Why was I sleeping? My head is dizzy. I try to get up, but I can't do it. I had never been in this situation before.
I had never been sick before, so I was a bit surprised.
Why did my head hurt like this? Did I do something wrong?
While I was thinking like that, the door opened.
Ah!
At the same time, I heard Gaius' voice.
You're awake! Thank goodness. ......"
I said, "Hmmm. What's wrong with me, ......?"
Don't you remember?"
What's wrong with me, ......?"
Gaius came up to my side as I was lying down and spoke to me.
I think about what's wrong with me, but honestly I don't know. My head hurt and I couldn't think straight.
He said, "...... Lernda, I'm healed. Injury.
"Healed?
Yes. I thought I was going to die, I thought I was going to glow, but I was healed from a serious injury. Then Lernda collapsed.
I remembered that when I heard that.
Yes, the brother of the beastman who has been taking good care of me was badly injured, and I didn't like it. Then ---. He was healed. Injury, gone? I don't know.
If he's still alive, that's good.
That's good. I think so.
I didn't want to lose a kind person. I was glad, I thought.
I'm not sure if it's a good thing, but it's a good thing.
...... did I do something?"
I wished, and then something glowed and I collapsed. I honestly have no idea what was going on.
Kamiko, so?
I'm not sure if it's really true, but the thought that it might be so has become stronger again. My father and the others told me.
"Magic?"
I had thought that he might have magic power, because I had thought that he might have used magic. But I hadn't studied it, and I didn't think I could use it.
So, yes.
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at the information you need to know.
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at the internet.
The most important thing to remember is that the best way to get the most out of your car is to get the most out of your car.
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at your own personal personal computer.
But ......, I'm glad I didn't die, I think so.
Lelunda, don't do that kind of thing too often, okay?
"...... what, so? It's a good thing you're alive.
No, it is, but ....... The father said that Lelunda is a child and should not have so much magic power. That's why you shouldn't be so reckless.
Gaius was furious with me.
I know," Gaius said. I only fell down, but there are times when you die. My head was throbbing from all that recklessness. I couldn't even muster the strength to get up.
But why do they get angry?
I feel like that.
"...... but it's a good thing that ...... everyone is better off than I am."
Because everyone is kind. They are kind and warm. It makes my heart warm. I love you all, even if it's only for a short time. So, I don't want the people I love to die.
"...... and I'm probably ...... not going to die."
Maybe, but I don't think I'm going to die because of this. I've been kind of alive, even when I wondered what was going to happen to me. I'm moving in the right direction.
So, I thought, I probably won't die, and even if I have a hard time, it's okay if the people I warmly love can live with that.
That's not what I meant!"
But then Gaius got mad at me again. I am surprised that Gaius is angry with me like this. Gaius, you never get this angry. I wonder why.
Lelunda......, you look like you don't know why you're angry.
After yelling, Gaius said in a disgusted voice.
I guess I'm not angry anymore. But why did I get angry?
I have magical powers, and I can heal someone with magic. I might fall down a bit, but I probably wouldn't die. That would be a good thing, I thought.
My dad and the others said that the magic was probably triggered because they didn't want us to die.
No, that's why.
You know, ......, that's what we're thinking about Lelunda, too, right?
Hmm?
I love you all. I love you all. They are kind. When I'm with them, I'm happy. That's why I didn't want to leave. I thought I didn't want to. I wished for it.
That is the feeling I have inside me. That's how I feel.
Do they feel the same way about me?
Lelunda said, "I don't know why, but you sounded like you're sure you're not going to die. But you can never be sure, can you? If Lelunda uses that magic next time, she might die, you know?
"......
Even if you don't die, like right now, you won't be able to get up, you know? You may not know it yourself, but you're looking awfully blue.
I know. I have no idea what color I look like. I'm listening to Gaius' words.
Do you know that we don't like it when that happens? When Lelunda collapsed, everyone was worried about her, you know? Lelunda is acting like it's better for everyone to get well even if she collapses, but you should take better care of yourself. You should be more ...... aware that we care about Lelunda!"
Gaius, I'm angry.
But I'm not afraid.
He's worried about me.
He says he cares about me.
I'm not going to go with you on your hunts and come back with injuries every time you go on a hunt.
Yeah. ......
That's what Lelunda means when she says she's fine, okay?
I would be worried if Gaius did that. I'd want him to stop. Oh, yeah. I feel the same way. The same way I feel important. He feels it. That's why you're angry.
That I don't care about you.
I've never been angry at you like that before. I have never been worried about me like that before. I've never been told that I'm important.
I've never been told that I'm important before. I'm sorry, I said too much! But everyone says, well, I care about you too, so please don't do anything rash!
I'm crying. I've never cried at all. But it's not like I'm sad or anything.
It's like, "No, I'm not. I'm happy.
You're happy?
No. I'm happy.
I'm happy. I'm happy that he was angry with me and said he was worried about me. I've been told that I'm important. I had never been scolded in such a warm way.
Neither my parents nor the villagers had ever scolded me like this. I had never felt such warmth and anger.
I was happy.
I was happy that they showed me how important I was. I was happy that they showed me that I was important, that they were angry with me like this.
"Gaius, you care about me."
"Oh, oh."
Gaius turned away, perhaps embarrassed, but his ears twitched.
That makes me ...... happy.
I'm happy. The most important thing is that you should be able to see the difference between the two. I'm so happy, I'm crying.
I'm happy. I'm ...... crying.
"Are you crying because you're happy?"
I'm happy, I'm crying. I'm happy to be told that I'm important,......, I'm happy.
So, tears are flowing down my cheeks.
The most important thing to remember is that you should never be afraid to take care of yourself. The reason may be that I had not been in such danger, but there was no one around me who would have been angry with me like this. If my grandfather had been alive, he might have been angry with me, but he was no longer around. In the village where I was born and raised, there was no one who cared about me like this. It was normal for them not to worry about me.
"---Gaius......, I, Gaius, love you.
Oh, oh, oh, oh!
Athos, I love you, too."
"Oh, yeah, that's right."
Gaius, you're acting a little strange, but I continue.
"Thank you, thank you."
I said thank you. I wanted to say thank you.
Gaius, I know you're angry.
Oh, oh. That's good. If you understand, don't take it too hard, okay?"
Gaius, wiping away my tears as I couldn't lift my arm. Gaius, you're so kind.
I said, "No. I won't do anything reckless. I won't do anything reckless.
Gaius laughed when I said that.
After that, I started to feel a little sleepy. Maybe because I cried.
"Are you sleepy, Lelunda?"
"No, a little.
Well, good night.
"Oh, ...... sorry."
Gaius said good night and patted my head. I watched Gaius smile and found myself flying into a world of sleep.
---- girl and the beastman's village 4
(Probably, the girl, who is a godchild, converses with the beastman boy, and she weeps with joy.)