This voice seemed to be exhausted, and Shi Qingxue almost shed tears after hearing it.
She had never seen Mo Junyang so weak in her two lives, and she was heartbroken.
Shi Qingxue ignored the outsiders present and turned around with difficulty. She faced Mo Junyang with tears in her eyes and whispered, “I am fine. Don’t be like this…” If he was like this, she couldn’t get back at him boldly.
Mo Junyang seemed not to hear her words and hugged her stubbornly, refusing to loosen his arms.
He murmured, “It’s great that you are fine. I thought I caused your death again, me again…”
His voice almost disappeared at last.
Shi Qingxue was stunned.
After a long while, she understood the hidden meaning in Mo Junyang’s words.
Mo Junyang, this idiot even took the blame for her committing suicide in the previous life and thought if he hadn’t forced her then, she wouldn’t have died. While she had been poisoned this time, which was the same situation, and he thought that he didn’t protect her well.
Oh, God!
Shi Qingxue realized that and felt curious and helpless.
She didn’t know how to comment on Mo Junyang and just cursed in a low voice, “Idiot.”
Although Shi Qingxue wanted to make everything clear with Mo Junyang once and for all, it was not a good time.
With Mo Yuzhen present, Shi Qingxue couldn’t say many things.
“You…wait for me,” Shi Qingxue said to Mo Junyang in a hurry and then turned her head to face Mo Yuzhen.
She was prepared to feel embarrassed, but when she met Mo Yuzhen’s eyes with a complicated expression, she couldn’t help but blush again.
Qingxue tried not to feel shy and didn’t get rid of Mo Junyang’s hands from beginning to end. She lowered her head and took a deep breath. Then she raised her head and gazed at Mo Yuzhen, saying calmly with certainty, “Right. I have regained my memory.”
Mo Yuzhen’s eyes were hurt by Shi Qingxue and Mo Junyang’s interaction, and she felt terrible in the beginning, but now she was not shocked anymore.
She even sighed with relief for no reason after hearing Shi Qingxue admitting it.
Then she felt extremely sad.
She and Shi Qingxue would become strangers eventually.
Mo Yuzhen didn’t have the face to defend Mo Junjiu in front of Shi Qingxue. She just licked her dry lips and stated with difficulty, “So we didn’t talk in the past…”
Shi Qingxue didn’t reply, but evidently she planned to give tacit consent.
Mo Yuzhen turned pale in an instant and shouted automatically, “Why? My brother has died. He has paid for it with his life. Why can’t you forgive him? Why are you going to…abandon me?”
She made a complaint in a sobbing tone and could hardly control herself.
Shi Qingxue finally couldn’t bear to see that and moved her legs, but Mo Junyang stopped her.
He didn’t let her go.
Shi Qingxue stood between them and couldn’t advance or retreat, which was like their relationship. No matter who she chose, she would hurt the other at last.
But she had chosen Mo Junyang since she was reborn, and now she would be more determined.
If Mo Yuzhen insisted on taking revenge on Mo Junyang, Shi Qingxue would become her enemy in the end.
Shi Qingxue pursed her thin lips. She had made the decision, but when she was about to speak, it seemed that there was something heavy on her mouth, and she could hardly open it.
At last, Mo Junyang expressed coldly,
“I didn’t kill Mo Junjiu.”
Even Mo Yuzhen was astonished, let alone Shi Qingxue.
They didn’t expect that Mo Junyang would explain.
And he explained so firmly and clearly.
Mo Yuzhen looked at Mo Junyang and all her momentum disappeared. She just shouted feebly, “You lied to me.”
Mo Junyang shook his head and didn’t defend himself. He just spoke out the key point indifferently.
“But Mo Junjiu didn’t die in an accident.”
“What?”
“What?”
Shi Qingxue and Mo Yuzhen screamed at the same time, shocked by the sudden news Mo Junyang had revealed.
Mo Yuzhen wanted to accuse Mo Junyang of shifting the responsibility intentionally, but she was clear that it was impossible. Mo Junyang was distant and arrogant, and he disdained to tell a lie for such a matter.
“Who is it?” She firmly believed that Mo Junyang had told the truth and had known something.
But it was almost impossible to make Mo Junyang explain. He would hardly answer once even if she asked a hundred questions.
As expected, Mo Junyang didn’t plan to explain but just warned impassively, “I don’t care what way you are thinking about to take revenge, but I can tell you exactly that with your capability, even if you take actions, you would just let somebody take your life.”
Gee!
What a ruthless judgement.
Shi Qingxue was left speechless.
Mo Yuzhen goggled reluctantly and asked furiously, “You don’t tell me who the murderer is or allow me to take revenge. Do you have a secret relationship with the murderer?”
Mo Junyang ignored Mo Yuzhen’s groundless guess. In fact, if he didn’t consider Shi Qingxue’s feelings, he wouldn’t want to care about Mo Yuzhen’s life and death. He said expressionlessly, “If you really want to take revenge, just control yourself and stay still first. Everything will be clear someday. Otherwise, you can’t avenge Mo Junjiu, which is the best. I can be sure that if you act rashly, you will be used by the murderer and get nothing.”
King Rui’s heir gave such a long explanation for the first time, and it was so rare and commendable.
So Qingxue easily forgave this man’s malignant tongue and advised Mo Yuzhen, “Yuzhen, although I still don’t know how many things behind this matter, there must be a lot which would be implicated.
“If you trust me, just listen to Junyang’s advice. I really don’t hope that you would be in trouble.”
Even if Mo Yuzhen was resentful earlier, she was moved by Shi Qingxue’s sincere concern.
She lowered her eyes and nodded slightly at last, responding softly, “I know what to do. You…”
Mo Yuzhen hesitantly glanced at Mo Junyang who was like a guard standing behind Shi Qingxue and added gently, “You should be careful, too.”
Be careful of what?
Mo Yuzhen didn’t say more and left directly.
In the beginning, Shi Qingxue wanted to have a good talk with Mo Junyang if they had the chance, but when she faced him alone, she was timid.
“You…”
As soon as she started, she was hugged by Mo Junyang once more.
Mo Junyang demanded in a deep and hoarse voice, “You can’t go again.”
Shi Qingxue couldn’t control herself and her nose became red, with tears in her eyes.
“Let go of me first! What are you doing? Can’t we talk?” She intentionally said in a loud voice so that she could prevent herself from crying.
Seeing that Mo Junyang didn’t plan to let her go, she clenched her fist and knocked his chest twice to vent her anger.
She didn’t dare to put forth much strength.
She didn’t hurt him, and it seemed that she was flirting with him.
Shi Qingxue was astonished by her thought and pushed Mo Junyang away in a hurry, but she couldn’t conceal the blush on her face spreading to her ears.
“I warn you. Don’t go that far!” She warned him randomly but her momentum was much weaker.
She lowered her head and her voice was sweet and soft, as if she were playing the woman.
Mo Junyang just pursed his lips and gazed at Shi Qingxue with his deep eyes. It seemed that he was afraid that she would disappear if he blinked.
He didn’t say anything, and Shi Qingxue also thought that if they continued to stay in the imperial garden, it would not be safe.
She had to grab Mo Junyang’s arm and walk out. “I don’t have a carriage. Send me back home.”
In fact, it was just an excuse to make them stay alone.
Mo Junyang nodded silently and opened his mouth. He wanted to say something, but in the end, he just followed Shi Qingxue quietly.
Shi Qingxue got into the carriage and sat in the corner.
As soon as she sat down, Mo Junyang sat next to her.
He didn’t leave any space between them.
“You…”
Shi Qingxue wanted to speak, but Mo Junyang lowered his eyes again, like a criminal waiting for the trial.
He was willing to admit his fault and receive the punishment.
Shi Qingxue was heartbroken to see his expression. She had prepared to blame him in the first place, but she couldn’t say a word.
She took a deep breath and grabbed Mo Junyang’s hand.
When Mo Junyang looked at her, she said, stressing each word, “Mo Junyang, my death in the previous life was my fault. Even if I have to get back at others, the targets of my hatred would be only Mo Junhao and the third master’s family in my mansion, and you are not included. Do you know that?”
Embarrassment showed on Mo Junyang’s handsome face immediately as he was seen through and he was sad when the old stories were mentioned.
After a long time, he stated in a low voice, “If I hadn’t forced you then, you wouldn’t have…”
If Mo Junyang regretted anything in his two lives, he almost hated himself as he rushed into the Cold Palace regardless of anything. He cared about Shi Qingxue a lot in his heart, but he treated the woman he loved like that.
At last, he had to watch his beloved woman die in his arms.
Every time Mo Junyang thought of that feeling, he felt a terrible headache. His heart seemed to be punched severely and it hurt so much that he almost couldn’t breathe.
More than fifty years later, he always couldn’t help but wonder whether everything would be different if he hadn’t broken in or forced Shi Qingxue.
There was no answer to this question.
Till he knew that Shi Qingxue came back, too, his guilt and panic relieved a little.
So he always held back his crazy emotions. No matter if he wished to “grab” his beloved or ignored everything to show his cruelness, he didn’t dare to let Shi Qingxue find that.
He was unwilling to do anything that might make him lose Shi Qingxue.
He consolidated at every step and tried to behave according to what Shi Qingxue liked, wanting to hug her into his arms step by step.
Mo Junyang thought he did everything well and even got Shi Qingxue’s promise that she would “try to love him”.
But what happened next slapped him.
Seeing that Mo Junyang got more emotional while speaking, Shi Qingxue interrupted him loudly at last. “No! It’s none of your business!”
She leaned forward and raised her hands to hold Mo Junyang’s face and let him look at her.
Then she explained seriously, “Don’t mention that Shi Baojin harmed me in this life. It’s because I wasn’t alert enough to her, and it had nothing to do with you. Just in the previous life, I had taken the poison before you attacked the Cold Palace. It wouldn’t affect me no matter if you came to the Cold Palace or not.
“I wanted to die simply because I thought it was unnecessary to stay alive.”
If she didn’t want to comfort Mo Junyang, Shi Qingxue wouldn’t be willing to talk about the old stories. What happened then was not worth remembering.
However, Mo Junyang seemed to enter a dead end and couldn’t come out.
He expressed stubbornly, “If I stopped you in time and helped you kill Mo Junhao or I attacked the imperial palace earlier, you…”
Shi Qingxue was astonished as she had never expected that Mo Junyang had thought in this way.
But as long as she thought of this man’s love, everything was understandable, and she felt sour again.
“Mo Junyang, it’s not true!” Shi Qingxue gritted her teeth and found that she couldn’t hide it anymore.
In the end, she said, “I…didn’t die in the previous life.”