The children, still young in years, are to come here as hostages. The hostages were not free. They were not allowed to know the location of the village, and they were not allowed to know about the village, so they would be held captive for most of their lives, although it was painful.
We would have to go to such lengths to protect them. We are, no, I am weak. Until we become stronger, until the foundation of the village is established, we have to be that way, even if we don't want to be.
In addition to that, I have decided to have my contracted families monitor them more extensively. It is also an act of intimidation that I can do anything I want to them at any time.
I might not have been able to do that, for example, if I had not had to go through so many experiences after being abandoned. If I had not known the harshness of reality, I would not have been able to think this way.
I prayed at the altar that day, too. I simply told God of my decision, of what had happened today.
Was I making the right choice, or was I doing the right thing? I have such anxiety. When I tell God, even though I don't get a response, I know that my heart is calmed. It is good to have a place where I can let out my feelings. Come to think of it, this place to pray is called "Lerunda's Altar" by others, and it seems to have become a bit of a fixture. ...... I guess it is because I am the only one praying here.
Other places are called "Altar of the Gryphons" or "Altar of the Spirits". Even though the beings we pray to are different, we live together. It can be said that we don't recognize the beings we pray to other than the ones we pray to, because we don't think of them in that way.
---They have offered us hostages. It is not a relationship of equals. However, if the possibility is not zero, I may be naive in wishing to walk together with them rather than against them. Still, I would like to be friends with everyone if possible. Even though I know the reality, I still wish so. No matter how tough the road may be, that is my wish.
Mr. Lan is producing paper little by little. He made me a notebook with it.
In that notebook, I decided to keep a record of the people I have lost.
Because I want to keep in mind those who have passed away.
And then, the number of proper rules in this village has been gradually increasing. I will make a proper rule for something that has been somehow decided until now. If the rules had been made, maybe Mr. Roma would not have done what he did. If rules are broken, punishment will be given. Those rules have to be in place.
I thought that was necessary because we are a group. If we were small in number, we could manage if we took care of each other. For example, if it was just me and the griffons, we could get along without rules. But now there are more of us. We have to take care of those things in order to protect our place.
It's a difficult subject, but we don't make the choice not to think about it just because its difficult. We will not be able to escape by giving up thinking about it. That is why we are willing to learn no matter how difficult it is.
I don't think we will be able to completely abandon them in the future. That is why we will probably have more relationships with people in the future. Maybe our circle of friends will grow. This time we didn't do it well. I lost Roma because I couldn't even make up my mind to use my power well.
If there is another first contact with different people, I will try to get along with them better. No, I will definitely do that.
So too am I determined.
I thought from this experience that being strict not to lose them is what I need to do for the future.
---The child who is spending time as a hostage is very quiet. The remaining people are just going on with their lives while the griffons are watching over them. I did not see them directly, but my contracted family told me so.
As we interact with them, we are gradually getting to know them. And they are getting to know us a little bit, too. We help them to live here, and they give us their harvests as a token of their appreciation for our help.
The time between us and them passed so peacefully that it was hard to believe that any bloodshed had occurred. But I think that's because everyone I have a contract with is keeping an eye on them. If I hadn't done that, I might not be having such a peaceful time with them right now.
I thought about that as I felt the time flowing peacefully.
---- girl and the tribe 9
(Perhaps, the girl who is a godchild will use her power because of her desire to protect everyone.)