I had done some image training before coming here, but I was so nervous that I was frozen in front of the door.
Knocking lightly on the door, I go in and apologize for what I did before.
I imagined the sequence of events over and over again, and held down my trembling limbs as I came in, prepared to be yelled at along the way.
All you have to do is to knock on this door - but you couldn't do it.
Now I'm in front of my parents' house where Lily used to live.
My purpose is of course to apologize to Lily's brother, Kurogane, and to confess.
I've been acting as a girl named Lily and acting as his sister for a long time.
According to Kyou, her brother already knew that he wasn't the real Lily, and he said he didn't hate me on top of that.
It's not that I don't believe him, but I was still afraid to meet my brother.
My brother was a very kind man.
I don't know when he realized that I wasn't his sister, but he was always kind to me, without making me feel that I wasn't. I don't know when he realized that I wasn't his sister.
It was all thanks to him that I was able to feel the concept of brother and sister so strongly and enjoy the warmth of the bond.
He was such a kind brother to me, and I had been cheating him until now.
Even though my brother had forgiven me, I could not forgive myself.
Above all, when you go behind this door, the moment you tell him the truth, you and your brother will be strangers without blood.
This fear made my fingers tremble and made me stand there helplessly.
When I was about to knock on the door, the door opened and my brother's face appeared through it.
Ah ......
Surprise and impatience make me choke up, and I can't help but crinkle my mouth.
My brother smiles gently at me and beckons me into the house.
Come in, lily.
The voice of the brother you know does not change, and if you feel uneasy about the calmness of his voice, you turn your head down and walk in quietly.
You sit down on the sofa in the middle of the room, and your brother sits on the sofa across from you.
After a few moments of awkward silence, I decide that I have to break the ice, so I look up, stare at my brother's face from the front, and lower my head.
I'm--I'm sorry!
I can feel my brother's mood of disappointment at my sudden apology.
But I still have to say this clearly.
I killed your sister ...... and then pretended to be your sister. I've been playing the role of your sister, pretending to be your sister and playing the role of Lily all this time. ...... I'm really sorry, please ......!
As he said it, I was crying again, as if regretting what I had done.
At the same time, you will remember the memories of the real Lily.
You're going to be able to find out if you'll be able to find the best way to make the most out of your time with us.
I am ashamed of the weight of my sin in replacing her.
No, I was really ashamed that I forgot about her and took away the place where she should have been.
My brother just quietly opens his mouth.
"I'm not here to talk about you, Lily. I'll call you Lily here, but I don't have anything against you.
I knew that. That this man would say that.
Still, this is my own personal history, and I definitely need to apologize.
I kept my face down and listened silently to my brother's words.
It is probably not the case that you killed Lily first, is it? I've heard from my sister before. She told me she had a new friend deep in the woods. Later I realized it was you.
Was Lily talking to her brother about me?
As soon as I heard that, I looked up, and as my eyes met his, I saw that he smiled gently at me.
I was surprised when I first found you. My own sister was wandering around in the woods, covered in blood. She was also very hazy and unconscious. ......
"............
This may have been when he was wandering around the forest in the body injured by the adventurers, just before he transformed into Lily.
When my brother found me, he immediately took me home to treat me.
Afterwards, my condition returned to normal, but I had lost my memories of before and after I was found, and many other memories before that.
When my brother saw that I was involved in some kind of accident, he thought that my memory impairment was one of them, and told me a lot about my lost memories.
But that was because I was a fake in the form of Lily, and I didn't have the ability to take over her memories.
All I had in my memory was the part that Lily told me, and by adding it to the part my brother taught me, I formed my current memory.
After that, I ran away from this house to follow the path of the hero that Lily was supposed to become, and before I knew it, I became one of the great heroes.
You'll be able to get a good idea of what you're looking for, and you'll be able to get a good idea of what you're looking for.
...... When did you start to realize that?
"? You mean that you're not the real Lily?
I nodded quietly.
The question was asked by my brother, who gave a slight thought and answered simply.
It's been about a month since you came to our house.
?
It was discovered much earlier than expected, and I was surprised to find out.
It was also a time when my body was recovering and I was trying to become a hero.
How did you find out?
I asked the question, to which my brother replied with a soft smile.
That's because we're brother and sister. It's natural for you to notice that your sister is in a different mood. But the most important difference is the topic.
"Because you don't talk about your friends deep in the woods anymore," he says.
"............
Certainly. It was a natural anomaly to notice.
I myself had deliberately blocked my own memories to take the place of Lily.
The reason for this is because I wanted you to believe that it was not Lily who died there, but me, an SS-ranked demon.
But I didn't realize that this was the most uncomfortable part of becoming Lily.
So I stepped deep into the forest my sister told me about. There I found the ruins she told me about. When I got inside and saw the bodies and the carnage there, I knew what had happened. Best of all, my sister's - the real Lily's body was there.
"...... I'm sorry ......!
Attah looks surprised when he apologizes again, but quickly shakes his head.
"No, I don't blame you. I'm just grateful. Despite the devastation, my sister's body was the only one that was cleaned up. That alone shows how much you cared for her.
I couldn't stop crying even as I looked at my brother's face as he whispered to me.
At that time, my own memory is vague, and I don't know what I did.
Nevertheless, I apologized from the bottom of my heart for leaving my beloved friend in such a place.
As a consolation to you, your brother speaks softly to you.
...... I'm sure you didn't kill your sister because of the devastation and her scars. So there's no need to apologize for that.
But I was ...... cheating you ...... on behalf of Lily, your sister.
That's what I'm most sorry for.
No matter how you say it, I was cheating this person and lily's brother.
So I have to apologize for that matter.
As I said this, my brother, who had been silent and thoughtful, slowly opened his mouth.
It's true that ...... was confused at first after learning of Lily's death. I don't know what to do with you. Even if you're the friend lily was talking about, you're not lily. So what am I supposed to do with someone like that?
It must have been a true feeling that this person had been carrying around for a long time.
My dear sister dies and in her place a completely different person pretends to be her.
Who doesn't feel bewildered by such a situation.
So I looked at my brother's face, prepared to let the hatred and resentment behind it all hit me.
But when he looked back at me, his expression was calm.
But I still want to thank you. Because I saw my sister's face in you.
"Huh?
I'm taken aback by the unexpected words.
But regardless of that, my brother continues.
I knew you weren't my sister. I knew you weren't my sister. But no matter how much I knew you were a fake, your expressions and gestures, your laughing face, your angry face, the way you behaved when you fought with me, they all looked exactly like Lily's. Even though I knew there was something different inside you, you were still a living copy of Lily. My sister, who should be dead, is alive and behaving between your eyes. That was very comforting.
"............
Indeed . Who wouldn't be moved by the presence of someone who looks like your dead relatives?
Above all, you can hear your loved ones' voices and see them in motion.
Simple things like that can save a man.
Above all, there was a real lily in you. That feeling, or should I say belief? My sister used to say that instead of hunting demons for brave points, we can live with each other. You have made what my sister used to say a reality. Together with that young man Kyou.
--Yes, that's what Lily used to say.
Even after I became Lily, these words and thoughts were engraved in my heart.
It's not just a matter of how much time you spend with your friends and family, but also how much you want to spend with them.
That's why I'm grateful to you. The fact that you came back to me as Lily saved my life. Most importantly, you made her sister's wishes come true. So I want to say thank you.
It was a thank you for allowing me to take over what the real Lily would have done if she were alive.
I've never had the ability to take over Lily's memories and feelings.
Nevertheless, if Lily's feelings are carried in the actions that I have been doing, it is an act of inheriting her soul.
I've been ashamed of myself all this time.
that I killed lily and took her place.
But it's not true.
No matter how much you regret it, it won't bring Lily back, and is such a regretful and troubling thing to do as a memorial to her?
It wasn't.
If I cared about her, I would make her do what she wanted to do.
That was something only I could do when I sat in her role.
My brother told me that.
Not to regret it, but to carry on the thought and make it happen.
That is the true meaning of mourning for Lily.
The moment I realized that, I burst into tears of joy, and then I went crazy as I cried with a funny expression on my face even though I was smiling.
My brother, who was seeing this, also laughs funny.
You look just like Lily when you're crying.
Smiling at that, my brother stood up and extended his hand towards me.
The discussion is over, now that we're done talking, would you like to have something to eat? Lily
This is what my brother always says when I return to the house, to which I responded with my usual reply.
I'd like to say, "Yes, thank you for the food, brother.
My brother said earlier that he was saved.
But I whispered to myself that I was the one who was really saved, and took my brother's hand and wiped the tears away.