I could not believe this guy. He had left like nothing happened, while I was lying on the bed being all numb. I felt like I had been under a truck all this while. Thankfully, he was gentleman enough to cover me with the blanket.
"Your Highness!" Ruby exclaimed. She always let me sleep in the morning as it was Demetrius's order, but perhaps she had heard that I was awake. I wondered how. Did someone find out what we were doing a moment ago? I knew it, I knew someone would eventually hear the sounds.
'Damn it! It's embarrassing as hell!'
Ruby was used to seeing me naked in the morning. After some days, it did not feel weird and embarrassing anymore. If it was her, there was not a problem though I still was embarrassed when others maids talked about the red marks on my body.
"You are up early today, Your Highness," she said with a big smile.
What was that smile for? My downer part was aching as if it would fall apart. But she looked as if something good happened.
"Ah, yes," I muttered. "Things happened, so... And now I can't go to sleep."
"Your Highness, I think there is going to be a huge feast soon," she said.
"Eh? Why?" I asked. "Dem didn't tell me anything about it..."
"Well, Your Highness, kings, and queens are not usually close. There are usually political marriages in the case of kings and queens. They don't even know exactly what kind of person they are marrying until the wedding day. There is neither love between them nor any connection. They sleep with each other because they need to, not because they want to. And then the queens give birth. That's all there is between the king and the queen. The king has his own harem."
"Harem?"
"Yes, Your Highness. The kings mostly spend time with the concubines. And sometimes, concubines give birth to the king's children. It's a usual thing. And queens have their harem too. And sometimes, a queen can give birth to any of the harem's men's child."
"Ugh... Sorry to say this, but it feels disgusting," I grumbled.
"I know, Your Highness. But Your Highness And His Highness are completely different. You both even share a room. It's the first time I saw a king and a queen staying in the same room and also mate every night..."
"My goodness, have some shame."
"It's a good thing, Your Highness. Perhaps we will hear good news soon."
"... What good news?"
'Don't tell me...'
"A prince or a princess, Your Highness."
'I knew it! Damn it! What prince and princess? I'm not ready! I'm definitely not ready. We just got married, for god's sake!'
"His Highness doesn't have any harem as well, and neither do you. I think it's the best relationship between a king and a queen. I'm so happy, Your Highness," she exclaimed.
Dem never talked about this with me. I never knew. But now that she told me, I felt weird. There was no way I would be okay with him having a harem and sleeping with others. Truthfully, I would even hate it if he spent time with another woman. How ridiculous it was to think that I would be this jealous to even think about!
But the relief was he would never do it and I trusted him. He truly hated others. It did not matter if the other one was man or woman, he hated them all. He never looked at anyone else properly.
And I never felt anything towards anyone other than him. I could not even think about being with anyone else. There was no way I would do it. And I was sure in that case, he would burn down everything.
I giggled subconsciously. I had seen him jealous before. Even though it was not so extreme, it was cute.
"Your Highness, that's why I was saying that there will be a feast. If a prince or a princess is born..."
"That won't happen any time soon," I said.
"Why are you saying that, Your Highness? Don't you..."
"Yes, we do it. But I'm not ready to be a mother. I mean, I'm just eighteen. Alright, so what I'm going to say is weird, so please don't laugh."
"Of course, Your Highness."
"Well, the condition in my family was not so good. To be honest, it wasn't good at all. We were poor. And my family was not a perfect family as well. We had to work all day to make some money. And there were other problems as well. Because of all these things, I never had a chance to date. I never had been close to any man before marriage. And I never even experienced anything good in life until last month. I want to stay like this a little while more. You know, if you have a kid, no matter what you say, you can't be as free. I don't want to be tied down. I had been tied down all my life. I don't want that anymore," I said.
"I'm sorry, Your Highness. I did not know," she said apologetically.
"It's alright. You didn't know. Well, it seems like that... We spend a lot of time together, so it's normal to think like that. But we're not planning on having any kid this soon. We talked about this as well. Dem knows what I want and a kid is not his first priority as well."
"His Highness said that himself?"
I nodded. "He did. I mean, I asked him and then he told me that."
"His Highness never cares for other kids. But he is really close to Lady Ava. And Lady Ava likes His Highness as well," she said. "So I thought His Highness would want to have a kid as soon as possible. Guess I was wrong..."
"..."
Dem was close with Ava as I could see. Ava was not here at the moment as she had gone with her parents on a trip. They had left right after our wedding though Evelyn still managed to have time to ask me about my wedding night...
But did he truly want to have a kid? I mean, he told me he did not want to, but did he tell me that to make me feel better?
I needed to talk to him. No matter what kind of reaction I would get, I needed to hear it from him. There was no way to stay with a misunderstanding. It was the best thing I learned from reading romance novels. There was always a cliché plot of misunderstandings because of not communicating enough. I could not let that happen to us.
"Your Highness, what are you thinking about?" Ruby asked.
"Nothing. Anyway, I want to take a bath."
"Yes, Your Highness. I will prepare it right away," she said enthusiastically.
"Alright."
I should keep the thought for later. Even though I did not want to be a mother right away, I wanted him to tell the truth. I wanted to know what he wanted.. Then perhaps we could talk it out.