I, Alice, was dissatisfied with my time at Ninaev-sama's mansion.
Because I wanted to be involved not only with the people inside the mansion - no, I wanted to be more involved with the people outside. I want to give back many things to the people I have caused trouble for.
However, Ninaev-sama won't let me out of the house.
He might not want to let me out of the house. When I think so, I wonder why.
I'm going to ...... listen to what he says and try not to move without permission.
I wonder if ...... Nynaev-sama doesn't believe me after all."
When I think that, I feel a little depressed.
But I feel a little sad.
I have never felt sad or lonely until Ninaev took me in. It was natural for everyone to believe in me and to be by my side. But when I think about my sister Lelunda, I wonder if she has always felt these feelings that I am feeling now. I never thought about it back then, but ...... there was no one by Lelunda's side. I was allowed to dress nicely, but Lelunda always wore ragged clothes. If we were twins, my birthday should have been Lelunda's birthday, but everyone in the village, including my parents, celebrated only me and not Lelunda.
Recalling this, it is natural that I am not believed by Ninaev-sama now, and it is also natural that I am feeling sad and lonely, considering that I am just feeling negative emotions that I have never felt before.
However, the fact that I cannot go outside of this mansion was hard for me, as I am filled with the desire to go around asking everyone for favors for all the trouble I have caused them.
There was someone who approached me as my heart was filled with conflicting feelings of wanting to follow Master Ninaev's words that I could not go outside yet, and wanting to go outside.
That person was a man who had recently been hired as a gardener in this mansion. He was a kind man who often gave me freshly picked fruits.
If you want to go out so badly, I can take you out. It's okay if you just want to go out for a little while in town.
He told me gently like that.
But, I thought to myself.
Ninaev-sama is protecting me. Even though I had caused so much trouble. I am alive because of Nyunayev, and I thought it was wrong for me to act against his will.
No, without Master Nynaev's permission ......
'It's all right if I just go out for a minute. I can tell Master Nynaev later, and he will laugh and forgive me.
He said to me like that and held my hand.
The actual a lot of people are going to be able to get a lot more information on the web. Even if he found out, the gentle Nyunayev might forgive me.
The possibility of such a possibility crossed my mind.
I wonder if it would be okay to go out like this.
But still.
'No, I would prefer to go outside only after Master Ninaev's permission. So, I'm sorry. It was nice of you to offer to take me out, but maybe another time.
I was glad you said you would take me out, but maybe another time," he said.
I knew I didn't want to go outside without waiting for Master Ninaev's permission. I didn't want to be hated for not keeping my promise. That is why I said what I said.
I thought that if I refused, the kind gardener would let go of my hand.
But--
"Oh, bother me already."
As soon as he said those violent words to me, he pulled my hand from his grasp with all his might.
What are you doing? I told you I'm not going!"
I raise my voice, astonished as to why he would do such a thing. But his mouth was blocked by a large man's hand.
Why would he do this? I don't know.
I was scared.
I was scared.
But I could not do anything as he held me. I tried to resist, but I was no match for the man's power.
Why, why, why?
What will happen to me if I don't do anything?
When I was about to be crushed by such anxiety.
What are you doing?
I heard the voice of one of the maidens who was taking care of me.
At the same time I heard this voice, the man who was trying to hold me let go of me. Then he pushed me away. I was on the ground and heard the sound of the man running away.
It hurt.
My body throbbed with pain from being pushed and hit so hard.
I lost consciousness from the pain and shock.
---My sister and a certain incident.
(The sister of a godchild girl was taking a new step forward under the princess. One thing happened to her.)