I only found out that I was being insensitive after my wife got sad hearing my words. I hated myself for it. If I had been just a little more considerate, perhaps I would not have hurt her feelings. I even made her angry.
When I saw that she got a nosebleed, I thought she somehow fell or hurt herself. But when she said it was nothing like that, I immediately thought that because I made her angry, it happened. Perhaps she was pushing herself too hard.
Though she told me not to, again and again, I called the doctor. Doctor Dimitri was pretty young, but I trusted his judgment. At first, I thought because he was young, he would not be too professional. But he proved me wrong. Every single of his actions and words were professional. He looked at Blue as a patient only, not something else.
It relaxed me a bit as well.
As he gave her instructions about what she should do and what she should not, I tried to memorize all of them. After all, there should not be any kind of lacking when it came to her.
The doctor met me again at my office. "Actually, I could not say this in front of Her Highness... Well, I have been checking Her Highness's health for weeks. There is one thing I am sure of- Your Highness does have pretty good stamina. So, I think even one time at once is a bit too much. So, I think it would be better if His Highness tries to finish a bit early. Her Highness should not know this, since it can worry her. She can think that because of her, Your Highness is not satisfied. And because Her Highness is with a child, her emotions can be very unpredictable. That's why I couldn't tell anything at that time. I hope Your Highness understands."
"I see...," I said. I waited for her before too. It would not matter if I did not do it for a while though it would be hard. Her health was the first thing. If she got better properly, we would be able to do it a lot then. "I understand. Anything else I need to take care of?"
"Her Highness may act out of character. She has not perhaps shown any sign of that. But it can happen. It's not like it will surely, but there is a possibility. In that case, Your Highness should be patient. Even if Her Highness throws a tantrum, please try to bear it with her without getting angry."
'If she meaninglessly throws a tantrum, I would like to see it. I bet she is gonna be cute...'
"Because if Your Highness lashes back at her, Her Highness might feel down. Right now, besides her physical health, her mental health is very important too. I have noticed before too, that Her Highness tends to overthink. It's like something is giving her pressure all the time. That's why Your Highness should work hard as well to make sure Her Highness does not worry about many things," he said. "Her Highness even might want to cry and that's also for no reason. In that case, lend her a shoulder and be patient. If she needs any kind of affirmation, please give her that. And if there is any form of difficulty, contact me. Her condition may worsen at any moment. So, it's better to do something as soon as possible before something bad happens."
"And even if nothing goes wrong with her health, mentally and physically, it is better for me to check on Her Highness. To reduce her stress, Your Highness should do everything possible. Since Your Highness cares for Her Highness deeply, reducing her stress also should be part of the care," he added.
That night, she fell asleep, but I could not sleep at all. I was thinking about what the doctor had said. I was planning in my head what I should do.
Looking at her sleeping face always helped me relax. The feeling was very blissful every time I looked at my wife's beautiful calm face. And whenever I looked at her, I wanted to touch her, kiss her, and shower her with affection.
The next morning, I was making arrangements so she would not have any kind of trouble after going to Ataraxia. I did not want to take her there, but it was important to awaken her power.
I had taken care of other things before. So, now I only wanted to focus on the things concerning her.
"Ask Her Highness, the Queen, if she is bored," I asked a maid. Just like the doctor instructed, I was trying to make sure that she was not bored.
The maid came back pretty quickly. "Her Highness said she is not bored at all."
"I see... Anything else?"
"Also Her Highness asked a maid if she needed any help."
'As expected of my sweet-hearted wife... She might have felt bad that everyone is working, but not her. She doesn't understand that the thing she now needs to focus on now is to get better.'
I did not need to ask to know what happened next. The maid surely asked for her forgiveness, thinking that she had done something wrong and the queen was angry. I chuckled. I wished I could see what kind of face my little wife made.
After my work was managed, I headed to the bedroom to see what she was doing. But what I found her doing was not something I thought she would be doing.
She was holding a chair up with both of her hands and swinging it to her sides on the balcony. She looked scared as if she had seen something shocking.
"Tsk, I leave you for a moment and you keep pushing yourself hard," I muttered, taking the chair with her hands and putting it down. "Really? What are you doing? If there is some kind of fly or something, ask the maids... What's with that look?"
I did not understand why she had to try to do everything on her own. How many times did I have to remind her that she was the queen? She could ask anyone to do something and they had no choice but to oblige.
"I heard a voice...," she mumbled, clutching the front of my outfit.
"A voice? There is no one here, though...," I said, looking around to make sure that there was no one actually there though I knew that there was not. But then a thought came to me. What if it was the dark mage that was lurking around? And besides, my wife was not someone to talk nonsense about something like this. The look on her face clearly said that she was not joking. "You mean, out of thin air?"
"I can guarantee you that I wasn't hallucinating or dreaming or anything like that. I was in my right mine, I swear. Like, I can even repeat our wedding vows right now though I don't understand the meaning...," she said quickly.
"It's alright. I understand," I said reassuringly.
"You sure? You don't think I am crazy or something?"
There was no reason for me not to trust her. And besides, it was not like anything was impossible these days.
"Not really. Nothing surprises me anymore," I muttered and looked around once more. "Tell me more about it."
"Well, it was a man's voice, kinda deep and unclear. But I understood. He was calling me his daughter. He said that I am finally here," she said. "You think it's my real father? Luc said that he is a dark mage."
If someone was calling her 'daughter', then it was her father for sure. He was a dark mage though we did not know who he was or where he was. We had no idea how powerful he was, but now that he managed to even contact my wife like this, then he surely was quite a powerful dark mage.
"It refers to that," I said. "Why would that freaky man reach out to you? I will crack his bones and slump him in mud if he tries to do anything funny. I won't forgive him even if he is your father. So far, it seems he is shady whoever it is."
I meant every single word I said. It did not matter who he was. I did not have any business with him as long as he did not bother my wife. But if he did, no matter how powerful he was, he needed to face me.
She suddenly hugged me. "Darling?"
"I love you, really. You know, I don't think I care about anything anymore. You can betray me, but I will trust you from now on. I can't bring myself to think that you're lying, even if you are.. So, I think I am ready to go down as well."