Chapter 29: Chap 29

As we left the store, a group of well-dressed young men entered. The softened voice of the shopkeeper became smaller as we walked down the street.

That kind of attitude from a seller isn’t out of the norm. They will be polite to whoever steps in their premise with the assumption they will make some money. However, if they believe the return isn’t worth the effort, there won’t be any business. For an established store, there is even less reason to do so. Why spend hours of customer service for a small sum? They are not that desperate.

For that reason, I need a shop that is desperate enough to meet our demand. What an irony. I search for a shop that is desperate but I look quite desperate myself. I need to cool my head.

After the fourth disappointment, I turn to Tian Zhong. “Senior. If we can’t find what I need in the next shop, let’s go back.”

“You’ve given up already?”

“It’s just a tool. Without an optimal one, I will need to adjust. As you said, enough training will make it possible. I can always look for a sabre later.”

“If you say so.” His tune hinted at a gleam of happiness.

I sure am contradicting. I said to myself I joined the tournament for self-improvement not winning. Why did I search for a sabre then? Am I wanting to win? I feel so stupid. However, I also feel a bit more alive. At least, winning a tournament is a more tangible goal than fighting to improve myself. It’s these palpable motivations that fuel my flame the best. How long has it been since I wanted to win something?

The last store which I think is the one… has already been beyond desperate and closed its door. A young man in the neighbourhood, one of  the blacksmith apprentices, was kind enough to point us at the nearby city. It’s much further away from the sect but will only take two hour from here.

“It’s only two hours. If we run, we can make it.”

“Let’s not do that, senior.”

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“You said we will visit one more store.”

“And they closed.”

“That counts?”

“I do, senior. I don’t believe in fate, but I will take this as a sign and end here.” Rather than looking outside for a weapon, I should have looked inside for an ascending path.

We traced back our way. Surely I didn’t get what I wanted. I won’t say today and yesterday were a waste. I remember my past life. After those I knew passed away, I stayed secluded in my estate. Too many people had gone. I did not want to experience another farewell again, so I hid away. My clan consisted of only me by that time, the last member, the last master. I had no children and I didn’t need new servants. Thus, the faces I met in those days decreased as time trickled away. My world was a withering world. It was a stagnant puddle, rotting and evaporating from within. 

We walk past an inn. The scent of steamed buns, of wonton noodles, of chicken soup assault our stomach. The lunch we took did little to prevent my saliva. As our hunger growls, I quicken the feet. I laugh as we run away from the sour and sweet pork. 

The main street was full of people. There are sounds of haggling, of talking, of angry shouting, of children smiling. Washed over by the heat of sunlight, I feel the brilliance of life once again.

It’s not the first time I was on the street of this world. I spent days in Xincheng observing life anyway. However, I walked alone in those days. My head was filled with objectives, plans, and what to do next. 

When I became a disciple, I had to act with manners. I knew Tian Zhong did that too. We rarely had chances to go together like this. Him treating me like a kid allows me to shed the old leaves on my soul. Without someone by my side, my world would have stayed dull grey, and life would be oblivious to me.

To be in companionship with someone equal, this reminds me of him. Had any of us stepped closer, our lives would have intertwined. Had he not left the realm of the livings so soon, perhaps we would have realised what we were missing regardless how late it was. I have no regret for my last life, but… maybe not entirely. 

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