Chapter 82: -Special series: Wildflowers in the Wednesday Western Wind (2/3)

-----PoV: Kawamura Kanae-----

-----Wednesday-----

Ruru had said she wanted to see me… to talk.  I know I wouldn’t be able to talk to her properly.  She’s such a good girl…  I want her to be Kouta’s wife… not Shi-chan.  That’s because I want Shi-chan for myself, but it’s a dream I know I will never be able to see come to fruition.

I did something irreparable to Shi-chan.  I had her fuck our dad, so that I could make Kouta fall into despair, and I could take him.  With that, he would be able to love us properly.  He wouldn’t have to worry about her history… she might even be able to sleep around as well.  I can enjoy her at her wildest, and I can also be able to enjoy Kouta.

I don’t care about her sexual history.  I just care about her touch.  It’s what I need.

Ruru still insisted on seeing me, even after I said I’d show my face on Sunday, since I figured Reiko would be in town, and now that Kouta was eighteen, I figured she’d drop news about divorcing dad at our family meeting, and I would have to do something to give him support, even if he got violent with me.  I’m the one who cares for him, even if I’m the worst now…

So, I figured since it was all over with, I would have to show Ruru I was committed to this path of despair.  

Only, I never realized my own inner nature.

Shi-chan said I was an uke, a submissive person, and when I was with her, this was an absolute fact.  However with Minami-chan, it’s different.  Despite her being an admitted lesbian, I am the one who is taking the lead.

When I saw Ruru standing over us, touching herself, I thought, I would show her my resolve that I would move on.  Ruru wouldn’t betray Kouta, after all.  She gave me a signal, and I returned it.  I did wonder for a moment if she would do it.  I seriously doubted it.

I was so very wrong.

She got on her hands and knees and crawled in between my new lover’s legs and brought her to heaven, while I too was being devoured.  The effect from Minami accepting the impromptu threesome was incredible.  It must have been attributed to Ruru, since I’ve known her touch many times on lonely nights Shi-chan chooses to belong only to Kouta.

Nothing will budge her from him on those nights.  So I’ve found solace in Ruru’s arms.  Ruru is so different from me… so small, but so loving.  I wish I could return her affections, but my heart wants Shi-chan more than anything.  I think the gods are cruel, not letting love play out as it should.

When the lovemaking reached its climax, Ruru dismissed Minami as if she was merely a small impediment between her and I.

I was upset at that.

Minami has helped stabilize me. On that second day after I ruined everything... when she approached me at my bottom, I was in a haze.  Before I realized it, I had taken full advantage of this girl with all of the skill I had learned from Shi-chan and Ruru.

She fell for me, hard, and I also found something about myself.

I enjoy women.

I think I am certainly a lesbian.

What just happened right now…

I’m sure of it.

But this led me to the next problem.

Ruru sat on my face.

If I had heard even a single word from Minami that it was okay, I would have.  But it was not forthcoming.

I had destroyed everything once.

I wouldn’t do it again.

Ruru cried and pulled my hair, but I wouldn’t.

Eventually she got up, with Minami’s help, and said hurtful things to me.  I deserved every one of them, because they were all correct.  Then she departed, alone, as my departure from the garden has left her all this time.

I cared, but I know everything I touch in Kouta’s garden will cause it to wilt away.  I will protect Kouta, by staying away.  He will have to figure it out on his own, even if that means bringing in another woman who will sample the finest vintage known as Shi-chan.

I had tried to rise, but instead Minami pinned me down with her body.  She sat on my stomach, and licked clean my face which was stained with Ruru’s despair.

Why would you do that, Minami?   When she was done, she laid atop of me, and rested her head in between my breasts.

“Why didn’t you respond to her feelings?”  She asks me.

“Because I have you.  I didn’t want to hurt you, even though I did by not stopping that.  Let me apologise, even if it’s unwanted. Ruru and I… were like… comrades in that relationship.  The real lovers were Kouta and Shi-chan… we were the extras.  So often at night, it would be us to console each other.  I just didn’t understand why she would risk so much for me?  Kouta will be furious that she came here.”

…

“All the more reason.”

“I don’t want to hurt you Minami.  I’m capable of hurting people so easily, but… you’ve shown me nothing but honesty and kindness.  I want to return that trust you give me.  I won’t stray from you.”

Those irresponsible words of mine triggered a second round.

As she made love to me again, our legs interconnected and love canals flowing together making obscene gushing sounds, I said aloud a crazy thing.

“I wish I could bring you into the garden…”

I don’t know if she heard me.  If she did, she said nothing.

Afterwards, lying down in a puddle of sweat, saliva, and cum, as I enjoyed a cigarette, and her warmth, I was riddled with all kinds of thoughts I had hoped to escape while she rested in my arms.

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She had business to attend to, so I had to let her go for the day.  I would see her tonight, and we would play together again.

…

I did what I could at the office to manage my account.  The hiatus was brief, and I was enjoying curating her photos.  I had uploaded six of the very best, and they were met with loads of praise from my followers.

A few asked about the other night blossoms, but were left without answers, as I was.

…

My unofficial residence was at Mappuchin’s.  She was someone who enjoyed my cooking, so I thought I would treat her to some good food.  It was getting dark, and I wanted to have dinner ready soon, so I could prepare for tonight.  I had just taken the final ingredient, and I saw those two.

“Kouta.  Shi-chan.”  I said it reflexively.

When I realized it, I excused myself and fled.

I wasn’t ready.

I wasn’t anywhere near ready!

…

I hurried to the checkout, as I only had a few items.  Shi-chan had chased me, and stood next to me as I paid and hurried outside.

I couldn’t face her gaze.

I was a dozen steps outside of the Super, when she called my name.

“Kana-chan! Stop.”

I stopped.

I was so scared.

Shi-chan came up to me, and stood in front of me.  Her golden eyes were so sad.

I’m so so so sorry, I haven’t reflected properly, but that didn’t stop my heart from trying to apologise wordlessly.  I wanted to hear a kind word, but that was only wishful thinking.

Shi-chan’s hand hit hard across my face.

The actual hit wasn’t hard at all, but my heart exploded into my mind, when I received it.  It felt like being struck by a steel beam.

“That was for me nearly losing Kouta!” She yelled at me.

My heart broke further.

“The trust I built.  Kouta almost left me.  Kanae must accept responsibility!”

Her hand grabbed my hair when I looked down, and she forced me to look into her captivating golden eyes.

“Kouta has forgiven me.  Ruru has seen to it.  What can be done with you?  Kouta needs you.  Ruru also.”  She looks deeply into my eyes, filling me with so much guilt and sorrow.

“Make amends!” she says sternly. “To me, and to Kouta.”

She gives me the softest peck on the cheek she slapped, and my hand goes to cover it.  To protect this hateful affection.

Afterwards she turns around and goes back inside the store, to him.  To my Kouta.  To an existence I cause nothing but pain to.  I have no idea how to make amends though.  How could I get Kouta to forgive me?

And even if I somehow managed to… I now have Minami-chan to worry about.  She was abandoned once.  I cannot abandon her, who has helped to save me from my own despair and madness.

If I do only a single thing right, it will be this.

I hope Mappuchin has some alcohol at home, even though I won’t touch it.  

I won’t lose control.

Not until there is no other option.

I head to Mappuchin’s house with the goal of making some good food.  I always feel better after I eat something great, in the company of friends.  I have to put on my best face… for her.

I just wonder... with everyone having now betrayed Kouta... who's left that is innocent enough to care for him?

I had entrusted Ruru with that task...

Shi-chan has entrusted Ruru with that task.

Kouta is all alone now, as his night blossoms have all become poisonous thorned flowers to him.  A tangled mess of roots that will ultimately squeeze the life out of him.

(Special Secret:  To relax, Kanae expands the background image on her phone, which is a picture of Sato Minami akin to Kouta’s dakishimetai picture of Nakada-san.  She gently caresses the face with her finger, and it brings a smile to her face, and peace to her disturbed heart.)

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