Li Xue felt an instant sense of déjà vu, the moment her hands were held by someone and light feathery caresses fell over her cheeks. Though she can feel the hands be rough, the gentleness and the tender care, the person was showing was unimaginable.
'This … who is the person? Why am I feeling that I have experienced all this before too?' she mumbled inside her dream. She can see the person's hand holding hers in her dream and also his fingers lightly caressing her cheeks and hair. But the face wasn't visible. His identity was lost in the darkness that was surrounding her from all sides.
She tilted her face, waited to let the person come forward and reveal himself but it never happened. The only thing that was clear to her was his soft touches that were comforting her and the tender words that were giving her a sense of familiarity.
Feng Shufen who was sitting beside her looked at her face with loving eyes. Until today, he has not realized the real depths of his feelings for this woman. He knew that she was the one for him and no one else. He knew that he couldn't see her with anyone. He knew that he cared for her.
But he has never realized the depths of those things. Never knew that along with his possessiveness for her there was more careful. He never knew that seeing her in pain, he will be able to feel it too. He never knew that without his proper realization, this woman has made her way to such a corner of his heart from where even he, himself, had no control.
"You have suffered a lot. I am sor …" he hesitated for a moment, as that particular word was something that he has never brought to his lips. But looking at her at this moment he could not help but feel an urge to say it. "I am sor … sorry that at your lowest I wasn't there for you. I am sorry for finding you this late. But I promise from now on you will never be at your lowest. I will help you overcome all your pains from the past and will also help you deal with the ones that brought you to such a state. From now on, you will not be alone but will have me by your side always"
His magnetic cello voice travelled into the depths of the darkness Li Xue was surrounded with. The determination in that voice made the woman's heart skip a beat, causing several ripples of emotions inside.
At this moment, her heart desired to look at the person who was being so compassionate to her. Her lips moved to mumble again, "Who are you? Reveal yourself! I want to know". Anticipation filled her heart when she saw the image of the person slowly and slowly revealing himself.
As the face was revealed, her eyes got filled with contentment. Her lips moved to let her heart confirm that the person was no one else but the one it desired for. "Shufen!" she mumbled in her dream but at the other end, the man also heard her.
"Yes, it's me. Do you need anything?" He asked with concern, coming closer to her face so that he could hear her better.
"Why are you so good to me? What did I do to make you so gentle for me? You even don't know me better … still don't know my scandalous past …" she wanted to continue more but the man shushed her softly putting his fingers over her lips.
"Why do you bring your past over and over again? Didn't I already make clear that what matters to me is not your past but your present and future?" he said, not wanting her to stress more over her past. He knew that her anxiety attack today was also something related to her it, so he just doesn't want her to get worked out for it again.
But the woman had something else in her mind. In her dream, she wanted to confess everything to him as if he was the only one who would be able to cleanse her guilts and fears. "No, listen to me. You are saying it now but what if you get changed in the future and forget your words? What if after knowing my past, you also abandon me as everyone else did back then?"
Those words make the man's heart overjoyed. He never thought that he would be hearing her say something like this. "I fear that after hearing your words today, even if you want I will never be able to abandon you. You have charmed to the extent that if I lose you then I will lose myself. So now, rest assured and get back to sleep", he said and then tucked her arms back inside the blanket.
He was about to turn back and help her get a jug of water but the moment he stood to leave, the next moment her arms came out to reach him again, preventing him from leaving. "You just said that you won't abandon me but you are leaving me, breaking your promise", her voice coming out very soft, barely audible to people's ears; but to Shufen her every word was clear.
"I am not …", he tried to say but was interrupted in the middle with her words. "It's so dark and cold here. Don't leave me alone", she urged.
Shufen looked around the fully lighted room and then back at the woman. So she was in some dream. A sudden wave of happiness washed over his heart when he realized that she was not alone in her dream rather he was there accompanying her.
"So you fear the darkness? Fine, I am not leaving you anywhere. Come on, relax and sleep. I will stay next to you", he said, with a content smile on his lips and got back to his seat on the chair.
As he said those words, Li Xue's lips curled up into a satisfied smile. "But it's cold here too. Won't you hate me for my selfishness if I stop you here", she murmured again.
Her words made the man chuckle in delight. "That's not selfishness, sweetheart. They are your demands that I am obliged to accept. Because you are my woman, whom I need to pamper to the fullest. And I like you more in this spoiled way", he said and then his eyes went to trail towards her lips.
Her soft and small cherry red lips were slowly coming back to its colour. Looking at them, he remembered how soft and sweet it felt over his. A desire to get them once again arose in his heart. His fingers unknowingly went to touch them. Inching his face slowly and slowly towards them, he gave in to the desire he was feeling inside.
But then suddenly halted in his movements. His eyes gazing greedily at his aim but his heart restraining him. He was about to give in to his desire but then suddenly his lips moved upwards and a warm soft kiss fell over her forehead. "Like last time, I won't force a kiss on you. Ur next kiss will only happen when you, yourself will be ready for it. Till then, I will do what I am worst at. I will patiently wait for that day to arrive". He murmured, his lips still pressed over her skin.