"What's going on?" asked Spider as he sat up. Spider's body was squeezed against Luci's body who was currently sitting and leaning on the sofa.
Tedy had come home a while ago, with a slightly gloomy and sad face. But in the end, Tedy was willing to forgive Luci and also to accept one hundred million rupiahs from Luci's hand.
Luci was happy to see that Tedy wasn't angry and didn't walk away from her, but she still felt bad for betraying Tedy, let alone letting him down. Tedy was like Luci's older brother. And what Luci did earlier was like a big sin when you betrayed your own biological family.
"I committed a grave sin to Tedy," Luci answered with her eyes looking up blankly.
Her beautiful face seemed to collide with her sadness. But the sadness was not strong enough to fade the charm of a Luci who could ensnare many rich masters with a beautiful face and beautiful body.
"But Tedy seems to have forgiven you. Then why can't you forgive yourself?" asked Spider. His strong hands couldn't help but touch Luci.
Finally, Spider gave up on his desires. His fingers were then moved to tidy up Luci's messy hair.
"He did forgive me, but I know he was disappointed. If you were Tedy, wouldn't you be disappointed too?" Luci still didn't look at Spider in the slightest.
She was still staring blankly at the wall of her flat. A void that Spider wanted to fill as soon as possible.
Spider wanted to pull Luci's body to fall into his arms right now. Then Spider would caress the top of Luci's head lovingly. Spider would also sing Luci's favorite song again so that she would fall asleep in his arms, only in his arms.
"I don't know if I will be disappointed or not when I become Tedy. Because I still don't understand what you mean just now." Spider started investigating. But he didn't want to be seen out loud.
Spider wanted to know everything about Luci, everything, from the smallest to the biggest.
What did Luci like lately, what made Luci happy and excited right now, and what made Luci able to live a better life? Then the most important thing was whether Luci was currently having a lover.
In his heart, Spider seemed to be tossed around with confusion and ambiguous thoughts about Luci. Spider wanted to ask Luci everything, but Spider knew that the current Luci had a big and sturdy wall that was difficult to pass.
If Spider insisted on going through it, Luci may be hurt later. Spider didn't want that to happen.
"Now tell me, what do you want and don't want from me?" Luci asked. This time her face turned to face Spider.
With their position that coincided like this, not to mention Luci's question that just now made Spider feel that Luci was proposing to him.
Was there such a strange thought? You are whipped for Luci, Spider!
"Me, eh? Uh, I – I want you to be with me forever. And I don't want you to leave me." Spider flashed his gentle smile again. This time he blushed a little and couldn't help but blush from embarrassment.
'Bee, are you proposing to me?' Spider was nervous in his own heart.
"Then how would you feel if I ended up leaving you?" Luci asked again with a serious face.
Not that Luci wanted to leave Spider at this time. She just wanted to give a parable to Spider so that he would understand how disappointed Tedy was right now, and how regretful Luci was right now.
Spider froze, after hearing Luci's follow-up question. Spider didn't want Luci to leave him, and he wouldn't let Luci leave him no matter what. Even if Luci dared to like another man, Spider might break his leg.
"I won't let you leave me," Spider hissed with eyes that were already dark and terrifying. His cold aura came back.
"That's your wish. But what if I leave you? How will you feel?" Luci glanced briefly at Spider.
Spider was smoldering, with his face already as red as an Alaskan-boiled crab, if Alaska had a boiled crab. His anger almost exploded on the spot.
His hands that had been so busy fixing Luci's loose hair were now frozen and couldn't make a fist.
His fingers even almost gripped whatever was in front of him. Spider also wanted to crush and destroy everything he saw right now because for him all these things had made Luci intend to leave him. Even though earlier Luci was only making parables.
'Bee, you just proposed to me, but why did you dump me like this?' Spider growled in his heart.
Feeling that Spider didn't answer finally made Luci turn to him to check what made Spider not want to answer.
And after turning around, only then did Luci know that Spider was currently gripping Spider's hand with a force that was almost impossible for anyone else to do.
His fingernails had even cut the palms of his own hands, which were sturdy and rough, from the frequent handling of weapons and sharp objects.
Luci was shocked when he saw that there was blood that had started flowing in Spider's palm.
"Ider, you hurt your hand," Luci screamed.
She went to get the nearest first aid kit. Then she returned to the sofa to treat the wound on Spider's hand.
Spider still didn't understand what happened because in his mind Spider was imagining Luci leaving him by marrying another unknown man.
Inside his mind, Spider had caught the man who had taken Luci away. Then Spider strangled the man to death.
"Ider, let go of your grip! You hurt your hand. Ider!" Luci tried to resuscitate Spider, but it didn't work. Until finally she touched Spider's face which was covered with a thin beard. Thin beard appeared Spider who had not had time to shave.
Spider dived when he found a soft hand brushing his square face and also his hard jaw. When he turned his face he couldn't stop his smile from growing. Turned out it was Bee or Luci who was currently touching his face.
"Let go of your hand first okay? You can hurt yourself." Luci said very quietly as if Spider could explode if Luci raised her voice even half an octave.
Spider nodded obediently. Then he opened the grip of his bloody hand.
Spider didn't care about that blood because his life has always been filled with blood, whether it's the blood that came from his own body or blood that came from the bodies of other people that Spider had killed.
"Oh my, how can you grip your hand like this?" mumbled Luci in a low voice.
Then she took out the medicine she had brought earlier. She slowly cleaned the wound on Spider's hand first. Even though Spider was injured, the one who grimaced in pain was Luci because she felt pain with the wound.
"Does this hurt?" asked Luci probing with a sad face.
Spider's wound didn't hurt at all because it was a very small wound for him. But because he wanted to get the attention of Luci, Spider nodded.
"Yeah, it hurts. Please take care of me until it heals," Spider hissed in as sad a voice as possible.