Chapter 17: My girlfriend is Anna

As the homeroom started, Anna entered the class. She was looking breathtaking. Her gorgeous hair flowing down her back, beautiful face with a slight touch of makeup, in a white shirt and blue pants, along with a coat over it. Overall what I am saying is that she was in the suit which was normal somehow but I don't know why, but she was looking gorgeous in it. Also the suit she's wearing is not skintight. It maybe perhaps she knew that I don't like women who wear extremely skintight clothes. Don't misunderstand me. It's not like I judge them on whatever they ate wearing. It's just that I don't feel comfortable around such women so I distance myself from them. As for their case, they can wear whatever they like. But that attempt of hers was futile because even after wearing not-so-skintight suit, her curves were still visible, not that I mind it.

Anna, after entering the class winked in my direction.

"Holy hell! Dude you see that! She just winked at me! The ice princess winked at me! HELL YEAAAHHHH!" James whispered.

"Congrats man. Just go propose her"[PAUL]

"Nah...she's probably in a relationship. I can tell that. And I'm no fan of NTR. I'll just give her my blessings. She, and the other guy may together be forever"[JAMES]

That's my dude. One thing about these assholes is that they are man of character. Not that I mind if he were to give a shot. Like hell would I ever let Anna get away from me. 

The classes went on. In between them, I got several winkies from Anna, which I made sure that no one sees. 

"Okay. That's it for today. Allen, meet me at staff room after school." Said Anna and took her books and left the class. I can see more or less to where it is heading.

And so and so classes went on. Finally it was lunch. I was hungry and wanted to go to cafeteria as soon as possible. Just when I was at the door, a voice startled me.

"Allen! Don't you dare go out of the class."[RACHAEL]

"Rachael, can we talk later. As you can see I'm pretty much hungry."[ME]

"No problem. I have a bento for you. Let's go"[RACHAEL]

And before I knew, I was being dragged along the corridor by Rachael. A shocked expression was seen on every face that saw this. I may or may not have told this but Rachael is rather popular among students from not only our class, but the whole grade. She(Rachael) also told me how she had rejected many confessions from seniors in our school. Among those shocked faces, I can see one of Roxanne too. Don't know why she's shocked though. I think she expected that being colleagues, I should've told her about Rachael which I didn't and now she's disappointed. Whatever, if she's curious, she will ask. 

Thinking about this, we then arrived at the rooftop. We chose the place near fence to eat our lunch. 

"Look Ally, I prepared all your favorite items"[RACHAEL]

"Woah! It's been a long time since I tasted your cooking. Let me try"[ME]

"Yeah. Here, Aaah"[RACHAEL]

"Aaahh"[ME]

"How does it taste?"[RACHAEL]

"Fantastic as ever. Seriously, should I consider hiring you as a cook?"[ME]

"I'm fine with it"[RACHAEL]

"But I'm not. You should focus on your studies and from what I remember, you are quite rich, aren't you?"[ME]

"Yes. But that's my parents money not mine. I just wish to earn my own money"[RACHAEL]

"You will. In the future though"[ME]

With this, we ate our lunch chatting about stuffs.

"You know Ally, you don't have to pretend in front of me"[RACHAEL]

"...."[ME]

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"I know more about you than you yourself. No need to pretend in front of me. I know what you have faced and how much I regret not knowing it back then, and you still were breaking down when we were together"[RACHAEL]

"I know Rachael, but I can't. This pretentious behavior is now a part of me. I've learned to live by deceiving others with these fake emotions. And I don't care whatever they think about me. But for ones whom I care about, I cannot do that. I don't want to scare them. I don't want them to see me as some freak. A living dead. A man with no emotions. One who cannot get sad, cannot get angry and cannot get happy. I've seen much in the past and I don't have any strength left in me to experience that again. I fear that if it were to happen again, I cannot recover from it ever. That's why.." I looked at her with a smile which was rather fake. I tried my best to convey my feelings.

After seeing me, Rachael's facial expressions turned from relaxed  to angry and then to sad. She was trying her best to control her tears which failed as she hugged me. Her face is on my chest, staining it with tears. She was weeping silently. I could tell that she was crying because of how badly her shoulders shook. I pressed my hand on her head and patted her after ruffling her hairs.

After some time, she left my embrace and looked at me with determination.

"Ally, I love you. Please let me be your girlfriend"[RACHAEL]

And now it's done. I'm done. The very conversation I was trying to avoid just came knocking at my door.

"I know you are thinking 'and now I think I'm done. The very conversation I was trying to avoid just came knocking at my door'. Just so you know, I'll not leave you until I get my answer. You have dodged this conversation for  quite a number of times. But now enough is enough. I'm fed up of this. I just want to be your girlfriend. "[RACHAEL]

"Sorry Rachael, I know that, and sorry I cannot accept your confession" I bowed towards her. After a few seconds after not getting any response, I glanced over and saw the yandere Rachael. Eyes completely blank, an expressionless face and the spoon in her hands bent to almost half. God knows where the hell did they(yandere)  get all their strength from. 

"Who's it?"[RACHAEL]

"Sorry, but I can't tell you"[ME]

"Is it that Anna?"[RACHAEL]

"Nope" Crap! How the hell did her first guess to the point. Is she the 'stalker' kind of yandere?

"It is Anna, right?"[RACHAEL]

"Nope, I told you it's not her. Why the hell would she ever like a dork like me?"[ANNA]

" 'sniff'......" and there she started crying. Her head down, her hairs covering her face, body shaking and tears falling down to the floor below. 

I can't bear to watch this and ultimately took her in my embrace.

"There there, who's prettiest in the world.....it's Rachael. Who's strongest in the world......it's Rachael. Strong ones don't cry. So please don't cry Rachael. Please." I used this way to calm her down in the past too.

"Ally, you know how much I love you, don't you? You know I've liked you from way back. Remember how you were my only friend in the gym, and how I came to your house everyday back then. My parents were rarely at home. I felt that I have to become strong, so strong that I don't need anyone's presence or absence in my life to govern my actions. I thought that I can only become strong on my own. I didn't need anyone's support. And I was successful. I managed to survive on my own. But I failed. I devastatingly failed. All because of you. All because I decided to join that gym. All because of meeting you. All because of spending time with you. And I am happy that I failed. I am really grateful to God that I failed. I never regretted, nor will ever in the future, meeting you. You have become my everything. My passion, my obsession, my need, my everything, so please" with a cheerful smile on her face along with tears sliding down her eyes  

"Love me back."

*crack* 

Something in me snapped. I could feel my eyes getting misty as my vision was starting to get blurred. I don't know when tears started flowing through my eyes.

"Hey! What happened! Don't cry Ally" shocked Rachael took me in her embrace. My face was buried in her valley. But rather than getting aroused, my mind was blank. It was the first time in life my brain stopped following my commands. I tried to speak but couldn't. I wanted to get out of her embrace, but my body refused to do so. It was telling me to let myself move with the flow.

After sometime, I regained sanity. After getting out of her embrace, I looked towards her and said

"Rachael, my girlfriend is Anna"

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