After our birthday celebration we headed south again. We continue on, discussing where to move our base.
Gaius still looked as if he was thinking about something. Mr. Oshashio had told me to leave him alone, but I wondered if I should really leave him alone. I wish I knew more about Gaius. If I knew Gaius, would I be able to deal with the fact that he was making that face?
I think so, but just as not everyone can know exactly what is in my heart, Gaius and I are different people, so I can't know exactly everything. When I was in the village where I was born and raised, I never thought about these things.
I just wasn't dead, I didn't think about it much, I just lived.
I didn't have many conversations, I didn't open my mouth. I didn't have a desire to know anyone or do anything on my own.
But when I met the gryphons, my family called Seafo, and everyone I loved, I learned many things. I also learned from meeting everyone that there are things that can only be understood by talking about them.
It was only a few days later that I had the chance to hear from Gaius.
It was night.
Looking up at the sky, the stars were shining. The night sky is so beautiful.
Looking up at the starry sky is calming. No, it's not just the stars, but being in touch with nature is somehow calming.
It was a night like this when Gaius and I made our vows. Thinking of that, I felt like walking.
Ah ......
As I was walking, Gaius was there.
I looked at Gaius. Gaius looked at me, too.
"Lerunda."
Gaius. ......
I look at Gaius.
"Gaius, talk to me."
I said, and Gaius nodded. So we sat down side by side.
Gaius is ......."
I would like to know what Gaius is thinking. But I couldn't continue to speak because I thought I was forcing him to talk.
Gaius looked at me and smiled a little.
Lerunda, you're wondering what I'm thinking, aren't you?"
Gaius knew what I wanted to ask. Gaius says to me.
'Lelunda was awesome at ......, even during that demon slaying.'
Gaius mentions me. I say "was great," but I was just desperate.
I was able to help ...... everyone. And I've made contracts with the Gryphons and the Skyforce, and this time with the spirits,......."
I'm not sure what Gaius has to do with what's troubling me. I don't know. I don't know, and that's why I listen to Gaius. I am not sure what Gaius is thinking if I don't listen to him. I want to know what Gaius is thinking.
Lelunda is ......, well, she might be a child of God, and she's awesome ......."
Not awesome.
No, he's great. I'm helpful to everyone. But I'm not... I'm just saying that I want to create a place where everyone feels safe, but it's not good at all.
I don't know what Gaius is talking about.
Gaius is no good? No, he's not. Gaius is great. Gaius is kind, he helps me, he's great. I think he's great.
But I'm all talk and no action like Lelunda. I have no power at all. I couldn't do anything when we were killing the demons."
"...... That's not true. Gaius, you're great. I know. Gaius, you're always so kind. Gaius has helped me a lot. And it never occurred to me that I wanted to create a place where I could feel safe. Gaius came up with the idea, and we talked about it. That's why we all agreed it was a good idea.
Gaius was always so kind. I was saved by Gaius. And the fact that I became everyone's goal started because of that wish that Gaius mentioned. Maybe if Gaius hadn't mentioned it, that kind of wish might not have become everyone's goal. At least, I couldn't have come up with that.
When Gaius said it, I thought it was wonderful and I wanted to make that wish come true too.
Gaius made me look forward to this so much. Gaius, no or no. Gaius, great!"
I think Gaius is great, no matter how many times he says he's not. Gaius is awesome, I tell Gaius over and over again.
"Yeah, Gaius is awesome!"
"Yeah, Gaius is awesome!"
"Thanks for the ......, but I want to be more useful to everyone. I want to be stronger than just talk. I want to be able to protect everyone.
Okay, well, let's work together.
Yeah.
I, Gaius, pray that I can be strong.
"Ha, thank you, Lelunda."
Gaius, you smiled. I hope it clears your mind a little. I, Gaius, will pray for Gaius to be strong. I pray for Gaius to smile.
And together, I hope we can do our best.
The next day, an unexpected change happened.
---The next day, an unexpected change happened... the girl, the boy, became aware of his sorrow.
(The girl, who is probably a godchild, learns of the sorrow of the boy, who is a beast. The boy felt helpless, that he could not do anything.)