Jun was bewildered. What pressure? I dont understand where this is coming from.
Ai tilted her head, trying to find her words. Its more of a psychological thing. Since childhood, you said that she will become your wife one day. Your family was happy. Her family was happy, and they repeated what you said. No matter where Han Shui looked, there were people who only supported your relationship, but there was nobody to tell her that she could refuse this decision.
He was stunned. Wait. Nobody forced her. She wanted it too.
Thats where I am saying that you are wrong. You think that you gave her a choice but actually you didnt. Not consciously. You one-sidedly declared your future with her. Everybody was excited to see you two together, and when she saw so many people favoring one thing as she was growing up, her mind was inclined to believe that this was her only choice, or that this was the only right thing to do..
She wasnt really thinking about what she wanted or even if she did, she was matching it with others expectations from her. That expectation being that she is supposed to be your wife in the future. That made her misunderstand friendship for love. She liked you but as a friend, and everything that happened made her unable to realize the difference between love and friendship.
Jun froze as he was beginning to understand what Ai was meaning to say.
Ai continued. So in effect and without ill intentions, you and your families kind of snatched that power from her to decide if she wanted this relationship or not. Unknowingly. That explains why you two started fighting later on. Because she was growing up. She was beginning to understand herself, what she wanted and what she didnt. Her nature clashed with yours, but she kept insisting to herself that,
I am supposed to marry Jun. This is what has been decided for years. Jun had said so. Our families want it too. Everybody is so happy with our relationship. How can I think otherwise?
Your and everybodys future expectations to see you as a married couple blocked her vision of what she really wanted.
Jun touched his throat. II understand I might have been a little pushy, but I really didnt mean to force her
Ai watched his panicking gaze. Of course, you didnt. I am not saying you forced her at gunpoint. But expectations are also a way that influences decisions. Do you know that my Mom is against my writing career?
Jun was taken aback. Against? She doesnt like that you are a writer?
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Not really. She is a professor at a reputed university. Naturally, she wanted me to become a professor like her too. When I said that I wanted to become a writer, she was against it. Even my neighbors werent in favor saying that a writers career is too volatile. I wont have a good future. I will earn less. Its very risky. Basically, they didnt view that option as something stable. They wanted me to work in a big, reputed company or a university.
She pursed her lips. When I heard so many opinions against writing, I was on the verge of giving up on being a writer and do what everyone wanted me to become. I didnt feel confident anymore. But it was Guiying who urged me to keep writing. There would be no point in working for something that I dont like, and I would only suffer was what she had said.
She glanced at him. So, you see? Its not like Mom had bad intentions to force me to choose my career. But at the same time, I didnt want to let her down either. So, there was a spell where I felt pressured from her and everybodys expectations from me.
Silence.
Ai touched her chin in deep thought. I think thats why Han Shui asked you to give her space. She wanted the time to figure out if she truly saw her future with you or not. It was a hard decision to make because everybody was looking forward to the day when the two families would be tied together by marriage. It would be disheartening to declare that she might not want this relationship, so she wanted to take her time in giving it a proper thought and not hurt others unnecessarily.
And I can understand why now that I met both families today. From your great-grandmas reaction, I could see that it was a big blow to know that you two wont be together anymore. Thats why Han Shui must have been hesitating a lot to have such conflicting feelings about you and also why you couldnt confess your breakup for two months either.
Jun took a deep, silent breath. He had never really thought of these things in this perspective but now that Ai pointed them out, he couldnt help but feel that she made sense.
Ai seriously said, I am not saying Han Shui is not at fault. She did hurt you with her indecisiveness. But it was that background your families built that she misunderstood the boundary between friendship and love. It was through Jin that she realized that difference. You have both hurt each other in different ways because of your limited understanding about love. I think along the way, you also treated her just like a friend but because she was Mrs. Hans daughter, you forced yourself to believe that you really loved her.
Jun widened his eyes. His heart pounded faster in his chest. He didnt want to compare Ai and Shui but now that he gave it a thought, he felt that his emotions for Ai were much stronger and deeper than what he ever had for Shui. He was indeed possessive about Shui but towards Ai, it was as if he strongly felt that he was meant to be hers. Something resonated in his heart about his feelings for Ai.
Towards Shui, it was his obsession but for Ai, it was only his love.
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