Chapter 1: Chapter 1 – Regrets

I found RPGs to be where I most enjoyed living. Whether it’s slaying unimaginable creatures with nothing but fists or talking to a random NPC while they’re glitching on a windmill. Everything seems magical to me. I kept wondering to myself whether I can live in it. Just how fun would that be.

If I were to have the option, would I abandon this world for it? This lonely world where nothing I do matters. A job I hate and a chaotic relationship with others. Be it friends or lovers, all of it no longer matters as I have no one. I don’t have a lot of money, but I have a stable income, food, and a place to live. I used to consider it to be enough.

One time, there was a thought, what if I could go back to the past and do things differently, would it lead me to live a more enjoyable and happier life? I kept clinging to that thought whenever I leave my monitor’s screen. Until…

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Ahh yes. Of course, that happens to never cross my mind. What if I just don’t exist? Wouldn’t everything be fine if nothing is happening? No upsides, no downsides. But there wouldn’t be joy. At my saddest moment, I find the games I played can bring me the happiness I desperately need. Nothing can ever change my mind about that.

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