He cleared his voice and then he continued, "I also had few relationships as a teenager but aa aoon as I saw they were cheating on me or obsessively monitoring every move I took I started to slowly walk away from any emotional involvement."
He stood up and took my hand, he caressed my fingers and then my wrist, goosebumps formed all over my arm.
"I can see a light of hope with you."
My heart bounced over in my chest, that was probably what I always wanted to hear. I knew what he meant wasn't that he was ready to date but at least that was an improvement. At least now he was telling that maybe he saw me as a potential girlfriend in the future, and hearing that made me even happier than I thought I would feel.
"Do you ever think fate exist?" He asked, "because I am staeting to believe in fate and soulmates since I met you."
I couldn't believe he was saying that, I thought I was the only one thinking that. Coming from someone like him who was always careful not to say something too sweet in order not to make women fall.
My heart increased its beating and I had to take long breathes to hide how much his words moved me.
"I was wrong already once in thinking Carl was my soulmate but I guess this time I am not wrong anymore." I answered.
"I guess so too, we're not wrong." He tied his hand on my hand and pulled me closer. He smiled before he locked his lips on mine, as soon as our mouths opened slightly more I felt his tongues' werness brushing against my tongue.
I bit his bottom lip gently and crawled on top of him.
"You make me believe in future, Lily Waldorf." He whispered. "What did you to me?"
I chuckled, setting my gaze on his lips, my heart couldn't endure with that sudden sweetness anymore, it was exploding in my chest.
"I really like you Cameron Collins."
"I like you too Lily Waldorf."
We both smiled and we kissed again.
And again, until our scents mixed together and our lips melted with each other. Until I tasted every inch of his lips and my body turned in an tumult of feelings.
The first days I met him I could say that we were attracted to each other so much that we couldn't resist. At first physical attraction was the dominant feeling we had for the other but as days passed and we knew each other better the attraction was put to the side and we found we had an amazing mind connection.
it was like our souls had known for a long time and everytime we got close enough, just like two calamities our hearts turned to look at each other.
I didn't care about his rules or his prohibitions because our relationship was worthy, he was worthy.
And I had never been that happy in a long long time.
"We should get in the pool." He said jumping down the hammock and pulling me with him.
"I feel honoured to be the first girl to get in this pool." I chuckled.
"You're not the first girl." He corrected me as he shrugged.
My heart skipped a beat, what did he mean?
Maybe he was joking but his voice and his gaze was serious which concerned me.
He said he never brought girls in his houses and that was the first time he did it exclusively with me but maybe that house was an exception. I felt a grip over my chest in anticipation as soon as the idea he may be playing with me crossed my mind.
"The maid has the honour to get in here daily to clear the room and the water." He said, managing to hide his laugh.
I took a loud breath of relief and nudged him gently, "I hate you, I got scared." I giggled, rollying my eyes.
"You don't hate me." He said leaning closer, with a mischievous smirk on his lips.
He was right, I didn't hate him at all.
How could I hate him? My heartbeat now started to beat at his usual rhythm spreading happines all over my veins.
He sat at the edge of his pool and took off both his shoes and socks to dig his feet in the water. I did the same and we stayed there for a bit gazing at the water and contemplating life.
"My family was also quite messed up," I started, "my father divorced my mother because she never forgave him for chearing on him. And since he left her she turned very cold as if she lost all the content she once had for life." I took a deep breath.
"So I kinda understand you in that. Parenting must be hard and nobody teaches you how to be a good parent. But we don't have to be conditioned from other people's behaviors." I continued, our gazes met and he nodded.
"Our past made us stronger and who we are today Lily. And even if I had the worst time of my life when I was a kid I am glad to have experienced that trauma because I took advantage from it and learned." He smiled wrapping his hand around my shoulders.
I was so proud of him, talking to him was so easy as if we had knew each other for years.
I talked to Carl about my family after years of dating because I was too scared he would judge me, but with Cameron I didn't have that fear. Because I knew that he was just like me and that he would never hurt me.
I felt better and safer with someone like Cameron who I had knew for few months than with someone like Carl who I spend a quarter of my life with.. Maybe that meant that Cameron truly was the right person for me and that quality counted more than quantity.