Chapter 55: Chap 55

As her table turns to face me, I finally confirm. That’s her. That’s Yun An.

 

“Young lady Dong. It’s an honor seeing you here.” He Yu offered his greeting politely. His facial expression. It is genuine. He is truly happy to see her. I couldn’t detect any hidden motive behind his smile like with those repulsive brats.

 

“Young master He.” She stood up and saluted him. Her form, her movements. They are proper, firm, and mature. I haven’t seen her for four years, but she shouldn’t change that much. What had she gone through?

 

Then her attention diverts to me. Her face. It’s like she is seeing a stranger. Couldn’t she recall anything when looking at my face?

 

“Yun An. Do you… have no memory of me?”

 

I can’t read what she is thinking. Is she judging the truthfulness of my words? Or, like anyone would do when they meet a stranger, considering the best answer? We are not strangers, Yun An. You don’t need to be careful with your words when talking to me.

 

“Yes. I do not recognize you.” She told such a heartbreaking fact like it was trivial.

“Yun An.” I touch my heart. “It’s me. I am Ya Qi. I used to play with you when you were small... Don’t you remember me… like at all?”

She shakes her head slowly. “Sorry. I do not know you.”

Her eyes didn’t lie. “So it’s true.” I lower my gaze down to my clenching fists.

 

Just what had happened? What dared do this to you, Yun An? A trick of the heaven? An illness? Or an injury caused by those unsavory scoundrels of the Chen and the Dong?

 

I look straight into her eyes. “Yun An. Please come with me to Dong clan.” I grab her wrist with both hands. “I will find a doctor who can help you recover your lost memories, and I won’t let anything happen to you.”

 

Her eyes avert. They are making calculations again.

 

“I am sorry. I am sorry. I didn’t pay you any visit for the last four years. I was… No. Whatever I am saying now would sound nothing more than excuses. Yun An. I am sorry for all the hardships that have happened to you. I will not ask for forgiveness, but please trust me only this one time. This time, I swear I will protect you!”

 

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Why is she looking at me with such bored eyes? Why? I am getting more confused at her reaction. I thought she would be bombarding me with questions about our past. I thought she would be furious that someone like me would shamelessly come to her and ask her to trust me after neglecting her. Why is she so indifferent?

 

She pries my fingers off, while replying to me in perfect composure. “Young master Dong. Let’s settle down first.”

 

My servants promptly order the waiters to bring more chairs and join the tables together.

 

“Regarding your demands, I am interested in my past, so let’s do it slowly over time. However, I will not go with you.”

“Why?”

“Then explain to me why I have to do so?”

“Yun An, you may have forgotten, but we are as close as siblings. It’s the right thing for siblings to help each other. I… I had also promised your mother to look after you. I know I failed you, but please allow me to atone for my mistake. Furthermore, your ho- hut was burned down by the brat from the Chen. I am sorry but there was nothing left.”

“If so, then I am fine as I am.”

“Yun An. I know I can’t prove my sincerity, but please give me a chance. If you want more, I-”

She raised a finger. “Let me talk first. I had already become the disciple of my master. I am currently staying and training at my sect. These actions stemmed from my own decision. To change it so suddenly would be inconvenient to me. You might be as close as my sibling, but why do I have to make changes for old time’s sake or your promise with my mother?”

“I-” Why is no word coming out? Say something, me. If I don’t say anything, she will- “Can’t- Can’t I say anything for you to forgive me?”

Yun An squints her eyes. She let out a sigh. “What are you saying? Did it look like I was blaming you for what happened to me? Just how did you get to that conclusion?”

 

The entire table fell into silence. I don’t know what to say.

 

“Look. I understand you feel bad for me. I understand you want to make up for me. However, can’t you understand that I rejected your proposal because I don’t want to do so? Can’t you understand that I can not just do whatever you want me to do because it interferes with what I am having in mind?”

“I understand.”

“Your face doesn’t say so.”

“I-”

“Let’s do it like this. If you want to connect with me, I will allow you the chance to do so. We will exchange letters and meet up if possible. You can fill me in with the things I forgot. In the meantime, I will remain with my master.”

“I… understand.”

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