Emily was afraid that Eros would show disappointment or sadness when he knew that they would leave this place very soon, but she didn’t see it at all.
Probably because he was very good at hiding it, or maybe… just maybe, he really didn’t mind about it at all. Maybe… the mate bond between them was not that strong.
And without her knowing it, she had hugged him so tight, she felt relief because she didn’t see the disappointment in his eyes. The world could crumble and all the shifter could go war against the human for all she cared, but knowing she would always have him was something that gave her peace.
“Let’s go home…” Emily said, she was almost crying because of this relief. Once they got into the pack, everything would be normal again. She could forget the fact that Eros had met his mate. She didn’t have anything against Zuri, she didn’t hate her, since she didn’t do anything to her.
However, Emily didn’t want to see her again.
“Okay, let’s go home,” Eros said, he was a little bit confused because Emily hugged him all of sudden and a little bit uncomfortable when two people walked in this corridor and glanced at them stealthily, but he let Emily to hug him because she seemed very distraught. “But, let’s have lunch first. We need to buy something for our journey back too.”
Emily nodded.
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“Is there something that bothering you?” July asked, they just had their lunch together and now Rhea was sleeping, so July took her to her room, which dominated with the color of blue, though she was a girl, but apparently she loved this color.
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July put the little girl on the bed and tucked her in, before she paid close attention to Zuri, who was standing not too far from her, looking through the small items and plushy that had collected. She had a lot in her room.
Meanwhile, Sebastian and Gael were inside the study room, talking about their business together, which a topic that would bore both of them.
“Are you happy?” Zuri asked, she leaned her body against the table and faced July, whose expression became serious, because after all the pleasantries talk during lunch, this was the real conversation between them.
July smiled, it softened her feature and she looked happy, but at the same time sad as well. She grew old like wine, she was very fine and wiser.
“I am happy,” she replied, there was a tremble in her voice when she answered that. “Are you happy?”
The right answer at this time was to say that she was also happy, but to be honest, Zuri didn’t know whether she was happy or not. What was happiness?
Would you only be happy if you could get what you desired? Like what July had right now? The family that she wanted…
But, if that was the case, Zuri was so far from being happy, since achieving Chaos’s goal was a long road that they had to go through.
Was happiness because you could be together with someone that you loved? Zuri was with Chaos now, but she felt she grew distant from him. There were a lot of things that happened and her determination faltered.
She shouldn’t have used her heart when she had to deal with the shattered soul, but she couldn’t help it and now she was miserable.
“Are you?” July asked again, she held her baby’s hand and kissed those little fingers.
Zuri didn’t answer that, she stared at July, deep in thought. It would be fine if she answered her with a ‘yes’, yet the word didn’t want to leave her lips.
Was she happy now? When the last time she felt happy?
“She is Knox’s child, right?” July asked her instead, she stared at Rhea’s sleeping face. “Her eyes.”
July flinched slightly when she heard that, but then she nodded. “Yes.” There was no way she could lie about this, the fact was so obvious for her to be able to get away from this.
“You agreed to leave McKeltar manor because you are pregnant with his child, am I right?” Zuri asked her again. She didn’t want to be questioned about happiness again.
And July didn’t need to answer that, because Zuri could see it on her expression, that was enough to answer that.
“Did Sebastian know about this?”
“Yes. He knew about this, since the beginning.”
“How? Can you be pregnant?” Zuri narrowed her eyes and then walked closer toward July. “I am sure Knox will know how to prevent that.” Or else, Zuri would have been pregnant with Chaos’s child as well.
July’s face flushed red when she heard that. “You ask a very intimate question.”
Hearing that, Zuri rolled her eyes dramatically. “Oh please, you know what I meant.” Creature like Chaos and Knox wouldn’t impregnant their woman without their consent, that was something that she learned from Chaos.
Therefore, Knox wouldn’t let July to leave McKeltar manor six years ago if he knew that she was pregnant, if he was consent to impregnant her. After all, July left because of this one problem.
“I don’t know,” July said, she lowered her head, as she stared at her daughter. “Don’t ask the question.”
Zuri wanted to retort, but then she saw the look on her eyes and dropped the topic, since she only asked this out of curiosity.
“You know what it means, right?” Zuri sat down on the other side of the bed, she stared at Rhea’s sleeping face, she looked like Knox.
“Is she?” July lifted her head, she shallowed hard when she tried to find the answer of it. “Is she part of Chaos’s shattered soul?”
“You should know why Knox didn’t want to have child, because every child that’s born from shattered soul will be another one of Chaos’s soul.”