Oh, why was I asleep? My head feels dizzy. I try to get up, but I can't. I've never been in this situation before.
I've never been sick or anything, so I'm a little surprised.
Why does my head hurt like this? Did I do something wrong?
Just as I was thinking that, the door opened.
"Ah!
At the same time, I heard Gaius' voice.
"You're awake! Thank God. ......
"Hmm. What's wrong with me, ......?
"Don't you remember?
What's wrong with ......?
I was lying down and Gaius came up to me and talked to me.
I wonder what's wrong with me, I think, but honestly I don't know. My head hurts, and I can't think straight.
...... Lern Da, I healed you. Injury.
"Fixed?
Yeah. I thought I saw a light, an injury that could have killed me, but it healed badly. That's when Lelunda fell.
That reminds me.
Well, my beastman brother, who's been treating me well, got hurt badly, and I didn't like it. And then... He got better. He's healed? I'm not sure.
I don't know, but if he's alive, then he's ...... good.
That's good. I'm glad.
I didn't want to lose someone so sweet. I'm glad, I guess.
Lelanda said she was probably just recovering from her fall.
"......, did I do something?
I hoped, and then I saw a light, and I fell. Honestly, I have no idea what was going on.
Godson, so? I don't know if that's really the case, but the thought that it might be is getting stronger.
"Lelunda, you have magic. "Lelanda, you have magic powers.
"Magic?
I've always thought that gods and goddesses use magic, so I've always thought that they might have it. But I didn't learn it, and I didn't think I could use it.
So, after healing all those injuries, I figured he must have collapsed from lack of magic power. ......
Yeah, yeah.
Magic loss.
Magic.
That's why my head is so dizzy and my body is so weak.
That's what happens when you run out of magic.
But I'm glad I'm not dead.
Lelanda, don't do that too much, okay?
"...... what? You're alive. That's good.
No, I know, but ....... My father said that Lelunda was a child and that she didn't have much magic. If she runs out of magic, Lerunda will just fall down, but sometimes she will die! So don't be so reckless.
Gaius got mad at me.
That's right. He said it would only knock you down, but it could kill you. My head is throbbing from all that recklessness. I can't even get up.
But I don't know why I'm angry.
That's how I feel.
"But it's good that ...... everyone is better off than me.
Because everyone is kind. They're kind and warm. It warms my heart. I love you all, even for a short time. So I don't want to see the people I love die.
"...... and I'm probably not going to ...... die.
Maybe, but I don't think I'll die from this. I've been wondering what's going to happen to me, but I'm still alive somehow. I'm moving in the right direction.
So I thought, "Well, I'm probably not going to die, and if it makes things a little harder for me, then that's okay, as long as the people I feel warm and fond of can live.
I thought, "That's not what this is about!
I thought, but Gaius got mad at me again. I'm surprised that Gaius got angry with me like this. Gaius, you're not supposed to be this mad. I wonder why.
Lelunda ...... has a look on her face like she doesn't know why she's angry.
After shouting, Gaius said in a disgusted voice.
I guess he's not angry anymore. But why did he get angry?
I have magic, I can heal someone with magic. I might fall a little, but I probably won't die. That would be a good thing, I thought.
My dad said he didn't want us to die, that's why the spell worked, that's what he said.
No, that's why.
You know, ......, that's what we think of Lern Da, too, isn't it?
Hmm?
I love you guys. They're warm. They're kind. I'm happy when I'm with you. And I didn't want to leave them. I don't want to. I wish.
That's what I'm feeling inside. That's what I'm feeling.
Is that what you're feeling for me?
Lelunda, you sound like you're pretty sure you're not gonna die for some reason. But you can't be sure. The next time Lelunda uses that magic, Lelunda might die.
"......
Even if she doesn't die, she'll be like right now, she won't be able to get up. You may not know it, but you look so blue.
That's right. I don't even know what color I look like. I'm listening to what Gaius is saying.
"You know we wouldn't want that to happen, right? When Lerunda collapsed, we were all worried, you know? I'm sure you'll be happy to know that we're not the only ones who are worried about you. You need to realize that we care about you more than you care about us.
Gaius, you're angry.
But I'm not afraid.
He's worried about me.
He says he cares about me.
"Lelunda, you don't want me to go hunting with you and your dad and come back injured every time I insist I'm okay, do you?
"Yeah. ......
That's what Lelunda means by okay, right?
I'd be worried if Gaius was doing that. I'd want him to stop. Oh, yeah. That's the same feeling. The same way I feel important. That's what he feels. That's why you're angry.
That I don't care about you.
I've never been angry like that before. I've never had someone worry about me like that. I've never been told I'm important.
Lern Da, why are you crying? I'm sorry, I was out of line! I'm sorry, I was out of line, but I do care about you, too, so please don't do anything rash!
I'm crying. I've never shed a tear in my life. But I'm not sad or anything.
I'm... I'm happy.
Happy?
Yeah. I'm happy.
I'm happy, I'm happy. I'm happy that you're worried about me, that you're mad at me. I've never been told I'm important. I've never been scolded warmly like this.
My parents, the villagers, they never got angry like this. They didn't make me feel this warm and fuzzy.
I'm glad.
To be shown that I'm important. To be angry with me like this.
"Gaius, I'm important.
"Oh, oh.
Gaius turns away, perhaps embarrassed, but his ears are twitching.
That makes me ...... happy.
I'm happy. I'm happy. I'm so happy, I'm crying.
I'm crying. I'm crying at .......
Are you crying because you're happy?
Hmm. I'm crying because I'm ...... happy.
That's why I'm crying so hard.
I've never been told to take care of myself like that before. I suppose it's because I wasn't in such danger, but there was no one around me who could make me angry like this. If my grandfather had been alive, he might have been angry with me, but he's gone now. In the village where I grew up, there was no one who cared about me like this. It was normal for people not to worry about me.
"---Gaius ......, I love Gaius.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!
"I love you, Athos, and everyone.
Oh, yeah, that's right.
Gaius, you're acting a little strange, but I'm going on.
"Thank you.
I say thank you. I just wanted to say thank you.
"Gaius, I know you're mad.
"Oh, yeah. That's good. Just take it easy, okay?
Gaius, wiping away my tears when I couldn't lift my arms. Gaius, you're so sweet.
"No. I'm not going to do anything crazy.
Gaius smiled when I said that.
After I said that, I started to feel a little sleepy. Maybe it's because I cried.
"Lelanda, are you sleepy?
"No, not really.
Okay, good night.
Hi, .......
Gaius said good night and patted me on the head. I looked at Gaius's smile and realized that I had flown into a world of sleep.
---- A girl and a village of beastmen 4
(Maybe the girl, who is a godchild, has a conversation with the beastman boy and sheds tears of joy)