"Most of the time, we stay in this room. Your elementary school is too far away from me. I did n’t go to find you. My high school is too far away from you. You did n’t come, so our intersection is only at In this room, I thought, your world is only so big. "
Wei Lan felt that he seemed to be vaguely guessing what it was.
Wei Xun drained the dishwashing water from the bowl, refilled it, and washed the bowl quietly. His voice was very calm, and those things he used to care about are now relieved. He said, "No."
"Your world is not so big. Your world is big. Even if I walk in, I am there, and I am almost like everyone else. I may be important to you, but this important is not irreplaceable. It ’s not essential, you like me, just like you like your friends, you can have many friends, and you can have many brothers too. I ’m not your ideal brother, are you? You like it, It should be the kind of gentle sunshine, who is as kind and enthusiastic as you, but I am not, I am a person who is indifferent, cold and selfish, and I am never a good person, but you are always a good child. It ’s not because you happened to go wrong that day and you came to my house. If it weren't because you did n’t have friends here to play together, we would n’t meet. ”
"No." Wei Lan did not consciously whisper, but Wei Xun did not hear it. He was calm and rare, and for the first time told his thoughts to a person. Although the other was still young, he did not. Without perfunctory, he was very serious and slowly said to Wei Lan, "We are different, our world is different, our personalities are different, so that day, after realizing these things, I started to think about it. I Naturally stronger, I ca n’t accept that you occupy my entire world, but I ’m just an unnecessary part of your world, and I do n’t want to say this to you, so that you pity me. So I made the simplest Choice, I chose to let you leave, as long as you leave, then everything is back to before. My world is still only me, and you, you have left, how many people in your world, just It has nothing to do with me. This was the easiest and most appropriate method at that time. "
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Wei Lan's tears flowed unconsciously, and he thought about the day he returned to Wei Xun's house, he entered the study, and Wei Xun spoke to him calmly, saying that he did not look at the phone, that the game was over, and Don't come to me again. Wei Lan has been wondering why it is. At noon, Wei Xun still cares about him, and he will teach others because he was almost bullied by others. In the afternoon, he and Wei Xun said that he would not go with him after school. , Wei Xun is also the same as usual, how suddenly, in a few hours of effort, everything changed, now Wei Lan knows.
Wei Lan didn't expect it to be this way. Wei Xun even drove him away for this reason, and they even suffered for so long because of this reason. Wei Lan was angry and distressed, got up from the sofa, and walked to the kitchen. .
"That being the case, why would you come to me?" Wei Lan asked him, "don't you think it would be best for me to leave?"
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He thought that Wei Lan's arrival was just a breeze blowing to him, which felt comfortable and natural, but it wasn't until Wei Lan really left that he discovered that Wei Lan's arrival was more like a typhoon entering and changed everything . He didn't want to really disconnect from Wei Lan. He told himself over and over again that Wei Lan's world is no different from him, he doesn't lack himself, and he doesn't need to go to him. But even if he told himself this every day, he would still be in front of the window, watching Wei Lan passing by his house again and again every day.
This is an experience that Wei Xun has never experienced. He experienced and felt that he finally compromised with himself after finding that all resistance was futile. Wei Xun has always been a very honest person. He honestly faced his own psychological feelings. So after finding that his feelings and Wei Lan's feelings were not equal, he chose to let Wei Lan leave; therefore, after finding himself after all When he still wanted Wei Lan to be with him, he chose to pick Wei Lan back.
Every move he made was his truest state of mind at that time. He would not embarrass himself or wrong himself. At this point, he and Wei Lan were like brothers.
Wei Lan walked to the door of the kitchen and looked up at him. Wei Xun lowered her head, was washing dishes, and earphones were plugged into her ear. He hurriedly said, "Sorry."
Wei Lan looked at him and suddenly found that between them, every time, Wei Xun was apologizing. Wei Lan certainly didn't feel that he was wrong. Every conflict between them was caused by Wei Xun. Wei Lan felt that his apology was right. But for people like Wei Xun, he apologized, and it should not be so.
Wei Lan remembered that Wei Xun had said indifferently to Yun Ying after he had a conflict with Yun Ying, "Wei Lan will not apologize, he will never apologize." He just realized now that this sentence was not simply said For Yun Ying, it was also for Wei Xun himself, so Wei Xun played the role of concession every time in their quarrel.
He has been giving in, and even though he is aggrieved, he is still giving in.
Wei Lan hung up the phone and put it back into his pajama pocket. He walked behind Wei Xun, poked Wei Xun, and then, after Wei Xun turned around in surprise, hugged Wei Xun tightly.
"No," he said, "not what you think, not your brother." Wei Lan hugged him, his eyes a bit sour.
Because Wei Xun couldn't speak to Wei Lan, he chose the method of calling. He couldn't even talk about it, but needed to do something else to divert his attention so that he could not It's hard to tell. So while he was washing dishes, he was wearing headphones and talking to Wei Lan. It was also because he was wearing headphones and his mind was on the phone that he didn't find Wei Lan behind him.
Looking at Wei Lan in his arms, he was at a loss, and could only whisper softly, "Why did you come in."
Wei Lan looked up at him and said earnestly, "It's not what you think." He looked at Wei Xun, some anxious, and some afraid he couldn't say clearly, his frowns frowned, "You are different from them, You are not dispensable. You are obviously the ideal brother in my heart. "
He unconsciously grabbed Wei Xun's clothes and explained to him, "The other people around me, whether they are Ling Ling, chubby, or other students who have a good relationship, they approached me actively. They They want to play with me, so they come to me first. Only you, only you are the one I take the initiative to approach, you are the only one, you are not optional, you obviously are very important. "
He looked at Wei Xun. "I was a kid. When I was young, I felt that Brother Yu Rui was very good, because he was Ling Ling's brother. When we were young, he always played with us. I started to talk to my brother. The concept came from him, but Brother Yu Rui is just Ling Ling's brother. He is not my brother, nor is it my ideal brother. "
"My grandfather is very powerful, my mother is very powerful, I am also very powerful, so my brother should be very powerful, but Brother Yu Rui can't even beat me, so he is not the brother I want. I want that kind of Great brothers, like my grandfather and mother, no matter what I do, I do n’t think it ’s my fault. If someone bullies me, they help me to learn, no one can beat them, so no one can bully me. But Brother Yu Rui ca n’t do it, he wo n’t fight, it ’s not powerful enough, he ca n’t even fight with me, he does n’t like to fight, but you can, you are great, you can do everything, you are my ideal Brother. "
"I said," Wei Lan repeated, "you all think my grandfather is terrible, but I don't think that I like my grandfather very much, because he is good to me. So, I don't think you have anything bad, even if What about you like you said, you won't treat me like that, as long as you treat me well and how you treat others, I don't care, because I'm not them, I just want to make myself happy. "
He kept explaining, trying to remember what Wei Xun had just said, but found that how he explained and how to do it, he could not equate himself with Wei Xun's world. He liked Wei Xun, but he also liked his own. Family and friends, he can't let Wei Xun like his own world. Wei Lan was anxious. He couldn't think of a reasonable solution to this problem. He felt that this was unfair to Wei Xun, but he didn't know what to do.
Wei Xun saw that he frowned, looking at a loss, and comforted him, "I know, you don't have to be upset, it's okay, it's okay."
Wei Lan shook his head. He worked hard to think of a way to balance the relationship between them. He didn't want to be unfair to Wei Xun. He wanted to do his best to be better with Wei Xun. He suddenly said, "I give you How about building a house? "
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Wei Lan immediately became clear, "I'll build a house for you. There is only you in this house. I circle this house to keep others away. Only you, OK?"
Wei Xun was a little hesitant. He didn't even know how to answer Wei Lan. Wei Lan looked up at him and smiled, and asked him, "Brother, don't you like me to call someone's brother?"
Wei Xun did not expect that he would realize this. He did not express this meaning in the words he had just said to Wei Lan. He thought Wei Lan would not see it, but Wei Lan could see it.
Wei Lan laughed, "Then I won't call other brothers in the future. I call them brothers, such as Brother Yu Rui, because they are older than me and take good care of me. If you don't like it, I won't call it, or When you call them, put a name in front of them. "
Wei Lan's words were very gentle. He looked at Wei Xun, his eyes were slightly glowing, and he said, "I will build a house for you, and you will live alone. I will only call your brother, and then keep others away from you."