She has been avoiding Taekyung but she can’t do it forever.
Nevertheless, there was nothing she could do about the feeling of being overwhelmed when the time passed by.
So-young hated Tae-kyung and was desperate to get out of this sluggish pain. However, when she thought about letting go of his hand, she felt anxious.
I really have no pride.….
So-young wrapped her face with both hands. The eyelids touching the fingertips were hot, and the inside of the throat was burning. For some time she was silent, then she raised her head with a long sigh. The two sparkling eyes were sinking quietly.
Han Soyoung: Can you go home now?
Cha Tae-kyung: It’s possible. I come down to the parking lot in ten minutes.
After Taekyung left the office first, Soyoung forced herself to take a step that did not fall easily.
Taekyung’s car was parked in the same seat as always. Looking at the familiar scenery, memories that might have been memories came to mind. However, for a while, So-young, who was immersed in appreciation, curled up her lips with an expressionless face, resumed her steps.
“Are you here?”
As soon as she opened the door, a familiar atmosphere came. Taekyung, who turned his head toward So-young, smiled. The deep eyes had the same affection as before, and the lips gently pulled to both sides drew a soft curve.
“You’re so pretty. It feels like I haven’t seen you in a while.”
So-young was unconsciously excited, but when she realized, she felt an indescribable misery. She dropped her head down to suppress her tearful feelings.
When So-young did not respond, Taekyung’s expression was slightly blurred. She leaned her head against the headrest as if she didn’t feel his gaze toward her. The whole body was tingling with excessive tension.
Taekyung, who was staring at Soyoung, asked in a hesitant tone.
“Are you tired?”
Soyoung nodded her head small, stubbornly looking only at the front.
“Yes, a little bit. I have a headache……. Speaking of which, can I close my eyes for a moment?”
“If you’re really sick, why don’t you go to the hospital?”
Taekyung’s face reminded her of worries at once. So-young shook her head as if it was annoying to even answer and leaned on the seat. She knew she was being rude, but the more she talked to him, the more uncomfortable and contradictory emotions were triggered, making it difficult to endure. The lingering desire to reveal her vulnerable inner self and the pride of not wanting to be more miserable constantly clashed and shook her.
“It’s not to that extent. I just want to go home quickly and rest. I’ll sleep until then. I’m sorry.”
So-young closed her eyes as if refusing to talk more. The gaze on her cheek was very stinging.
It was just for her to say goodbye anyway. So there would be no need to exacerbate unnecessary pain by exchanging useless conversations.
Taekyung stared at So-young, who unilaterally turned away from him, with a dark gaze, and quietly started the engine.
Soyoung, of course, couldn’t fall asleep at all. Taekyung did not even turn on the radio as if caring for her, so the car was full of dense silence. The car carrying the two seemed to run in eternal silence.
……I shouldn’t have taken his car.
Soyoung swallowed her regret. When she was next to Taekyung, her heart was beating so hard that she even felt dizzy. It was difficult to pretend to breathe peacefully because resentment and affection, regret and sadness, and all other unexplained emotions were mixed in a mess.
It was not until it was time for So-young to be weighed down by pressure when the car stopped. When the engine was turned off, complete silence came. She couldn’t stand it anymore and opened her eyes. As soon as she did that, she met the gaze of Taekyung, who was staring at her the whole time.
The two looked at each other for a moment without saying a word.
So-young tried to find out the identity of the emotions swaying in Taekyung’s eyes, but she could read nothing. He just looked gloomy and exhausted. The appearance of the man who sank darkly stimulated the sorrow if he wanted to comfort while forgetting the situation.
“Am I mistaken these days….”
Taekyung sighed quietly. Then he smacked his lips as if he didn’t know how to start.
“I think we’re farther apart than before. Or am I being delusional?”
So-young tried not to break her expression. When asked shamelessly, she almost revealed her feelings that had been suppressed. She bit her trembling lips tightly and replied in a cold voice, even to herself.
“Well, if you feel that way, I think you know the reason better than me.”
It was sarcasm. Tae-kyung could not hide his embarrassment at So-young’s aggressive response, but soon closed his mouth with a face that she had something to point out. So-young’s expression turned terrible at the stark response.
“I know that I have been busy recently, and I have paid little attention to you because of the circumstances around me. It’s no wonder you’re upset that I’ve been like this all the time while I promised to do well. It is all my fault.”
However, Tae-kyung’s docile poet was different from So-yeong’s resolve. Even as she swallowed a smirk, she did not miss the words that stuck in her ears.