I have a bad habit of dwelling on worst case scenarios
I would say I can be a bit hypercritical of myself and others
I would say that… sometimes I can act with an air of arrogance towards those around me
I have a bad habit of relying too much on the opinions of others
How do you want to be seen by others?
I want to be seen as competent and trustworthy, someone who’s hands you could confidently place your life in.
I want to be useful, I want to be seen as someone who can do what is asked and expected of them
I want to be seen as dependable
I want to be able to protect those I care about
How do you see yourself?
I know I’m smart but I know I tend to over worry and stress, which has caused me to act without thinking or jump to conclusions
I can sometimes look at myself in the mirror and all I’ll see if someone who wasn’t good enough, but I want to say that I’m nice and a good person
I see myself as reliable and as someone having a strong moral compass
I see myself as a trusting person
What is your strongest trait?
I would say my intelligence
I would say my selfless nature
I believe my sense of integrity is my strongest trait
I would say I’m a pretty creative person
What is your weakest trait?
I believe that I am a rather stubborn
My cowardice and overly-self-critical nature
I find myself becoming timid when courage is needed
Sometimes I can be cynical towards new people
How competitive are you?
I would say I can be rather competitive
I’m not very competitive
I’m not competitive
I can be competitive sometimes
Do you make snap judgements or take time to consider?
I would say I can sometimes be rather rash in decision making
I can make snap decisions when I need to but that can make me decide poorly
I consider my actions carefully
I make pretty snappy decisions
What is your greatest fear?
My greatest fear is failing those who look up to me and depend on me
My greatest fear is that I’ll never be enough, that’ll never stand up to my peers and meet the minimum
My greatest fear… is my mother making a reappearance
My greatest fear is more land having to suffer what the Downwald’s suffered
When was the last time you cried?
I haven’t cried in a long time
Like, four hours ago
I haven’t need to cry in years
Maybe a few weeks ago?
What haunts you?
Sometimes… the thought that we did the wrong thing comes to haunt me, telling me it would have been better to let Owlos rule…
Sometimes I worry that my peers will need me and I won’t be enough, that I’ll have to hear the chime of Masam’s bell one more time.
It feels like sometimes, the Court of Souls looks at me differently than the others, like they hold biases the Court of Spirits does not. The thought that I’ll be betrayed because of my mother’s actions haunted me daily
I can’t help but feel like some people look at us, the ones from the Downwalds, differently than the others. I guess a lifelong hatred is hard to shake for some people.