I still can't come to terms with the fact that my father had to be killed. If you're going to side with the beasts now, why didn't you make that decision before you killed my father?
Yes.
If only the prince had made that decision earlier. Maybe Mr. Athos would not have died. It's something you can't help but think about, but you can't help but think about what if.
I'm sure he didn't have to die. I'm not sure if I should have thought of that, but I couldn't help thinking about it. ......The beasts in Mr. Nilsi's village were going through a lot, too. I've been thinking about the fact that my father was killed. Nilsi and the others are having a hard time, too, and all I can think about is how I can't forgive them.
Yeah.
I thought I shouldn't tell anyone about these feelings. ...... I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do with it, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it. I thought about it for a long time without telling anyone, and then my head got all tangled up in it, and I didn't know what to do, so I tried not to think about it.
Yeah.
"I tried not to think about it, but no matter how much I tried not to think about it, even if I moved my body and didn't think about it for a moment, I would think about it again right away. The more I try to suppress these thoughts, the more I feel like I don't know why, and the more I don't know what to do. Maybe one day I will attack those knights. ......
"Don't worry ....... I'm sure I'll be fine and Ran and everyone else will be watching. Gaius may want to kill you, but you don't really want to kill him.
If he really wanted to kill, he wouldn't be conflicted like this. If it would have been easier to kill him, he would have acted instead of venting to me like this and suffering alone.
Gaius seemed to be worried that I would hate him, but I am sure that I will never hate him. Because people change, but Gaius is still the Gaius I love.
I think it is because Gaius is a kind Gaius that I am conflicted like this.
That is why I decided to watch Gaius so that he would not get caught up in his hatred. I don't think anyone else would hate Gaius even if they knew what he was going through. We are all like-minded people.
Gaius, it's okay to hold on to those feelings. If you really can't hold them in, I'm always willing to listen to you. Not only me, but Ran, Dong, Ilkesai and the others will all listen to you. I'll even go along with you to distract you. I love Gaius and care about him.
When I said this, Gaius' eyes filled with tears. I was surprised.
Gaius, what's wrong?
I just felt blessed, that's all. I was happy about that. Thank you, Lerunda.
Gaius smiled and wiped away his tears.
Don't worry about it. Gaius helped me a lot, too. It's mutual. Gaius, if you're feeling a little hazy, why don't you try running around and yelling as much as you can? You might feel a little better if you do it in wolf form. It might be dangerous for Gaius and I to go alone, so the griffons would have to go with us. ......
I made a suggestion to Gaius.
I was hoping that Gaius would feel a little better.
I thought it would be a good idea for him to let out some of his pent up energy by shouting as loud as he could. I thought it might make him feel a little better. It wouldn't make the feeling go away, but it would still be good for Gaius.
Besides, if I was in wolf form, there would be no problem if people around me heard my voice.
Gaius laughed at my words and said, "Oh. I was glad that he felt a little better for having spoken out to me.
I'll talk to Dong and the others about it.
Yes.
I was relieved to see that Gaius looked refreshed when he told me that he was going to talk to Dong and the others about it.
I'm not sure I understand everything that Gaius is thinking, but I'm glad that I was able to help him in this way.
Right next to me, Frene was murmuring, "It's hard being human.
Frene pointed a finger at me and I looked over to see Ran, Nilsi, Sifo, and Reimer peering at me with concern.
Gaius is well-liked by everyone. Everyone loves Gaius so much that they are worried about him.
Gaius is liked by everyone. No matter how they feel about him, they don't hate him. I wondered if Gaius felt the same way after my first use of sacred magic.
Gaius was angry at me for saying that I didn't care about myself.
I told Gaius that it was okay, that he might not like me now.
I was happy to hear Gaius' words at that time, and I was happy to be able to help him in this way.
Gaius, Ran and the others are here.
Oh, my God, it's true.
Everyone is worried about you, Gaius. We'll take good care of you, don't worry.
"...... Oh."
I'm going to live with the people I love and I'm going to support each other.
--The girl and the boy's conflict 3
(The girl is happy to be able to help the boy, who is a beast. And they will live supporting each other.)