She knew. When she decided to come back, she had already considered all these things. Even though she was aware, she did not hesitate because He Lianhuang—whom she loved for more than ten years—was at the center of it all.
She only wanted him to be fine. And she could be by his side as the first official wife that he brought home. It could be considered her wish fulfilled.
Anyway, once he got out of the predicament and still did not love her, if she could no longer bear it anymore, she could leave. She would have no regrets in life after having married him. She could become carefree and unburdened.
“Sister Lin, why are you so…”
Foolish!
Feng Tianlan watched Xi Lin’s eyes gazing at her own wedding dress and could not say the words. She truly never thought that a day would come when such a proud person like Sister Lin would lower her noble head to love a man so humbly.
No, the same was true of Gu Nansheng in the past. She had also been a proud princess, but Wu Yuan’s sake, she also became very humble and foolish.
Xi Lin looked at her expression and knew what she was going to say. She smiled. “Dai’er, loving someone is not rational and there can be no pride. Your back can be as tough and unwavering as a rock, but once you’re in love, you too will bend down and lower yourself into the dust for the sake of that person. Well-tempered steel can also become soft and easily wrapped around a finger.”
She loved He Lianhuang. She had loved him for more than ten years. She also hid it from him for more than ten years. Until now, he was not aware of her love for him. She did not want her devotion to move him and also for it to waver her.
Love was love, it had nothing to do with being moved.
So to her, the current situation was wonderful.
Feng Tianlan looked at Xi Lin. She and Mobai were in love but she did not understand this pain. And it upset her. She said, “I can ask Mobai to help with Xi Yuan Nation’s civil strife. After all, we grew up together. I can still help in some way. You don’t have to do this.”
“Dai’er, he is the emperor. He has an emperor’s imposing manner and dignity, and he…” Xi Lin looked at Feng Tianlan and smiled. “Give him a little dignity. You may be able to help for a while, but you cannot help him for the rest of your life.”
He Lianhuang liked Dai’er. Why would he be willing to accept the help of the Demon King, his love rival? Not to mention the Demon King might not want to help.
Perhaps Dai’er was currently the only one who could not tell He Lianhuang’s feelings for her because she only had eyes for the Demon King. She paid no heed to other people’s feelings.
In order to avoid feeling jealous and be envious of Dai’er, she would leave once He Lianhuang’s situation had stabilized.
“But you can’t compromise yourself in this way.” Feng Tianlan felt really sorry for her. She had always insisted on not marrying a man who did not like her. But now she was actually giving in because of He Lianhuang’s difficulties.
“It’s not a compromise. I have no regrets marrying him like this,” Xi Lin said. Seeing how Feng Tianlan still did not understand her thoughts, she smiled and added, “Trust your sister, I really do not feel like I’ve been wronged.”
If Feng Tianlan would never understand, then so be it. After all, loving a person without dignity was really a weary thing.
In this way, she should just let Dai’er and the Demon King enjoy their simple and happy love without all these agonizing hardships.
“All right, don’t look so upset anymore. Your sister is going to get married. It’s inauspicious for you to look so bereft.”
“Sister Lin…” Feng Tianlan still felt perturbed listening to her explain.
Xi Lin reached out to pinch her face and smiled. “Come on, give your sister a smile and hand over your wedding gifts. Be generous and give plenty, okay?”
Feng Tianlan looked at her and knew she could not say anything more to persuade her. In the end, she could only give in to her.
She thought about how she would never understand what it felt to love someone so humbly because she had conviction in Mobai. But the world was unpredictable and no one knew another person’s heart with certainty.