal king know her lowly feelings. Feeling the pangs of sharp pains in her chest, she draws a barrier around her mind instinctively. He realizes that he can't sense it anymore. The bond between them is nothing but a bland connection. He can break her resolve in a moment, but he won't do it.
"Why are you comparing yourself with me?" Fu Sheng bends down on his knees and lowers his head a little to get a look of her face. "You are a newborn in the world of vampires. It will take time, but it's not impossible for you to become strong."
She's silent. He purses his lips. He doesn't want to make a lapse again. Last night, he held her in his arms and stayed beside her until she fell asleep. He stayed with her longer than he should have been. At this rate, he will start feeling for her again. He can't help being here beside her when she's like this, but he doesn't want to feel it again either.
"I don't see her as a woman. I need her to cure Fu Mian's curse," He tells her with a low voice. Vampires are a little possessive. So, it's not unusual for her to feel a little jealous when another female was trying to flirt with him.
In reality, Her tiny jealousy was nothing compared to what he felt when he heard that she was going to look for someone else as her husband. He is upset that she's only felt that little jealousy. If someone else was flirting with his mate, he would have incinerated that man. Ian lived because he fed Huang Qiuyan his blood when she was suffering.
Fu Sheng inhales sharply. He can't think in this manner again. Whenever he's around her, he's losing the train of his thoughts. He wants to know who Xiao Chun Dan is. But, she doesn't seem like she can answer any question right now. What should he say to make this little woman feel at ease? She's not making a single sound.
This is the first time when he is at a loss. He is clueless when it comes to this little convert.
"Do you want to drink my blood?"
He sees a small response. He smirks at her. She can't forget the taste of his blood. He pulls up his sleeve and reveals his pale wrist. "Drink."
Hopefully, it will make her feel better.
She lifts her head. She looks at him with annoyance. Fu Sheng raises his brow. What did he do this time? If she doesn't want to drink, then he won't offer. He pulls back his arm. When he starts to get up, she grabs his collar and sits up on her knees. Fu Sheng widens his eyes when she presses her lips on his, unable to react.