Chapter 47: Don’t Open the Door, I… Have Something to Tell You

As she saw the door was opening, Song Yu quickly grabbed the doorknob before the person inside could proceed.

“Don’t open the door!” Speaking in an anxious tone, Song Yu repeated, “Don’t open the door. I… have something to tell you. Let’s just do this with the door between us. If I were to say it face to face, I would have lost the courage.”

She could feel the resistance loosen. The person on the other side had stopped attempting to open the door. She relaxed and put both her hands on the door. She rested her forehead on the cold wooden door, lowered her head, and stared at the doorknob unconsciously.

“When I was fifteen, you didn’t stop me from getting engaged to Qi Chengji. Back then, I put the blame on you for doing nothing. However, with maturity, I now know that there was nothing you could do. You couldn’t do anything but to pass me your blessing. If you did as I wished by confessing and blocking the engagement, I would be the one who would’ve ended up in a pinch. I would try my best to go against the engagement, but the reality was that the ending would be the same.”

“My family would have stopped me from seeing you again, and I would still end up with Qi Chengji. I could have even lost the chance to see you again.”

“Because of that, you couldn’t be so selfish to express what your heart truly desired. I finally understand it these days. Qi Chengji and I were still young. Who knew what the future would hold? It was just an engagement. Nobody could say for certain what’s going to happen in the future.”

“Subsequently, my family went bankrupt and naturally, the engagement with Qi Chengji broke off. I was no longer the daughter of Song Family, and many had pitied me. I fell from the cloud in one night, and I had nothing left. I even had to go through days that were tougher than the average person.”

“I held no grudge. It wasn’t as bad as what people thought. On the contrast, I was rather happy. To me, an average person’s life is more meaningful than being a lady from a notable family who had no control over her life. While materialistically speaking, it wasn’t as good as before, but I didn’t need the luxury.”

“Through my own ability, I’ve improved my life bit by bit. I have food to keep me from being hungry and clothes to keep me warm. I also have some extra for leisure. Although work is rather busy, compared to the constant scheming and fighting among the rich and powerful, life is more fulfilling. A busy life is a meaningful life.”

“There was more freedom in being ordinary compared to the days when I was still a part of the rich and powerful. After we went broke, I transferred to a public school to continue my third year of high school. While my result sufficed to qualify for University A, I went to University B because of the scholarship. It would help reduce my family’s burden.”

“During the four years in university, I took up part-time jobs and in between studying and working, I had no time to even think about relationships or love. It was not something that I deemed substantial. By the time I graduated from university, I had landed a job in Chengshi. It was a competitive industry, and I had the lowest qualification among the architects. I could only pursue further studies and continue on the path of keeping a job while studying. When I first started, naturally I had to put in more effort compared to others to be recognized. Adding to that, I had my postgraduate studies, I would say that during those times I had to squeeze really hard to find time to sleep.”