Am I really living

Hi.....what next to say......um.....Hello my name is Allen Smith and I am a first year highschool student and I hope that we can get together........
This is what I thought I'd be normally speaking but I don't really like to talk to anyone unless situation force me to..and by force really means unless the work couldn't be done without communicating or I can't get my work done without it. Call me a selfish person but that's what I am. But I was not really like this. It started from somewhat like junior high......and day by day I started to feel like my every emotions (especially anger and expectations from anyone) are getting lost......and then I start to think....AM I REALLY LIVING