Chapter 34: CH 29

Yu She could not imagine how difficult Zhong Wan’s rushed trip to Qian An had been.

Without money or travel documents, how much suffering did he experience in those few months? 

The young Yu She had originally been able to comfort himself. Zhong Wan at least had some of Yu She’s things on him to sell for money. But as the years passed, those things returned to Yu She’s hands one by one.

And those items had been untouched.

As if things had been pure between them all along. No connection at all between them.

Once again, Yu She’s started to grow a headache. In discomfort, he turned over in bed, a drawn-out sigh escaping his lips. 

Steward Feng kept watch outside. He could hear Yu She tossing and turning, and entered the room without a sound. Whispered, “Heir, Heir, did you have a nightmare again?”

“No,” Yu She said in an indifferent manner. “I have yet to fall asleep.”

Steward Feng worried that Yu She was unhappy and would do something again. He asked, “Then should I light the sleeping incense?”

Yu She impatiently said, “You think I’m him?” 

Steward Feng smiled. “Yes. Young Master Zhong is truly weak against medicine. Each time, a bit of incense would knock him out.”

Yu She stared out the window, gaze far away. As if he were recalling something else.

Yu She hesitated over whether he should use the sleeping incense. He truly did not want the Zhong Wan in his mind to disturb him. Irritated, he said, “Stop staring at me. I have no energy to do anything right now.”

Those words rang true. Following each time Yu She had caused some trouble, he would be calm for a period. Just a while ago, he had caused trouble with Xuan Qiong. For at least half a month, he would not have the urge to commit su*cide. 

Steward Feng secretly worried. He could sense that Yu She didn’t want to do such a thing either.

Who would torment themselves if their life was going well?

However, he had suffered too much. After a while, it would seem as if he could not bear it anymore, and would find something to vent out his feelings.

Steward Feng approached the bed to help Yu She pull the covers up. He saw that Yu She still had his eyes open and softly said, “The people escorting Young Master Zhong have already returned. They have given respects to Prince Qian An in place of Heir. According to the steward of Prince Qian An’s estate, Prince Qian An’s illness grew worse.” 

Yu She closed his eyes. “It’s highly likely he’s faking it.”

Steward Feng laughed dryly. “It’s not guaranteed.”

“He’s in a rush to return to Qian An.” Yu She frowned. “Yesterday when Zhong Wan entered the palace, he wanted to request the emperor for permission to leave for Xuan Rui and the others.”

Yu She smiled mockingly. “Speaking of which, Xuan Rui’s life is good. Such a useless person unexpectedly survived until now.” 

With a keen sense of smell, Steward Feng was able to smell a hint of something not completely sour but not bitter as well. There must be something up. He softly said, “Actually, back then Heir did not have to let Young Master Zhong leave.”

Yu She hated hearing these words the most. As soon as he had, he frowned. “I’ve said it many times before that I couldn’t.”

Steward Feng saw an opening and immediately seized it. “But right now, this isn’t certain! Right now, could we really not keep him here?”

Once again, Yu She fell silent. 

A while later, he said in a soft voice, “Even if I could keep him, I cannot not protect him.”

For a moment, Steward Feng found it difficult to bear. Full of anxiety, he asked, “Heir, you are certain that you won’t live long?”

“Yes,” replied Yu She, tranquil.

Steward Feng really wished he could hit him. 

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“No.” Yu She narrowed his eyes. “I hate that he clearly could ruthlessly and coldly live a smooth life yet insists on being sincere with just anyone.”

Steward Feng laughed in spite of himself. “Aren’t those Young Master Zhong’s good points?” 

“Yes. That’s even more of a reason to not keep him here.” Yu She took a deep breath. “If he did not have this kind of personality, then last night, I would have…”

Steward Feng felt as if he had heard something important. He rushed to ask, “What about last night?!”

A trace of hatred flashed through Yu She’s eyes. “Last night, I would have done him.”

Rage filled Steward Feng. Then you should have done him!!!  

Steward Feng felt resentful towards Yu She for not meeting his expectations. “Then in those four hours last night, just what did… just what did Heir…”

“I didn’t touch him, but…” Yu She furrowed his brows and wavered before saying, “But I also did.”

Steward Feng was anxious to the extreme and feared annoying Yu She by asking. He could only take his time to shamelessly say, “Touch what?”

For a long while, Yu She kept silent. Then he said, “A kiss.” 

Shocked, Steward Feng blurted, “Ki…ss?”

Looking elsewhere, Yu She said, “He did it himself.”

Steward Feng was struck silly to the extreme. “Did it himself?”

Zhong Wan had been sleeping like the dead. How did he do it himself? 

“I was only changing his outer clothes!” said Yu She, gloomy. “And he had such an indecent appearance. Then… he said my courtesy name.”

Steward Feng was struck speechless.

He really wanted to help Zhong Wan understand what happened to him. In an extremely careful manner, he asked for Zhong Wan, “How was it… indecent?”

Yu She drew his brows together as he looked at Steward Feng. “Why are you asking about this?” 

Steward Feng jumped from fear. Forcing a smile, he said, “This old slave simply can’t understand why a person like Young Master Zhong could fail to conduct himself with dignity.”

Yu She wanted to say something, but then held himself back. Instead, he said, “In short… he had a very indecent appearance.”

He recalled that the last time Zhong Wan had criticized him harshly, Zhong Wan had seemed aroused. And Yu She’s throat grew dry. He moved around in discomfort. “In the first place, I only wanted to take a look at him. But he insisted on provoking me… He deserved it.”

“Serves him right. He truly deserved it. No regard for his decency! No regard for his self-respect!” Steward Feng bitterly agreed. He truly deserved it, but your honored self only kissed him! 

Steward Feng hesitated over and over again. He feared Yu She did not know some things. Mindful of Yu She’s expression, he softly said, “Speaking of which, Heir isn’t young anymore. A few years ago, Princess Royal asked this old slave if it’s time to arrange a few servant girls to teach Heir about matters of the flesh. This old slave guessed that Heir would not want the people from Princess, so rejected the offer for Heir. Now that this old slave recalls it, should we arrange for some suitable and older female servants over…?”

All of a sudden, Yu She was looking at Steward Feng. “No need to bring people to teach me. I am knowledgeable of such matters.”

“Yes, yes, yes.” Steward Feng was scared nearly half dead. “Heir naturally knows.”

Baffled, Yu She stared at Steward Feng. “Do you all think about this every day? I am not like regular people, but I’m not as bad as not even understanding this. I already understood it completely by the time I was a teenager.” 

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Steward Feng blurted loudly, “Understood, understood, understood.”

“Don’t bring those strange people into my inner chamber.” Yu She stared at Steward Feng, taking precautions. “I don’t want women nor would I father descendants. If I see people that I should not see in my residence… I will strangle her in an instant.”

Steward Feng’s heart trembled. “Then Heir…”

Yu She didn’t even need to think about it. “Of course I don’t need this even more.” 

Steward Feng wanted to say something, before hesitating. “Toward Young Master Zhong, Heir is clearly…”

Yu She knit his brows. “I kissed him because he didn’t conduct himself with dignity!”

He almost convinced Steward Feng.

Steward Feng mumbled to himself, “Yes, it’s Young Master Zhong himself who flirted in his dreams so well. He actually called out Heir’s courtesy name in his dream? If this isn’t being frivolous, then what is it? Heir is young. When would he meet this kind of person? It’s inevitable he would be confused by Young Master Zhong! That he dared to say this in his dream makes it clear he’s allowing Heir to do things to him!” 

Yu She found it reasonable, his mood improving a bit.

Downcast, Steward Feng said, “That’s why Heir taking liberties from his was deserved!”

These matters had distrubed Yu She, making him feel ill at ease. Yet at this moment, he had fully recovered. He closed his eyes. “Exactly.”

Steward Feng itched to beat up Yu She. Fuming with rage between gritted teeth, he said, “Since he was unable to bear it, then why didn’t Heir just… just…” 

Irritated, Yu She said, “If he couldn’t bear it, does that automatically mean I couldn’t as well? Also… After that, he became very content with his lot, lying in my embrace asleep in a very honest manner.”

Young Prince Yu was clear on rewards and punishments. Steward Feng had nothing to say.

Yu She used this meticulous analysis to ease his own anxiety, growing a lot more at ease. He pulled up the covers on himself. “I’m tired. You can leave.”

Steward Feng retreated. 

He felt things couldn’t go on like this.

He wrote another letter to Zhong Wan.

In Prince Qian An’s estate, Zhong Wan had dismissed the servants and was just starting to speak with Xuan Congxin.

Zhong Wan had not returned all night. Worried to the extreme, Xuan Congzin repeatedly asked him what had happened. 

“Yesterday… Ugh, I don’t want to talk about it. A mess.” He laughed in spite of himself. “I have some proper business to talk to you about.”

Xuan Congxin practically had not slept all night, and glanced at Zhong Wan in a rebuking manner. Then, with a mountain of patience, she said, “Speak.”

“Yesterday, I had originally wanted to request from the emperor to allow your brother to return to Qian An. Unfortunately, other matters had sprung up and messed this up. At present, Fifth Prince, Xuan Qiong, had swallowed a stomach full of water, and it’s uncertain what else had occurred. His Majesty certainly doesn’t have the energy to take care of our matters.” Zhong Wan had a splitting headache. “Another imperial prince had an accident. If we keep asking to return to Qian An, it might actually reproduce the opposite of our desired effect, inspiring the emperor’s suspicion. What I mean is…”

Zhong Wan paused. Then he said, “I used Xuan Yu’s name to send a memorial, which read that Xuan Rui was very ill, and as such asked to allow soley him… to return to Qian An first.” 

Xuan Congxin frowned. “Only allow my eldest brother to return?”

“His Majesty’s birthday has yet to arrive, yet accidents occured in the capital one after another. If we all leave together, it would attract too much attention. The emperor is mistrustful. I’m afraid that he would think our Prince Qian An estate is scheming.” Zhong Wan helplessly said, “When that time comes, none of us would be able to leave.”

Xuan Congxin was unable to understand the deeper matters like Zhong Wan. However, she nodded in a hesitant manner.

“The emperor would not kill children,” Zhong Wan lightly reassured her. “You are a girl, so it’s even more safe.” 

Xuan Congxin did not seem any happier after hearing these words. Lowering her head, she said, “This I know.”

Zhong Wan said,” With me around, you all will definitely be safe. So let’s have you eldest brother leave first, alright?”

A smile appeared on Xuan Congxin’s lips. “For you to swear such an oath with me and for you to plan all this, it will obviously be the safest method. The best method for us. I will agree to your plan, but…”

Zhong Wan and Xuan Congxin said at the same time, “No need to tell Xuan Yu.” 

The two laughed.

A sigh left Xuan Congxin’s lips. “I’m also useless.”

“It’s already good enough that you aren’t a bit suspicious of me.” He smiled. “Your eldest brother will be leaving soon, so don’t argue with him in these next two days. Give him the fox fur coat you were making for him.”

Xuan Congxin nodded.  All of a sudden, she said, “How about you return to Qian An with him? You said before that the emperor wouldn’t do anything to us. After His Majesty’s birthday, I can return with Xuan Yu.” 

“How could we do that?” Zhong Wan didn’t even think about it. He couldn’t help but laugh. “When the Prince sees from heaven that I left you two children here, he will strike me with lightning in the middle of the night.”

For a moment, a wave of sadness washed over Xuan Congxin. She knew she could not support their estate and no longer was talkative. She forced a smile. “Well you still haven’t married that young lady. Now that it’s mentioned… where is she? It’s been so many days but I’ve yet to see any action from her.”

Now that the topic of conversation came to this, Zhong Wan suffered another headache. “Perhaps… it’s not going smoothly. Very difficult to handle.”

Discontent, Xuan Congxin said, “Just what does she not like?!” 

“Don’t blame them.” Zhong Wan smiled bitterly. “They… When they were young, they suffered a lot. Now their personality isn’t very good. I need to try harder.”

Xuan Congxin thought for a moment, then nodded in understanding. “She’s getting old and her body is tall and sturdy. That’s why she’s more sensitive than others. Since you like her this much, then try hard.”

As Zhong Wan smiled once more, someone knocked outside. Zhong Wan allowed that person to enter.

It was a messenger with a letter from Steward Feng. 

He received the letter and opened it in front of Xuan Congxin. After he finished reading it, his expression changed several times. He almost said a slur in front of Xuan Congxin.

She scrutinized Zhong Wan’s expression. Probingly asked, “Is… that letter from that young lady?”

Zhong Wan nodded with much difficulty.

Xuang Congxin thought, this girl truly is courageous. “What did she say?” 

Immensely discouraged, Zhong Wan replied, “They said they dislike how indecent I am.”

Xuan Congxin paled from fear.

Zhong Wan waved, asking her to return to her residence. Xuan Congxin was astonished by how open-minded the culture was at the capital. She left while still holding on to her astonishment.

Once she had left his residence, Zhong Wan picked up the letter again. He wasn’t sure if his eyes had made a mistake. As his hands shook, he carefully read the letter once more… 

“Heir said that Young Master does not have any self-respect.

“Heir said that Young Master did not remove your outer robe during sleep, and was clearly trying to seduce men, making Heir help you remove it.

“Heir is young and vigorous, and suddenly saw someone sleeping without taking off their outer clothes. How could he have resisted?!”

Zhong Wan was so angry that he went dizzy and his ears rang. He drank a sip of tea, and continued to read— 

“So Heir unconsciously… kissed you.”

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