It was as if she didn’t care about her own life or death at all.
Yan Sichen opened his eyes and clenched his fists. do you really value your life so much? Who said your illness can’t be cured? Qing Qing, if you cooperate with the doctor, everything will be fine!”
“I don’t want to.”
Yan Sichen’s brown eyes narrowed. what did you say? ”
Ning Qing raised her tired eyes, but there was no hope for life in them.
“I don’t want to be cured, nor do I want to be cured,” she said.
“……”
She had thought too much these days.
She had once seen mother ning’s heartache and pain. She had tried her best to cure herself, but the car accident that day and Nian lie’s heartless words over the phone had reminded her time and time again that she could never forget the past, because it had been stained with the blood of her family.
She tore and struggled, but she could only fall deeper into the abyss.
She finally understood that she was not worthy of a full recovery.
Yan Sichen’s heart ached when he heard this, and his gentleness was about to collapse.
“Didn’t you think about aunt ning and uncle ning when you did this? And the dead ye su!”
Ning Qing’s eyelashes trembled, and a strange smile appeared on her face.
“They won’t want me to be well.”
Yan Sichen shook his head. ning Qing, how can you say that? Can’t you see how worried aunt ning has been about you these days? You!!!”
“Brother Sichen.”
She suddenly stopped him, her mournful eyes devoid of life.
you can treat this as my last gamble. If I can forget everything, I’m willing to use my clean future to make up for the pain my parents suffered.
Every day, every night, every moment, she had to bear with guilt and regret, and suffer the burning torture of heart.
She really didn’t want to continue like this.
She was going to die.
Yan Sichen watched as the Starlight in her eyes fell and turned into endless despair and sorrow.
He did not doubt that she really could not hold on any longer.
After a long time, he finally squeezed out a sentence from his throat. the medicine is still in the development stage. It’s not safe. Have you thought about it carefully? ”
Tears welled up in ning Qing’s eyes, but she smiled when she heard him agree.
“I believe you.”
“……”
All the words were stuck in her heart, suffocating and uncomfortable.
Yan Sichen had nothing to say. wait for two more days and I’ll bring you the medicine, ” he said before rushing out of the door.
The doctor at the door was confused. He lowered his eyes and said, ” you don’t have to guard her.
The doctors, including mother ning, were all dumbfounded.
Yan Sichen didn’t explain and left straight away.
*
Ning Qing’s mood had improved a lot since Yan Sichen had agreed.
Mother ning could tell that ning shuqian had asked her many times, but she couldn’t help but tell her the truth.
“How can I do that? ‘Qing Qing, you’re so silly. That’s medicine, not something you can eat!’ How can you use your own body as an excuse?”
Mother ning was both angry and anxious. Ning Qing quickly expressed her thoughts.
mom, I didn’t tell you, but I’ve been feeling terrible these days. Every time I fall asleep, I think of my child and sister, and I can’t face these things, let alone you and dad. I even feel that I can’t live anymore.
At this moment, ning Qing’s mother was also a little disappointed. do you have to treat yourself like this for a man? Ning Qing, when you made this decision, did you think about me or your father?”
Ning Qing’s face was full of guilt. I’m sorry, mother.
“What’s the use of saying sorry? Your father and I no longer have any feelings for each other. By doing this, are you trying to make us lose you too?”