Living together in the same house, just imagining that made me seriously embarrassed.
Of course, if before that, we become close enough and ended up becoming lovers, then…
「——— Hyyaaaa!」
…… Too embarrassed, my imagination only reached the part where we connected our hands.
For a while, I was lying on the bed with my mouth loosened, however, considering our plan tomorrow, I decided to go to sleep.
After all, tomorrow, we would need to go to the adventurer’s guild early in the morning.
「And because we absolutely need to go to the adventurer guild tomorrow, some kind of problem involving Onii-san might happen…」
Thinking so, I was going to get ready to turn in for the night, but then, a certain question came to my mind and I stopped my hands.
「But still, why does Onii-san have such low self-esteem…」
It was a question I had from the few couples of days I spent with Onii-san…
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As far as I’ve seen from these few days, Onii-san never underestimated his ability.
He understood under what condition he could go to the lower-layer alone, he even had a general recognition for the kind of monsters he could defeat by himself.
…… However, Onii-san really undervalued his own worth.
In the case of healing magic, it was understandable that there was no judgment standard considering there were not many healers in the first place and Onii-san couldn’t really see how they perform, only he was ostracized by other healers.
But in Onii-san’s case, his perception of his overall value was quite low.
Certainly, Onii-san’s ability could be called distorted.
After all, Onii-san ability was too restricted.
Once he stopped becoming a vanguard, he couldn’t attack other than for suppressing the enemies, and if he concentrated on attacking, he could hardly defend.
Considering a vanguard need to hold enemies back while being aggressive, it could be said that Onii-san’s ability was too one-sided.
But Onii-san’s ability should at least be called okay.
After all, Onii-san was capable of holding back that hydra virtually alone.
…… Nevertheless, Onii-san believed himself to be useless.
That Onii-san’s low self-esteem didn’t only affect his attitude to the adventurers, but also his attitude toward the city’s people.
Onii-san believed that we were accepted by the people were because of me, but that was not accurate.
It was because I was with Onii-san that the people in the city being friendly with me.
The people in the city were aware that Onii-san had warned the adventurers that were using violence to them.
Apparently, he hid his face, but the people recognized him quick from his stature.
… But Onii-san believed that he, as an adventurer, was also hated by the people in the city, which made him only able to interact with the people in the city much later.
The Onii-san’s low self-evaluation itself was very abnormal.
It was more so because Onii-san was aware of his capability.
When I thought about how could someone aware of their ability but still evaluated themselves so low, I tilted my head.
「… Well, Onii-san has become better recently, so I guess there is no need to think about it.」
…… But without getting any answer, I decided to give up my line of thought quickly.
Even if Onii-san’s attitude was still bad now, the current Onii-san was gradually getting more confident.
The evidence was his tone that was filled more with confidence and less masochistic.
「If so, that question is not something that needs an answer as soon as possible.」