Sebastian knew this was wrong. This was completely so wrong to think that he finally had a glimpse of chance to be with her.
No. It was not right. He was so wrong to think that way.
He could have July with him for the rest of their life, but her heart would be forever his. The way she desperately cried his name, made Sebastian prayed that Knox wouldn’t come, that he would keep his words to stay away from her, because he knew, the moment July saw him, she would crumble. She would do everything to back away from her plan.
However, the thing that Sebastian didn’t know was; July’s reason to go through with this plan was deeper than that.
It was not only to get rid of Knox, so she wouldn’t see him again, but her plan to move to Lucinda city, the new capital city, was because she couldn’t afford Knox to see her ever again, especially Chaos.
She couldn’t let them know about her.
Once she moved to that city, she would be forever gone from their life, even Zuri. July couldn’t see her again.
She remembered how her stance when she told her about Flo. She didn’t budge at all, there was no consideration whatsoever. She was nothing against them and in this case, even Knox wouldn’t stand by her.
Therefore, she needed to take this extreme measure.
.....
This was all for the best.
This would be the last time she saw this place, these people and everything that she had built here, since Knox left this realm for years, would be gone, she needed to bury those memories on the back of her mind once she arrived at Lucinda city.
The moment they arrived there, July would be with Sebastian, she would be his, yet when he heard her cry, he wondered, who had won this?
Everyone was losing at this point...
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“I can’t find Knox,” Zuri said, as she entered the library, where she could find Chaos was there, sitting with a pile of old book that covered with dust.
He had been spending his time in this place ever since he woke up. There was something that he was looking for, but because those books were written in ancient language and Zuri couldn’t read a single word of it, she was not much of help.
Usually, Chaos would be here with Knox and he would help him, but recently, he was nowhere to be found.
“He is out again,” Chaos said, he put down his book and then opened his arms, as Zuri came over and hugged him. She loved his scent.
“Again?” Zuri repeated the words, squinting her eyes at that word. She sat on his laps and circled her arms around his neck. “Is he really serious when he said he will not see July again?”
“Yes,” Chaos replied, he was very sure with this.
“But, how? Why?” Zuri felt so annoyed by the way the two of them acted. They should talk about their problem, instead of going on separate way.
It hurt Zuri to see them hurting each other and why they couldn’t be together? She felt like it reflected so badly to her and Chaos’s relationship.
July and Knox were the people that she thought wouldn’t choose this path, she thought they would never be separated, no matter how hard the road ahead, but the fact that they were no longer together, scared her.
Zuri scared what the future would bring for her and Chaos. Would they hurt each other the way Knox and July did?
“She told him to not see her again. He obliged.” That was a simple and a very brief explanation, but still, it didn’t explain anything for Zuri.
She buried her face against his chest, as she mumbled something incoherently, while Chaos caressed her long hair. Her hair was so white and he loved to see it. Her body was so warm against him.
“Can’t you make him to meet July for the last time?” Zuri lifted her head to look at Chaos.
“I can’t,” he replied in a matter of fact tone.
“Why?”
“Aside the fact he is my shattered soul, he has his own mind to decide what best for him and I don’t want to get involved with his decision.”
Knox was his own person, albeit he was Chaos’s shattered soul and moreover, Chaos didn’t have any intention to interfere with anything to do or related to his relationship.
Zuri was aware of that, but at the same time, her understanding was conflicted with the thought of ‘why’. Why they should have this kind of end?
“I love you, Chaos,” Zuri said, she snuggled closer to him, she wanted to be close to him. She didn’t even want to start thinking that they would grow apart like they did.
The pain in July’s voice when she called out for Knox and how she couldn’t stop herself from crying out loud.
How the sadness was so thick, that affected Zuri greatly, as she was trying to fight back her own tears.
“I love you more, Blue.” He had loved her for three life times and he would continue to love her if there was another life after this.
Zuri kissed his shoulder and closed her eyes, as tear fell on her cheek. This was her safe place, in his arms...
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July wandered her eyes at the building in front of her, as she hugged Zuri a little bit longer, she took this time to savor every inches of this building, the place that she had lived for years. The first place that she returned to when she quit her job and started to focus on rebuilding whatever Knox had left behind with Sebastian as her advisor.
But now, she was consciously walking away from this said place and there was a slim to none chance that she would go back here anymore.
The only joy that she could find this mess was the fact that she would bring part of Knox with her. She would raise their child together.
Ciara said with how sensitive and how powerful Chaos and Knox were, they would have known about her pregnancy in around two weeks, therefore, she needed to go out of this place as soon as possible.
And her decision to not let Knox to see her again was so right. She did that in order to keep the baby safe. She had done the right thing, but why her heart told her it was not?
She felt so heavy, as if there was tons of brick was put on her shoulder right now and she couldn’t do anything, she was powerless...
“I hope you well,” Zuri said, she let July to hug her like this and kissed her cheeks when she finally let her go.
Zuri knew that she was waiting for Knox to appear. She said it before that she regretted they were fighting in their last moment and she didn’t have a chance to apologize, telling him how much she loved her and how sorry she was that things didn’t work between them.
“Take care of yourself,” July said and caressed Zuri’s head, like the way she did when she was still a child. “You have grown into a beautiful woman.”
“You should have known that, you shouldn’t be so surprise,” Zuri said smugly and July went for another hug again.
“I know you are...” she kissed both of her cheeks and then went to shake hand with Norbeat and Skylar, while she gave a hug to Ciara.
And that was all, that was all the people that came to see her off.
After that, Sebastian opened the car door for her and then nodded to the rest of the people, but he gave Zuri a brief hug before he went into the car and then drove away from the manor, leaving all of this behind them.
Norbeat and Skylar had been notified to handle all the things here, regarding what he and July had done. They would continue that.
July breathed heavily when the car went on the street that she had known so well, the place, where she felt like home and saw a few shifters that she had known for years, that they had worked together for those years.
“Are you okay?” Sebastian asked, now before their eyes, it was a huge gate, which once they went through this, there was no coming back for them. They would be out of the McKeltar’s protection.
Thanked to Ciara’s power, she would ensure their safety until they arrived at Lucinda city.
However, along the way, July couldn’t find the man that she wanted to see for the last time and her hope died out once they drove away from the gate.
“Yes, I am fine,” July said tiredly. She closed her eyes because the bright sun was glaring in front of her once they were out of the protection of the Mckeltar.
Sebastian put down the sunvisor to protect her eyes from the bright light. This was a small gesture that he always did to show how he cared about her.
“Seb, I want to tell you something,” July said, still in her tired voice and with her eyes closed, because she was scared to see how he would react.
“What is it?” Sebastian glanced at her briefly.
There was a long silence before she admitted this. “I am pregnant.”