I huffed. "It seems like it... Everything I have ever loved gets taken away from me in a snap" I said, my eyes at the window as the heavy rain poured.
"It has never stopped raining since that day... since the day that soldier came," I said in a heavy breath.
"Mistress", his tone of worry.
"Do you think the heavens feel my sadness too?" I turned to him, his sad eyes on me.
"Maybe they do," I add. "Mother said I failed this family, I failed this house"
"Mistress do not think like that, she didn't mean what she said"
"She's right, you know?" I said with a forced smile placing a hand on my flat belly. "I should have carried his legacy after his death but the line ended with him, I have failed"
"Mistress" Mint began going on one knee beside me. "Do not think that way... it may be hard but I believe there's a reason for everything, a reason you must pass through this pain, you have to hold on and be strong"
"What possible reason could there be.... that I would lose my beloved and forever live in this darkness?"
"You're not in darkness, Mistress. I understand how you feel, I know what you're passing through"
"No, you don't," I scoffed. He forced a smile.
"When I lost Olivia I felt like I was being drowned in a black hole repeatedly"
I instantly felt bad for what I did.
"I felt lost, unhinged, I felt like I couldn't go on, even when revenge was gotten for her death it still wasn't enough to fill the void. But when you told me you believed she was in a better place I found peace knowing she won't suffer after death. Tell me Mistress, do you feel Lord Cedric is in a better place?"
I leisurely turned back to the window, my lips quivering, my eyes all teary again. "That's the point, Mint..." I turned to him with tears. "The reason I feel this loss and confusion, anger and the pain. I don't feel him, I don't feel a thing, it's like he's gone forever" I broke into tears.
"That's because he exchanged his life for your happiness", we turned to the newfound voice that belonged to Beowulf, as he leisurely walked towards us, he settled his lower half to sit on the floor.
"Beowulf," I said.
"There's something you should know," he began. "You should know the reason for Magnus' death"
"What are you trying to say? That there is more to his death?"
"Yes," he said in a heavy tone. "The truth is Magnus was cursed by the Mother goddess upon his rebirth to the Mortal world, with a fate to live as a mortal with a limit to his powers and experience love misfortune as a punishment"
"A punishment for what?"
He paused for a bit at my question, I had a strong feeling he didn't want to reveal something but rather he continued. "When Magnus fell for you he knew you would be his love's misfortune, you will experience all kinds of cruelty because you hold his heart. Upon realizing that he sought for a way to divert that misfortune by breaking his mortal fate with you"
My eyes went wide.
"Princess Alice was the key to that, an unrequited love from him to her would cause the chain he was willing to forge to divert the misfortune because her destiny was blackened, she was the perfect candidate, but it was harder than it took to divert such misfortune smite by the Mother goddess, Olivia's death was meant to be the end of your misfortune, and then you would have been freed but..."
I shook my head. "I told him not to marry her…. because of me..."
"Yes to no longer make you hurt he took a risk to end the engagement with Princess Alice and sought for another way to divert the Misfortune but a curse so strong cannot be contained and thus what happened to you that night"
"It's all my fault," I said in a whisper as my eyes trembled.
"Magnus couldn't bear to see you suffer for a curse that was meant for only him so he did the ultimate sacrifice"
"No," I said as my breath became shaken.
"His life in exchange for your freedom"
"No" I broke into tears.
"Believe me, Lady Sylvia this was his choice and his alone, you do not need to blame yourself, everything he did was for you... but such act of taking the misfortune all himself resulted in his soul being destroyed"
That was why I didn't feel him anymore, that was why I felt darkness, even if the body dies the soul was meant to remain, either to ascend to heaven or fall into the line of reincarnation, I read about that once. And now because of me, Cedric was forever gone, because he was protecting me.
"His trial in the Mortal Realm was meant to end with his soul still intact, but now everything changed," Beowulf said sadly.
I pulled my knees to my chest as I cried harder, I felt Mint's hand on my shoulder, only my cries and sob echoed in my chambers and the sound of the pouring rain outside.
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Beowulf could only watch as his master's beloved cried her heart out, he was never meant to say this to her but he had no choice, he didn't want her to feel blindly in pain without knowing the reason why even if he just told her the latter part it was for the best. His curse was broken but it was all futile now.
Magnus Nicklaus Darkmore will not be reborn again... his soul will no longer return to his real body because his soul had been destroyed. After all, it was used as a sacrifice to break the curse and end the misfortune.
He sighed heavily, first, it was her death and now his. Destiny does not want them to be together, he knew that now and it was a hard truth, the Mother goddess has always opposed this from the very start.
One issue remained, The Vampire Realm, THEY will soon come to know of this and it can cause trouble, was this why Magnus asked him to stay behind? Did he perhaps foresee this to be? His nonexistence would call for a lot of things and more if THEY find out Yelena has been reincarnated, that could be much worse, she would be dragged into something she can't handle.. He knew what he had to do and he shall honor his master's last request, even in death she was still his priority and he made sure to protect his only light.