Chapter 15: Chap 15

“Senior. You should live for yourself too.”

 

“That’s impossible.” I answered promptly. There is no way I could just live for myself.

 

“Senior. The works of your ancestors, the love of your parents, the guidance of our master aren’t for you to pay back literally. That’s not how karma works. That’s not how morality works. That’s not how we, humans, should do.” 

 

She paused, seemingly to compose herself.

 

“Senior. Your parents give you your flesh and blood. That doesn’t mean they would be glad to see you spill those for them. I am sure you will just cause them grievances. They, who are closer to yellow springs (underworld) than you, would rather die for you than the other way around. You are to repay them by raising your own children to be a good person and good parent. ”

 

I can’t rebuke but… this… I can’t accept entirely. I love them too much to not sacrifice for them. Wouldn’t it unfilial to not put your bearers above?

 

“Your ancestors have provided you with the opportunity to improve your talent. You should repay them by passing it to the next generation, allowing them to also develop themselves. Water from the mountains streams down to the river then takes on a journey to the sea. Rain clouds from the sea would bring water back to the mountains. The fruits of previous generations are to be passed down like water down the waterfall. Just like water, they don’t go back up.”

 

Yun An…

 

“Master had opened your eyes. Then what you should do is to offer your guidance to your disciples or to junior disciples. However, that doesn’t mean you have to follow every single word that the master has taught you.”

 

“Yun An. You are not making sense.”

 

“Senior. Please understand. What you have learned and will learn, not all of them will be applicable to your disciples. You have to filter them carefully. There are things only you can do. Each disciple will have a different best way for them to learn. You can not overgeneralise just because that was how you were taught. Danger to your disciples must be minimised.”

 

“Yun An, please stop.”

 

I am supposed to be the senior. I am supposed to be the one who knows more, and I thought I did… but I didn’t. I couldn’t keep a cool head nor couldn’t I understand her reasoning. How can there be something master taught that is harmful to others?

 

I can’t continue talking with her now. “I finished your treatment.”

 

“Thank you, senior.” She rose up in one fluid movement and offered me her gratitude.

 

“It’s what I should do.”

 

We stand in silence until I break the awkwardness. “We had had a long day. Let’s rest.”

 

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Let’s just end today.

 

“Yes, senior.”

 

I kill the fire then climb up to the branch on the opposite of hers. With our eyes away from each other, I feel more relaxed. Our argument is best saved for another day. I will need time to think about it.

 

She is a peculiar one. By her work and her conduct, I can tell she is far more insightful than most people I had met. Only master and several elders could match her perceptiveness. She is like a sage.

 

However, not just her way of thinking is special. I didn’t want young master He to treat her for a reason.

 

I recall my conversation with our master the day we met her.

 

“Master. Why didn’t you treat her wound there?”

 

I know that master can easily fix the damage Dong Meng caused to her with a simple touch on the back but he didn’t do so. He clearly used qi to treat her for a bit before telling me to bring her to the side of the street for a more thorough treatment.

 

“You have good eyes, lil Zhong. It is not that I didn’t want to heal her there. I couldn’t.”

 

I was shocked to hear the answer of master. Someone in Ascension realm like master couldn’t do it?

 

“The flow in her body is so different and complex that even after spending a while to examine, I couldn’t completely grasp it. I had to resolve to temporarily stabilise her injury with my qi and move her to the side. That way we wouldn’t obstruct the people, and I would have more time to get used to her body.”

 

“Master. Could there be any relation to her strength?”

 

“Hey.” He let out an audible sigh. “At last, I am uncertain.”

 

Treating her today, I found out just how much of a trouble that is. Merely neutralising the yin qi that had seeped into her body took half the evening. If I left it to someone with lower cultivation like young master He, he might accidentally damage her body.

 

Today is really a long day. Tomorrow, we should stick to a safer area to recuperate. 

 

Talking about recuperation, she really worries me. Her disregard for safety is unnatural. I know that girls are conscious about their body. Those wounds on her body can leave scars. That will make it difficult for her marriage later on. That’s why my mother warned me not to be rough to the girls.

 

Yun An. Does becoming an orphan have something to do with your behavior?

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