“But…” Lin Yu would be lying if she said that she was not tempted. However, she was afraid that she would not be able to do a good job, so she hesitated.
Yun Xi naturally saw through this. “You don’t have to worry. You can try it first. If it doesn’t work out, we can have other ways. How would you know if you don’t try?”
Yun Xi was not in a hurry when she saw Lin Yu in deep thought. She knew that Lin Yu needed time to think about her decision, so she waited patiently.
“Alright, I promise you. But don’t worry, since I’ve decided to do this, I’ll definitely do my best.” Lin Yu’s eyes glowed, “Perhaps you don’t know this, but I was previously studying in the Literature Department at university and my results were pretty good.”
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In fact, Yun Xi had investigated and knew about this long ago. Otherwise, she would not have come to find her.
However, she acted as if it was her first time hearing about it, in case Lin Yu felt that Yun Xi had violated her privacy.
After spending some time with Lin Yu, Yun Xi had a basic understanding of Lin Yu’s personality. She might have thought that Lin Yu was an introverted person when they first met, but after getting to know her better, she realized that Lin Yu had her own thoughts, just that she was not good at expressing them.
Or it could be said that she was afraid that others would be unhappy because of this, so she did not dare to express them.
Lin Yu’s mother passed away when she was five years old. Her father married a mistress and brought an illegitimate daughter into the family. It was a huge blow to her and she was never able to recover from it. She did everything she could to please others for fear of being abandoned.
Yun Xi saw the trauma of her previous life in her. When she treated others with sincerity, they would only treat it as what they deserved. They would coax her when they were happy, and when they were angry, she would be a punching bag.
She could not become someone else’s savior, but she hoped that she could get Lin Yu out of this cycle of self-denial as much as she could. She did not want to see more people get hurt because of this.
“I see. Have you considered continuing your studies?”
After a moment of silence, as if she was reminiscing about the past, Lin Yu slowly said, “I’m not boasting, but the teachers around me are encouraging me to continue my studies, saying that I’m very talented. But… ”
“But?” Yun Xi continued to ask. In order to untie the knot in a person’s heart, Lin Yu had to tell her the truth. Only then would she be truly relieved.
“But my family doesn’t agree…” Lin Yu lowered her eyes as her thoughts seemed to have returned to a long time ago.
She still remembered that night, when she happily showed her father the award she had won at school. On the way, she even wondered how her father would react when he saw it.
Happy? Gratified? She felt as if she had not seen her father smile at her for a long time. She could not help but smile when she thought of the warm scene of the three of them when her mother was still alive.
Unexpectedly, father Lin only looked up and said ‘not bad’ with a blank expression.
Lin Yu did not expect this. She did not know how to respond when he heard this.
“Oh… Are you in your first year now?” Perhaps sensing the awkwardness in the air, Lin Yu’s father asked again.
However, he did not know that his words would hurt Lin Yu even more. “I’m about to graduate from my fourth year this year…”
She was clearly obedient to Lin Xin and cared for her every day, yet she was so indifferent to her. Lin Yu could not understand why there was such a huge difference in the treatment given to her even though they were both biological daughters!
She had been working very hard, but her family had never noticed her.
“Oh, I see.” Lin Yu’s father was indifferent. He lowered his head and went through his documents again.
Yun Xi, who was beside her, saw that Lin Yu was lost in her thoughts and had a sad expression on her face. She gently shook her a few times and handed her the hot tea on the table.
“Thank you,” she said. Lin Yu snapped back to her senses and took a sip from the cup in her hand, “My father said, ‘why does a girl need such a high degree of education? It’s more important to find someone to marry’.”
“I don’t know why girls have to marry. They can live well alone. Besides, I don’t want anyone to arrange my life.”
“Maybe it’s just a matter of words for them, but for me, it’s a lifetime.”
Usually, she would not talk so much, but Lin Yu always felt a sense of intimacy with Yun Xi. Yun Xi was younger than her, but she had the feeling of a big sister, which made Lin Yu want to tell her everything.
Ever since she was young, no one was willing to listen to her true thoughts except for the psychology teacher in school.
The psychology teacher also felt that she was overthinking things. With a good family background and good grades, what else did she lack? As time passed, she stopped telling people.
If Yun Xi could hear what she was thinking, she would definitely say that she already lived two lives, so her total age must be older!