It was then Navaya realized that there were three types of Ramus siblings. There was Becca who was kind and sarcastic. Kristina who was playful yet straightforward. And then there was the shameless motherfucker called Johnny who was brazen, spoke a lot of inappropriate words, rude, forceful but really does know how to figure out what people want.
And let's not forget hot as fuck. Damn, the man was delicious to look at. The entire Ramus family were, hotness was like their family heritage or something and Johnny was definitely no exception in this case. Like if his brown hair, ocean blue eyes and six feet five inch height doesn't make him good enough to eat, then I don't know what will.
He wasn't only handsome but also right, Navaya didn't hate the time they spent together in the past. Hell, she enjoyed every single second of it and as guilty as she was to admit it, sex with him had been the best part.
Who could blame her for thinking so, he was just twenty-three years old back then and already a beast in the bed.
Johnny knew the right things to do and the right places to do them that always made Navaya forgot how to speak before he even finishes. The problem here was Johnny knew exactly what type of effect he had on Navaya and as the devil he was proving to be, he always used it against her.
But the Navaya now wasn't and didn't want to be as stupid as she was before. She wasn't going to let his beauty make her head spin again.
Annoyed, she waved her hand towards his face, aiming for a slap but the fucker tossed his vape on the table and grabbed both her hands, only to pin them above her head.
" Well would you look at that. If I didn't know better, I would say you were asking for it." Johnny said, winking at her.
Navaya jerked and squirmed to set herself free but couldn't. The man was just too fucking strong.
" Let go of me, Johnny, or I'm going to scream." Navaya threatened, still trying to set herself free from his clutches but all her attempts were futile.
" Oh, please do. Let everyone in the fucking club know how much of a great time we are having over here." He said, his warmth breath on her skin sending chills through her and the smell of his cologne filled her nostrils more than it should despite how rapid and haggard her breathing was. More than she liked.
" Let go of me, you son of a bitch."
" And why would I do that?" His whispered, his masculine voice now hard and tight and sent another wave of chills through her body. " Letting you go was the worst mistake I ever made and it is the last thing I'm going to do but I can make an exception for you if you apologise."
" Apologise? To you?" Navaya cocked a challenging brow at him.
" Yes, Navaya. Apologise to the man you insulted, tried to knee in the groin, tried to slap and always kept being rude to for no reason." Johnny said and Navaya let out a taunting laugh.
" No reason? What do you call all you blunt sexual comments and your very obvious attempts to get into my pants?"
" While I would love to make love to you so much, I want something much more from you. A lot things that weren't able to happen because of our past mistakes."
The way he obscenely said he wanted to fuck her might have annoyed Navaya to her bones but her body weirdly didn't enter its usually defense mode in that situation. It was reacting in a way that was completely contrary to the situation, in a way it wasn't supposed to act.
Her body was as treacherous as Becca's eyes.
The way he was staring at her like she was the most mouthwatering delicacy he had ever seen and the proximity between them right now was being a bitch by trying to screw Navaya over.
Their faces were just few inches apart from each other's and their breaths clashed like swords in the battlefield.
As though the awkward situation they were in wasn't enough, the sexy bastard went ahead to wrapped one of his arms around her while the other held her arms up firmly.
" What the hell are you saying, Johnny? Just let go of me." Navaya gritted, hoping he would listen to reason but all he did was move his face closer to hers until their nose tips touched.
" Apologise." He whispered against her lips and she shook her head in refusal.
" Or what?" She challenged and Johnny smirked, and with one swift move, he lifted her up and settled on his laps.
The fucker made her straddle him.
Navaya gasp, her eyes widening so much, they almost popped and johnny grinned in response before using one hand to wrap her arms around his neck while his other one was securely holding her waist.
" Fuck! Get me off!" She wriggled.
" With pleasure." He winked at her again.
" I don't mean that, you pervert. Get me off you."
" Apologise, Navaya."
She hit his back several times over, sliding herself down his thighs but he was way much stronger than she was and the more she tried to escape his evil laps, the more he pulled her into him. On to his his growing erection.
She gasped and looked down at the position they were in. Soon being hit by the realization that her feeble attempts to escape his laps a while ago was literally her grinding on top his groin.
She was indirectly the cause of the hard situation under her.
' What the fuck!' Navaya screamed in her head, still feeling his dick poking her ass.
She looked at Johnny, into his eyes at had darkened with desire. The shock expression on her face seriously contrasting the grin on his. The grin that was both naughty and demanding.
Demanding for her to fix the situation.
The shock expression on her face soon dropped and she glared at him while his tongue darted out and he licked his lips that was just inches away from hers.
" You are driving me crazy, Navaya. You have no idea what just the thought of you does to me." He said before kissing Navaya's lips softly which actually surprised her a little because ever since Johnny came to New York, ever since she saw him again, all his kisses had been hungry ones. Sizzling hard kisses that were never this soft. Never this tender.
She blinked at him when their lips parted, her heart thundering hard in her ears.
If Navaya was to say she never felt anything for Johnny, then she would have been a terrible liar. She had feelings for him back then. Feelings so deep that she would have been more than happy to welcome the attention from Johnny but things weren't the way they were back then either.
Their situation changed when Johnny decided to go on one knee in front of Nicky. When he chose to throw away everything they had together.
If their relationship had still been the same and the memories of how hurt she was on his wedding day didn't keep resurfacing her head whenever she looked at him, then maybe. Just maybe the hardness stiffening under her wouldn't seem like much of a threat.
He made his choice back then and now he has to live with the consequences.
Johnny noticed the change on Navaya's face that mirrored what she felt and his facial expression changed from lustful to concerned. His hands left her arms and waist and cupped her face
" Navaya, all I want to do is give you the best. I really care about you. What we shared in the past was special. Please give me a chance to show you how much you mean to me." He said in a gentle tone but she just shook her head, refusing to believe what he was saying. Refusing to acknowledge his words.
" You had your chance and you lost it when you married Nicky." Navaya place her hand over his to remove it from her face.
" Don't forget you did the same thing to me when you start dating Ace. You replaced me with him."
" I didn't replace you with anyone. Me and Ace only started dating after your wedding, damnit!" She smacked his chest and pushed him back to make a run for it but he held her firmly.
" What did you just say?" Johnny narrowed his eyes questioningly at her, tightening his hold on her.
" It's nothing." Navaya said, trying to remove his arms around her waist while pushing back the hurtful memories and the tears that followed.
" Tell me." Johnny prodded, getting a little worried by Navaya's silence. " Fuck, Navaya. Tell me already. You told me you and Ace were a couple even before I proposed to Nicky so what the heck are you telling me now?"
Tears burnt Navaya's eyes but she blinked them back. She rather drop dead than let the man in front of her to get the pleasure of seeing her crack and cry.
" I lied to you." Was all she said and Johnny just stared at her, taken aback.
The fuck! What the hell was he hearing? For five years he was made to believe that she was the one who broke their relationship. For five years he had always asked himself what he lacked, what Ace had and he didn't. Why she left him and now what was he hearing? That she lied to him?
To be honest, he didn't even know which one hurt more at that point.
" Why, Navaya?" He asked calmly, trying to control the anger and hurt he felt because he knew it would only push her further away from him and he didn't want that. But it was insanely hard for him to control it when it hurt so fucking much.
The pain that seared his chest, his soul back then resurrected and now searing harder. Blazing pain corroding him like hot acid.
" Why not? It seemed like the confidence boost you needed to choose Nicky so why not? She loved you." Navaya answered nonchalantly and Johnny's eyes burnt ten times hotter.
" And did I ever say I loved her back?" Johnny couldn't even believe what he was hearing. He couldn't believe what was happening right now. Why would Navaya intentionally make him believe that she was dating that asshole when she wasn't?
" I don't know, love or not, it definitely didn't stop you from marrying her and getting her pregnant." Navaya shrugged as though she wasn't talking about something serious but about the weather.
Navaya hadn't always been like this. It took years of practice and taking shit from others to get this good at not caring. Or in this case, pretending not to care.
She had always liked Johnny, right from the time she first laid eyes on him that she almost thought she was going crazy for having a crush on her best friend's older brother. An unhealthy crush though. Like she was always staring at him when he wasn't looking, taking pictures of him secretly and kissing them before she fell asleep.
Johnny had been her all time obsession when she was a teenager and when she turned eighteen, when they had sex for the first time, though it had been the best experience of her life, she still felt guilt as fuck about it.
She went to Becca's house with the sole purpose of spending time with her but ended sleeping with her brother, like who the fuck does that?
And the guilt kept piling up as she continued indulging in sex with Johnny despite her conscience telling her that it was wrong. She was lying to Becca and hated herself for it.
And the thing with Johnny was one of those situations where the angel on your shoulder would literally be begging and screaming at you not to do it but you say fuck it and end up doing it anyway. Then feel like shit later for giving into the temptation.
To Navaya, sleeping with Johnny felt so good, so right but was still so wrong.
After spending a couple of nights together, Johnny came along and slapped her in the face with an ' I love you' that froze her completely.
Yeah, she had a creepy crush on him but an ' I love you'? She was nowhere ready for that so she spoke to him about it. She told him that things could still work out between them if he could give her sometime and that their relationship was going way too fast and thankfully, he agreed.
He gave Navaya the time she needed and when she left for college, all she did was think about him. Missing him so much, it almost drove her crazy. She even started counting down the days to her first semester break just to see Johnny again and when she finally did, she felt her heart shatter to a million pieces when she saw him being clung on to by a Latino version of Kylie Jenner.
Nicole Guerrero.
Smart, tall, had nice skin, nice ass and her father was also Johnny's father's closest friend.
And apparently the pair had been friends since kindergarten so it kinda made them inseparable.
Though Johnny didn't know at first but Nicky had been madly in love with him for the longest time and when she couldn't take it anymore, she went ahead and squealed to her father. Since she was daddy's little girl, he did his best to get them hitched.
After noticing how the game was being played and realising that Johnny's life had already been dictated to the letter by his father, Navaya decided to pull her hands out of the issue. She went ahead and told Johnny that she found someone else because she knew she couldn't possibly compete with someone like Nicky, who also happens to be a mafia princess.
But Navaya still had a candle of hope lit, praying for things to work between her and Johnny, that just maybe he would also say fuck it to everyone and choose her over Nicky.
That candle went out the moment Johnny said his vows to Nicky on the altar.
Although it hurt like hell, Navaya knew she couldn't fully blame Johnny for everything. His hands were tied. He had his father's decision and company to think about that him possibly choosing her was just a lie she made herself believe back then, but not anymore.
An awkward silence hung between them for a while before Johnny's voice broke it.
" You shouldn't have lied to me, things would have been better." Johnny muttered, looking deep into Navaya's eyes.
" No, it wouldn't. Your father would have still forced you into accepting the marriage. It was never meant to be between us.. Not now, not ever."