It has happened again! Everything I wrote! I don't even have time for this shit! I am literally struggling to balance school and a lot of things I do not have time to rewrite chapters! The whole chapter literally disappeared everything! Sorry I'm ranting again but I really do not have the time or leisure for this. I am a college student studying Pharmacy. I do not have the time for this shit! Well as much as I rewrite because my dear readers are the only encouragement to keep going and the fact that I do have a story to tell. I will struggle to recreate the emotional release of a chapter that has now disappeared. Just know, this is not the first draft.
Both women stared awestruck at the muscled, halfnaked and wet man before them. Both of them too smitten to say anything.
"I believe I asked a question, what are you two doing here?" He asked again.
Susan tried to stand up straight whilst trying to pry her hair from Lenora's grip.
"Ow!" She squealed "let go!"
Lenora glared down at the woman and tightened her fist even more causing her to shriek.
"Let her go!" Jamie ordered but she ignored him and kept holding Susan down.
"This does not involve you so mind your own business." She spat at him, glaring down at Susan to avoid the initial shock of seeing him so damn hot.
Jamie cocked an eye brow and folded his strong arms, muscles flexing as he did. "Is that so? That did seem to be the case, at least not from what I heard." He stated bluntly.
Lenora scoffed "is that it? Do you really have nothing else to do but eavesdrop?" She asked.
"Eavesdrop? Let her go!" He ordered.
"No." She replied.
He sighed walking over to them he pried Lenora's hand away from Susan dark locks and pulled her away from the wincing woman.
"Hey! I told you not to get involved!" She yelled.
Without a backward glance he pulled her into the apartment and slammed the door behind him. "What the hell was that?" He asked as they walked into the room, rather he pulled her into the leaving room.
"I could ask you the same thing. Why the hell are you getting involved? Let her go? You have no idea what the hell that bit-"
"How could she not say whatever she said, when you kept spouting out crap. What? I sleep in your bed?" He spat with so much venom.
Lenora laughed ruefully. "I'm I wrong? Do you not sleep in my bed?" She sassed.
"You and I both know that was not what you meant." He retorted.
"That is exactly what I meant." She replied. "You know what, I can't do this right now. I am not going to stand here and listen to this crap right now." She said pushing past him.
"That's all you do isn't it? Refuse to listen to the truth?" He said.
"What truth?" She asked,turning around.
"That you are an incredibly selfish and heartless bitch." He said slowly and Lenora palms formed fists by her side. "Isn't that the reason you hit her?"
"Hit who?" She asked in pure and innocent confusion.
"Who else, Susan." He said curtly. "Beause she was telling you the truth?"
Lenora lips parted slightly from the shook the accusation brought. She had to step back and pace her breathing.
"I hit Susan?" She asked not sure if the question was directed at her or Jamie.
"Don't even add lying to your list of shortcomings, I heard you guys remember? I know you hit her." He said.
She bit her bottom lip and asked the question "what if I was the one that got hit, what if I didn't hit her?" She asked.
He laughed mockingly, "I'm I a fool? Like a sweet person like Susan would ever lay her hand on someone else."
Lenora bit her lip in frustration and looked up at him, in anger.
"So what makes me different?" She asked again, hoping for something to hold on to, anything.
"You?" He shook his head as he drove the nail deeper. "You are pure human trash. I don't doubt it for a second." He spat wickedly.
Lenora nodded her head slowly as she staggered away. That wasn't her Jamie, she didn't know who that man wearing his face was. As she was about to step out of the living room she froze.
Why I'm I acting so weak? For the first time I am the victim, not Susan, not Jamie, me! I can't let them use me to make themselves feel better. I got hit, and I got shattered. Like hell I'm going to walk away, no more acting the selfless girlfriend, I'm neither patient nor selfless. That's right I'm a selfish bitch! That's who I am, no need to start changing now.
She turned around after the personal monologue. "You know what, fuck you! Fuck you and Fuck that bitch Susan!" She cursed.
Jamie turned around and scoffed as she walked back to him. She walked to him and began to shove him backwards "do you think life has been easy for me as well? Do you think it's been easy having you look at me in disgust and such hate that I can't even understand. Yes I understand that you lost your memories and you've had the worst couple of days. But do you know what kept you sane? Dishing on me, but I said nothing while you ridiculed and tore into me." She said as tears streamed down her face as like the angry words that left her mouth.
"Hey. " he said as he tried to hold her steady. But she wouldn't have any of it.
"I took it all without saying anything, and now you accused me of hitting some other woman while my bruised cheek stares you in the face! You know what I'm done, I agree I'm a selfish bitch so I'm going to act like one now." She spat, walking away.
A few seconds later she walked back out with his clothes and threw them at him. "Get out, I can't keep doing this with you. Get out." She said, too weak to even cry anymore.
Jamie sighed as he stared at her with such an intense glare she felt as though she would melt.
"W-what are you doing?" She stuttered, stumbling backwards as he stalked forwards. Her feet caught amongst the clothes she littered across the floor but he was quicker. His strong arms wrapping around her slender waist, he held her to his body, using her lack of stamina to his advantage.
After she came back from the gawking and the theatrical situation she tried to pry his hands away but he wouldn't budge.
"I'll kiss you now." Was all the warning he gave as he placed his lips on hers and immediately deepened the kiss.
Against her better judgement or was it just instinct she snaked her fingers into his damp hair and moaned into his lips.
Very quickly it became heated as they got at each other like animals starved of each other. He lifted her up and pushed her aganist the wall as he stroked her tongue. Kissing down her jawline and down to her neck she couldn't hold it anymore. She began to unbeaten her shirt but Jamie soon became impatient with her fumbling fingers and ripped open the shirt, buttons falling all over the floor.
He ripped the shirt away and went straight for her bra hook as Lenora busied herself with kissing his face and lower. When she playfully nibbled his earlobe he realized a low growl moving her away from the wall to the kitchen island. He used his hand to sweep away all the things that sat upon it and sat her down on it.
Pushing her backwards he pulled off her jeans and drew kissed all the way to her inner thighs. The action incredibly jolting for Lenora. Giving her both strong doses of pleasure and common sense.
Before things would progress further she sat up and pushed him away.
His confused expression asked the question before he did, and she had to shut her eyes not to cave in and just sleep with him.
"You're not going to use me as a release. I already said that." She said pushing him away and sliding of the island. "I meant it when I said you should leave."
"Is that what you really want?" He asked.
"Since when did you begin to care about what I want?" She asked.
"I remembered something." He stated slowly.
"What?" Her eyes widened and she sat up.
"This, doing this with you, and leaving early while you were sleeping." He said, his eyes never leaving hers.
"..." She stared at him unblinking.
"Doesn't mean I completely trust you, but I'm sure I always wanted to apologise for that. I'll get out of your hair." He said. Walking away from her, but before he left her completely she grabbed his arm.
"Let's take care of that first." She said, awkwardly clearing her throat as she looked down, his eyes followed her line of sight and he smiled softly.
Cocking a brow at her "don't think too much on it, it doesn't mean any thing. Just... thank you for the apology, I really needed that."
"Don't worry, I'll make sure you're awake when I leave this time." He said as he cupped her nape, suddenly bringing her closer to him and claiming her lips.