After they explained the Akatsuki attack to Karin and Haku, Naruto went to take a bath, this was one of the things the blonde teenager enjoyed the most, it was something that always make him relax.
Wrapping a towel around his waist after taking a bath, Naruto looked at himself in the mirror and saw his sculpted but scar-riddled body, from small to long scars, his body was filled with them. Just then, Karin opened the door, her perverted thoughts took over her mind as she opened the door. [1]
However, after seeing Naruto's upper body, she froze, Karin's eyes widened in fright before she said while stuttering: ''N-Naruto-kun, how did you g-get such s-scars?''
''...'' Naruto fell in awkward silence for a few seconds before he said with a gentle smile: ''This is something I got in the six months I did missions in Konoha, I could heal them but I don't want to, this is a way so that I can remember about everything, I'm a Ninja of Honor, after all.''
The red-haired girl in front of him is Naruto's clansman and from what she told, he knew that she had been traumatized, she had experienced the ''dark'' side of humanity. If Naruto tells Karin about his true past, he's sure that her mind wouldn't take it well.
''Oh...'' Karin said and thought of something, then, her eyes shone with determination as she said: ''I don't like to see you with these scars, I'll become a powerful Medical Ninja and heal these scars!''
'Heal the scars?' Naruto thought while feeling stunned, these scars were one of the two things that reminded him the most about his own past, everything he suffered, sometimes, he would question himself if revenge was the correct thing, however, these scars and... the nightmares, they reminded him.
Every time Naruto's slept, he would have nightmares about the countless nights he was tortured by the Villagers and every single day, he would feel everything he felt in the past, be it the horror, fear, helplessness, hopelessness, craziness... madness.
If it wasn't for his brother - Kakashi - the blonde teenager was sure that he would've long fallen in complete madness, even now, a part of his heart will always be filled with an incomplete space. The only reason Naruto never asked Kurama to blow Konoha out of existence is because of the also innocent, kind lives inside it.
Teuchi and his daughter, even a few Villagers that were kind to him, his friends and their parents, Konohamaru and so on, these were the only reasons that he didn't ask Kurama to blast Konoha's existence even though the fluffy Fox himself asked to do so, despite being such a tsundere, Kurama knew all the things they had done to his partner - his brother - and it angered him all the time he saw their faces.
With such thoughts, Naruto went to sleep directly, leaving the stunned Karin still in the bathroom.
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''A-Ah, n-no! Please stop! P-Please... stop, I didn't do anything, I... I really didn't do anything! Stop! Please, please, please!'' A blonde boy that was only about 2 years old pleaded constantly as people around him punched him, kicked him and cut him.
'Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?' The boy's mind was chaotic as he constantly thought why this was happening to him, tears were falling constantly alongside blood, if not because his wounds were being visibly healed, it wouldn't be a surprise for him to die.
''Die! Damned Demon! You killed my son, die! Die! Die!'' A man screamed, he knew that the kid wasn't the demon but they were told he's the incarnation of a demon, deep inside, even though he knew the blonde boy was innocent, he wanted to vent his sorrow, even if it was on such a young, innocent boy.
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Suddenly, Naruto stood up with his body being drenched with sweat, even if unconsciously, there were some tears in his eyes, wiping them away, his eyes gradually became cold as ice before going to walk through the small Village.
He teleported continuously before arriving on a mountain, then, Naruto sat on a tree's branch and started looking towards the moon that was shining on the clear, dark sky, despite his eyes being icy-cold, deep sadness could be seen inside it, even if not clearly.
'...Kit, don't worry, I'm here with you, I'm... sorry, if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have suffered like that, your parents would be alive and you would live happily.' Kurama said inside his mind, every time Naruto felt like that, the fluffy Fox would feel extreme guilt.
Naruto shook his head slightly 'Don't worry, Kuu-san. You know that it isn't your fault and you know that I don't blame you for anything that happened, one day, I'll avenge everything that happened to me, if these things didn't happen, I wouldn't know how sh*t humanity is.' he said inwardly as Kurama nodded.
The blonde teenager stood there, silently observing the sky for hours till the sun started to rise, he knew that even if humanity was sh*t, Naruto himself didn't feel he's a good person, he had an urge to torture anyone hostile to him and didn't feel a single ounce of guilt.
Slowly walking back to the Inn as the warm sunlight bathed the entire World, Naruto started to wonder a question that never left his head, from the very beginning - the time he became a Genin - Naruto started wondering something about that question and always asked himself after thinking of all the blood and death that fell onto the ground on his missions.
Are Ninjas worth of Forgiveness?
[1] Yes, there is a mirror in Naruto's world, they're not in a prehistoric stage or even extremely low technology. Made this note after my mind went crazy thinking someone would say 'There's no such thing as mirrors in Naruto world'.
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