Asking the help Li Xue stared at Feng Shufen. She hasn't missed his expressions changing but seeing it change after what she said felt kind of normal. "Are you shocked to hear me ask that to you? Believe me, I am shocked as well. But today something happened that caused me desperation which I was unable to take. So, thinking back on it, I think I should no longer delay knowing it."
She said as she remembered back the conversation she had with Ms. Yana in the mall. Though there seemed no point in believing her words, something was there in the expressions that were asking her to not take her words and things easy.
Feng Shufen looked at her and seeing him still staring at her like that, Li Xue chuckled to ask, "What? Why are you still looking at me? It's making me feel like I have asked you something that you have known from before." She said and her words didn't change the expression on the man's face rather only made her own expression go a little serious. "Was I right to guess that?"
She asked, shifting herself to adjust more properly in her posture. Though she has asked him to confirm her words, she need not wait for him to reply to know it anymore. His expression itself was telling it all. "So, they are actually not my parents?"
Feng Shufen moved his gaze from her. Looking at the front instead, he leaned forward keeping his hands over his knees to say something in a very serious manner. "Li Sheng is not your birth father but Liu Hua is still the woman who has birthed you." He said and his words only blew away Li Xue's senses.
Even though she thought she was prepared to hear it, now looking at herself, she was no longer sure of it.
Feng Shufen looked at her and reached out for her hands to hold to give some support. Caressing the skin of her hand, he looked at her to add the remainder of the story that he has come across before. "Back in days, Ms. Liu Hua was a struggling actress in the entertainment circle. She has worked in a few dramas and movies but has never been able to get important roles in any. So to cut the process short, she has taken the wrong way."
"But she never expected her plan to backlash. The one she thought to get involved was too dedicated to his wife and family. When he realized what she had done to him, he forced her out of the entertainment circle and also made sure that she didn't come to harm his wife's life. In the course, it is still unsure if he knows your existence or not."
He said and Li Xue just took some time to think about everything. When almost cleared her thoughts, a smile covered her lips with a trace of mock on them. "So, all this while it was like that. She was pushing the blames of her wrongs onto me. It was her failure to not establish herself in the industry and she always blamed my existence for it. It was her mistake to take the wrong way, yet all these years she has been treating me like I was the one who sold myself for the career." She chuckled, shaking her head. There was a smile of satisfaction on her expressions that was nowhere near the melancholy.
"Do you blame her?" Feng Shufen asked, not quite exactly understanding her expressions. And to his question, Li Xue smiled more as she turned to look at him with some obviousness.
"Blame her? Will that change anything? Then why should I bother? But do you know in the midst of all this, one thing has given me satisfaction?" She said and to hear her more carefully, Feng Shufen turned his attention more on her.
"Amidst all this, I realized that both of my parents weren't useless. At least one of them knew how to love and how to cherish love. Though from one corner of my heart I want to blame him. But putting myself in his shoes, I feel like what he did was actually not wrong. What happened with him was also wrong and he has got all the right to protect the sentiments of the one he loved. So I am satisfied that like the woman who birthed me in this world, he wasn't insensitive".
Li Xue said and while saying all that not once her smile faded away. Feng Shufen looked at her and was relieved as well.
"What made you suddenly doubt all this" Feng Shufen suddenly asked, not forgetting that the smoke never comes without fire. Since Li Xue has got sudden doubt on her existence, there must be someone behind it as well. So, he asked.
Li Xue simply shrugged her shoulders. "There has been someone knowing this truth as well. She reminded me again and again that she knew my father and how I am a lot like him. So I thought to investigate her words. That was it. Nothing more."
Someone who knew your father?" Feng Shufen asked. His expression turned a bit tougher at the thought of someone knowing the truth.
Li Xue nodded. "Yes, there has been a woman. I met her first at Sweet Delicacy. She has been an old customer there and after that day, we had a few more encounters. At first, I didn't believe her words but it seems she has never been wrong in that. Anyway, let's not discuss about her. It's already late, so I think we should rest as well. Tomorrow both of us have work to look after. I need to visit Sister Xinyi and then the palace."
She said before standing up, holding his hands to tug him along. But before she could make him follow her along, he suddenly asked from behind, making her thoughts pause for a while.
"Do you not want to know who your father is?"
After a moment Li Xue replied, "Why should I ask about him? Since he doesn't know about my existence, I will not bother with him as well. That way we both will be equal."