Also, I aware that he tried to shift the blame away from him.
「That is, not something I could consider, right?」
However, I didn’t get angry at Leader’s words.
Instead, I showed a smile full of regret toward him.
「Kh!」
Leader gasped from my unexpected reaction.
Seeing his reaction, I noticed Leader was making a big misunderstanding.
Certainly, my attitude toward Raust-san might be better than Leader and Sarveria-san.
……But that was not something that I could be proud of.
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I joined Sword of Lightning a year ago when it was already a first-class party.
At that time, I was a 14-years old rookie magician who was being happy I was invited to a first-class party.
I was indeed aware that I was better than others, but I never dreamed that I would be invited to a first-class party.
…That was why, I started to idolizing Leader and Sarveria-san who were the core of the party.
That was also the reason I started to oppress Raust-san.
I didn’t look down on Raust-san at the start.
The Leader I was infatuated with said it was to train Raust-san, hence I also did it.
Doing as I was told, without doubting my actions at all.
………However, the day after Raust-san was banished from the party, when I challenged the hydra before it was mutated along with Laila-san, I realized my foolishness.
At that time, along with my foolishness, I also realized how active Raust-san was.
…… No, I knew exactly how much weight Raust-san pulled for us, I just realized I never tried to acknowledge it.
The moment I realized that, I felt a terrible disgust toward my action.
As a rearguard who had a leeway to look around, from time to time, I could see that Raust-san was an excellent adventurer.
However, blindly believing Leader’s words, I chalked those as my imagination.
———During the battle with the hydra, I finally realized that Raust-san was truly excellent.
I felt a terrible regret from my own action.
Leader and Sarveria-san’s attitude toward Raust-san.
The malice contained in our act would never be forgiven.
…But my prejudice was far worse than Leader and Sarveria-san’s behavior.
And with that, I hurt Raust-san.
That was probably not something that could be undone.
That was why, after hearing Laila-san’s talk, I decided I wouldn’t make any mistake anymore.
I couldn’t go back to before I hurt Raust-san.
That was why, I decided to start over.
With that determination in my heart, I opened my mouth toward Leader and Sarveria-san.
「Please come with me.」
I was having fun with my friends yesterday, I laughed enough to last me until next year, though, my body is hurting all over now, I need to exercise more
Look forward to the beginning of the next chapter (yes only the beginning)